Life's A LOT | The Weight of Life, Positive Influence & Getting Gas | The MJ38 Show #110

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Matthew and Justin talk about carrying the weight of Life's obligations, The importance of surrounding yourself with positive influences & When the proper time is to get gas

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And we just jump on in 110. Welcome in. Hopefully alive is going amazing. Life is moving quick. It's a lot. Always. All the time. That's all we talk about. Face. Just the weight of having to take care of. We've alluded to it before, but just the idea of taking care of all this shit that you got going on all the time, sometimes you don't feel the true weight of that. So if you get through a day, if you get a fuck and if you do, we don't give ourselves the ability to have the appreciation for the littlest of things to, for, for whatever reason. You know what I'm saying? Yeah. We have like a, we have a proclivity to not, say, reward something like a piece of trash or giving or getting up at the at a certain time, or cleaning this little area of your house, taking out the trash, throwing it like the small stuff, then like you have to do, you know, you have to take care of these things. Yeah. And we don't give ourselves enough positive emotions sometimes for the littlest of those things. But we the opportunity to give yourself negative emotion, even exponential negative emotion in response to those things is way easier and way higher and way more into your nature. Yeah. And that's it's we're carrying that all the time everyone. So hopefully having a good day. Let's make a little bit better. Yeah. Yeah. We it starts when you as soon as you're born. As soon as you're born. The things that stress you out really stress you out. But then you laughing giggle like kids have the best time you know like laugh super hard. Very small things is what I'm trying to say. They'll be like maximum. Yeah that'll be time. That's amusement. Yeah for sure. And and I think that sometimes we're supposed to be doing that now to, to balance out like our stressors, but it's like just gets a little harder and harder as you have more responsibility to, like, remember to have fun. There's also a pressure, like sometimes if I'm having too much fun at work, like my coworkers or my bosses, will they get frustrated with me because I'm just having fun and then they're like, you must not be doing your job well because you're having fun. And I'm like, that's your association because you're doing your job well and you're not having fun. And, and and that's fine. Well, it's just something I've dealt with my entire life. Like, even in school, if I'm having fun with my friends or, like, you must not be doing your schoolwork, I'm like, bitch, I'm sitting there is an assumption. Yeah, yeah, yeah, right. Like I'm doing I'm in the top 10%. Like if you're laughing with your homies, it's like you're not getting work done. Yeah. You're laughing. Oh, you should join my study group. You have fun and you get good grades, you know? But like, that thing right there has always been annoying to me because then they'll separate me and my friends or the in the name of the moment. Yeah. You're not working hard. And I'm like, that's not true. Maybe not the second. I'm laughing the second, but also like, let's just look in the room about who's working hard this second. Is it necessarily a reflection of are they working hard? You know what I'm saying? It's like what? How do you truly define hard work? And my Jordan Peterson voice, it's like the great would be part of it, you know, but also like, anyways, you know, how many breaks you take possession. What's a successful break possession ratio? And there's also like the analyst analyzation of that moment in particular when you're doing whatever you're doing and you're laughing, but then there's like, okay, well this moment is nested in a moment of moments. That is a long time. So like in the longer outrun or like, you know, time like I'll time of my output to produce a result. Is it like more positive or negative? And it's like maybe in this moment I'm like tiptoeing into the negative side or like having fun or like giving because I guess there's like two schools of thought. It's like if you're either contributing to the moment and giving maximum discipline or doing maximum whatever, you know, like putting out your shit, trying to do with the best you can. But then, I'm I'm getting lost in these thoughts. I'm sorry. I'm with you. I could drop it for a little bit. Yeah, please, I think that. Nope. Got lost. Like a half sketch. What was going on? That a joke as a joke, but, it's nested in moments, right? So it's like when you're looking at my performance as, like, a student or a player, it's like, yeah, maybe I'm laughing in this moment that, like, you caught me in and maybe you're stressed out in this moment. So I'm like, you know, an annoying bad kid at school. Like, I stop laughing, I'm teaching. It's like, oh, okay, dude. It's like, but that's not what I do. But there are times when nothing's going on where I'm kind of in control. Like, I'm caught up and it's just like, now I want to have fun because I'm or be bored. That's the other option. I've killed the yeah, I've killed all the monsters that this requires. Yeah. Mentally, I remember one of these in specifically chilling. Sorry. I'm me to cut you off. No, no, no. That's it. One of us specifically where this type of thing happened to me, and it still frustrates me to this day, is we were having a meeting at work that, like, I was more or less like conducting, but it wasn't like an official meeting. But we were like, hey, let's get together and talk about this thing. So we have it like on the PowerPoint. I'm in there, and the other people I'm working on are there to. And then we are dying laughing in the room. Like it? It's the something happened. Somebody said something that somebody made a joke. Then you made a joke that like, made the whole room just cackle. Dude, this is where I one of our slots. It. Okay. Yeah. It's like a pretty shift. No, it was just like we were, using, like, a private room to talk about, like, a holiday party or something like that. Like we were planning something. We needed to discuss the details about something, get it worked out, and then get back to what was like opening or something like that, you know, before the rush came in. And then we were doing that, and then you said something that was hilarious. And then like our and we were like bosses. Then like the boss walked in of us and then we're, like, dying laughing. And then I feel like in that moment he was like, oh, man, you guys are working hard, a hard day, working. And then he left thinking that we were just like goofing off. And I was like, not at all the case, you know? Like, how rarely do you get to have a group of people that you're that close with it? Y'all can make me laugh that hard while I'm also being productive. That's like such a rich a rich environment to be in. That's a nice perspective. And then to turn your nose at that I'm like, oh man. Like it was just like if you had seen the nested moments within the moments you would have been like, this meeting was just a meeting to get something extra done that wasn't even on the agenda today, and we still got that thing done on top of other things that we were getting done. But we also just have fun while we do it. It doesn't look like, hey, Fred, how you doing, Fred? Good to see you, Fred. I won't see you all day, Fred. I'll be fucking click clack clack clack. And it's like, I don't know man, I don't know. But that's the thing that I've just noticed everywhere. The teacher yell at us for talking too much. The fucking. Yeah. Yell at you for football. You're not paying attention. Yeah. I guess because I was saying that ultimately over the long span there's, there's this costs associated to not doing it properly over the long run. So you would see those moments and be like see like that's probably a product of like fucking half an hour. You should have been working hard. But it's like if we if we were still reaping positive spiritual fruit and like, like material external fruit, like things are going well, he's mentally, you know, saying we can have that and justify that in the long run. But like, say, this is kind of a part of the path ultimately to have fun. That's ideal, you know, to enjoy what you're doing truly at that level. Yes. And hopefully what you're doing is striving upwards. And so yes, I am striving upwards. But even in the pursuit of striving upward, sometimes we like Joker, like fuck around. Yeah. And like are silly and funny and like, that's why people pay for stand up comedy and we love it is an art. Yeah. To be able to talk and make you like, make you evoke laughter. Yeah. You know. Yeah. To to laugh at that level is like a attachment to pure joy. You know, I'm with you and having fun in the serving industry. I think it's a core tenet of the whatever you call like a core principle or whatever as, Landry's or Sawgrass, like the fifth one. The last one is have fun. And then it's like, because if you're not having fun, you're not going to be like, good at your job or like performing to the highest peak that you could perform at, or it's going to be a bad relationship for you if you're not having fun. So sometimes because their culture is very like, everyone coaches everybody all the time. So if something's like out of harmony, somebody will be like, we're not supposed to do this, this and this. And then everybody be like, good coach, good coach. We all felt that disharmony. And then someone addressed it and we're like, oh yeah, yeah. That's why I just. And then we all get harmony again. And it was like a common thing. And then sometimes that would happen and we'd go disharmony. And I'd be like, we're supposed be having fun. It's one of the core principles, right? Have fun. And then people are like, that's a good coach. Just having fun. Yeah, that's good coach. We have to integrate that in okay. So like maybe this is supposed to be like a soul sucking process, you know? So how do you how do you have fun while you're following all the rules, you know, and it would kind of make the boss maybe be less like, tyrannical in that moment. Be like, okay, yeah, yours is fuck. Yours is the Harry Potter thing process beautiful? Sometimes. Yeah. To a degree or imbalance in in harmony or like disharmony to get it back into a higher harmony. That's better. That's better. Totally. That's what better is in essence. And there's no reason to not have fun moments a moment. I mean like if it's like I'll try to but you gotta, you gotta try to win the game. You know what I'm saying? I guess if we're in the fucking if we're in overtime or in the huddle and I'm trying to give the the play call. Yeah, there's someone's nap. It's like overtime, you know, we're on a drive to go win the game. Yeah. Metaphorically. So like, you need to be locked in. Yeah. And we told jokes with that irrefutably. Shut the fuck up. But it'd be funny, you know? Yeah. What do you mean, I guess? Yeah. In a movie, in a movie sense, I think you're right. You shouldn't be locked in. I saw Vin Diesel. It's like war. Yeah. You want to be locked in? You need to be locked in, bro. You need to have the ability and capacity to lock in. So I saw Vin Diesel in Saving Private Ryan, and then I was like, you're like, it's like war. I was like, I want to look at that. But he was someone told a joke to him. When it's like on the line, it'd be like, shut the fuck up, bro. What are you talking about? You know, said, I don't want to waste time or energy addressing that. Yeah, I'm trying to put that bullshit away. It's like we need to be focused on the family some more. Yeah, it's heavy dogs just going on out here. It's hard. She's going down. I agree. There's a time and place for everything, for sure. I get it, I get it, but people don't. There is a balance to it for sure. And harmony and, it's well worth striving for that joy and enjoyment in what you're doing. You know, it'll take away from the fact that it's a lot I'll take away from the fact that you're showing up there all the time. It's the laughter is important. Yeah, you have that. It sounds. Are you working 40 or 50 hours a week and you still don't have that much money after? Like it's all said and done, there's a lot of seasons of your life where things are up or things are down or this good economy is bad economy. I just feel like it's just constantly gonna feel like that because it's like also your whatever your cost of live is one thing, like your expenses and then the money you're making is one thing. And those two things will like go up and down depending on what season of life you're in. I don't even think it's like much of what you do. It's just like what God has planned for you. And then within that realm, like, it'll look different, but it's just going to feel what the same things will be easier, things will be harder, things were easier. So there's times in your life where you're working really hard, but you're still on the like. Things aren't really easy right now. They're more difficult and it's just going to be like kind of tolling and soul sucking. So it's like, how do you not go crazy? It's like having fun is definitely like one way. I think everybody doesn't go crazy. Just try to go to work and not hate your life like your work. Yeah. So people have to distract themselves with other, other things at work. You know, I'm saying. Yeah, that's the whole thing too. Some people talk way too much for sure where you're like bruh stop talking about like oh this is like my work husband, my work life. Oh my God. That's it's like it truly is like 17 I'm saying yeah like truly dissociating yourself from yourself. The first time I ever heard that, I was like, oh, you make me sick. Yeah. I was like, it's getting fucked up. My wife was like, this is my work husband. I'd be like, oh fuck, oh fuck. Fuck. Oh fuck man. Oh, oh, come on, it's delicate now. Need for common, young man. That's not that's not. Give me an accent. No. Oh come on. To slap me north of the border. Oh, no. Oh, yeah. I have you heartbroken. I'm hoping that the woman that I would, I wouldn't be like into that. You know, hopefully you reserve that. Yeah. It's like, what's the point of that? To make my life easier. He does things for me. Then I kind of flirt with them, but it's harmless. Shut the fuck up on that shit. I hate you. Just kidding. No, women wouldn't like the reciprocal of that. And I don't think women would aspire to do that to their man. But it happens. It's it's going on. It happens every day. I think the idea of it was expressed in the service industry, but I think it's a thing that's going on. You know, regardless, this is the thing with this guy's like, welcome to the gym. It's like it'll be a moment where a girl does something kind of savage to a guy, and then he's just like, Ryan, welcome to the gym, Tom, your trainer. Nice to meet you today. We're doing biceps, and then he, like, shows you a workout. But it's like it would be a moment like that where it's like, okay, like your wife is like, this is my work husband. That for Matthew, welcome to the gym. Today we're doing bicep. For like guys it's the guys. Ladies. Well yeah that's the sad that's the sad reality. I think if you want to be a I think the good women out there aren't doing that to their man. It's a frequency thing. I don't know if that's worth. But one other note about having fun is I think that if you go to the back and you're making an espresso and somebody is like, did you see the thing with the blah blah blah, and someone's walking with that and they're like, there. Have you heard about Patrick Mahomes? And it makes you crack up and then you walk by and make a joke about something he said. And it's hilarious, and I'm dying. And then I go back out to my table and then I'm just like, right back in the doo doo doo doo doo doo doo. Like, that's good for business. That's always I don't know. I'm saying you want me there. You don't need to walk back there and be like, oh, scared for my life and then get what I need and then get back out there and I'm like, hello? This is the hot tea. Please don't spill it. Yeah. That's crazy talk notes and. It's a balancing act between like the seriousness and then the what. What's the having fun nature kind of have attached to it like mean or just not focus or like I said what do they think. I think it's like a subconscious thing that happens or something. It's really just annoying you. It's just annoying you. So sometimes other people having fun is annoying you, and then you're saying it's annoying me because it's morally wrong. It's morally wrong because we shouldn't be doing that. They must be being lazy or bullshitting or not doing something that they could be doing. That's a more virtuous thing. Even just like you should be reading your book, it's like, whatever, bro. Fine, I'll read my book and then this is your like some more. I guess you're doing the right thing more. And then ultimately it's like that comes down to the, the environment that the person is in charge of the environment has chosen to create. And then, you know, sometimes it's just you're in an environment that someone else is the person chosen to make that environment. That's just how it's going to go. There's nothing you can do about that. But then when I would making an environment people are having fun. You know I'm not going to like discourage it per se unnecessarily. You know I want us to dial in, you know, we need we we need to be able to for sure because it's and you need to put your attention to something, you know, something calls out to you at a high intensity. Yeah. It's like I got to answer that call with a high intensity. Yeah. And that requires concentration. Like correct allocation of energy and resources and thinking ability, you know, saying and action execution depending on your thought process, whatever that gives you a. Yeah. Yeah. So how do we start talking about having fun. Oh because that's a lot. Yeah I even had a little but there's something there. Yeah. Yeah. It's it's a lot but it's just yeah, it's awesome. It's awesome. It's a privilege for sure. Granted. You know what I'm saying is important, but yeah, it gets heavy. Yeah. It's having to do or giving yourself a lot of shit to do and then like having to, I guess, because there is like the natural inherent shit that it comes with life, the body you're given. And then you have like your social connections as well, and then your own personal stuff that you got like you want to take care of, like you got to go to, like you want to go to the gym, you go to the gym, you know, like find a gym, get gym clothes, find a workout, figure out how to work out, do that. And I continue that for forever. Pretty much is like the the gotcha the got your moment. Yeah of working out. Yeah yeah I wish I could do this forever Yeah. So I don't, I don't, you know. Yeah. Same thing with money. Yeah. You want to stay rich. I got to fire these neurons that help do the right thing. Get the right direction, the right upward aim, whatever. I truly align with the upward results. I gotta try aligning with that thing. Yeah, I try to do that shit. It's hard. And it's a lot when I mean, well, life's good. I think it's important to have hobbies, I guess. Well, okay. What are you filling your moment with? Like the music. Listen to the audio, like the podcasts, the movies, whatever you're consuming. Like all these choices that we're making. I mean, Lawson source. What do you feel your moment with? Yeah. So you, you said you might think it's important to have hobbies. Find yours. I think I think it's important to find things that you're willing to spend your time and energy on that are positive and, you know, results in a somewhat of a realignment to a positive, more positive aim. Okay. It's like. Listening to better music or listening to like, Tony Robbins. I know it sounds like kind of corny, but like getting into that realm is introduced into that realm, like into their school of dojo. Like that thought the thought school of dojo, Tony Robbins, like Grant Cardone esque characters. You know, some of the people are have their own persona in doing it. But there's something true there. There's something that's worth giving your time and energy to that thing versus all the other things that you could be possibly giving your time and energy to. So one way to help handle how hard it is is to listen to people talk about like, yeah, motivational stories, like the Nvidia guy on Joe and John Cena on Joe. Yeah. Listen to some of these stories and perspectives and filling your it's. And then also you have social proof to a degree and like you kind of agree with the with the zeitgeist is like what are we all talking about. What do we all think about things. You know what I'm saying? Yeah. And it's like people like Jay Shetty and like Chris Williamson and some of some of those characters like, you know who they are. You know, I'm saying, you know what to do. Or if you don't now you kind of do Tony Robbins and all that. Who's is Jim Rohn? That's the guy he passed away. Yeah. Yeah, he passed away. He's one he's one of my one of my favorites for sure. But that whole school of people and that idea of like the because it is like mental jujitsu you guys do out here, man. The Lachman yeah. Like fuck man. Yeah. Yourself, your family obligations, physical obligations. It's a lot. Yeah. But handling it, I think listening to. So as of lately has been listening to a lot a lot of what's Frank going on if I could force Frank is the only thing. It's a lot of force. Frank. Listening to a lot of gospels, a lot of the gospels where the sermons and the why are you podcasts or whatever from CBC and then Common Ground. Dick Henderson I got my tattoo from the singer he gives his head to use from Crazy Dog. Yeah, just like a. Banana sandwich starter. That's exactly what you want to do for filling in. And yeah, Joe Rogan and listen to the one right now I just dropped today. Hopefully Joe, when he's talking to Jelly Roll and Jelly Roll and Force, Frank had like a little altercation. So I'm hoping those wires cross. The 38 gets which that type of audience is created. Yeah that'll be awesome I'm here for dude. But filling my moment with those things has proven to definitely like give me through a workout too, you know what I'm saying? But also like give me through the day or like bring me. Water. You know, that's it. That's Jesus. As opposed to Jesus punishment, doing things in the name of Jesus will move mountains. That allow you to be bigger than your circumstances, even though your circumstances are a lot. Yeah, here's what's happening and I'm sorry, I like I think if you try to fast, if you tried to quit smoking, it would be really hard if you tried to quit smoking in the name of Jesus, it would be. What am I trying to say? I'm like, if you're trying to quit smoking and you couldn't do it on your own, and then you tried to quit smoking in the name of Jesus, it's the likelihood that you could do it is higher, almost like impossible for you to fail at that point. If you really tried your hardest in the name of Jesus, Jesus would help you like that. That's why if you if you just try to quit something, it's different than if you're fasting for Easter from it. Like there's a different energy attached to it. And it's just it's easier to break the chain if you're doing it with the help of Jesus, or you're doing it for Easter, or you're sacrificing it for it. When God's involved, the the the chain breaks like it snaps. But then if you're just trying to do it on your own, you have to be like, you know, really committed or like, willing to rip your hand off or like, read a book about how to pick a lock. And then that's how you can get rid of a habit that you have. That's a bad habit if you're just going to do it on your own. But with Jesus, you can just get on the prayer mat. And like when you want the alcohol that you're feeding from, you can just cry and pray for like hours and then the feeling like will subside, like Jesus will subside. The feeling in you. And that's, I think if you were just sitting on the couch for hours, it wouldn't be the same thing. It doesn't happen the same way. Then you probably go and drink. But when Jesus is helping you, it's it's a different. You're doing something different. I think there's a different energy attached to it. A more successful energy, a more true energy. You get, I think, aligned and get streamed and fed. The proper thoughts and, and or whatever are able to. It's like thoughts and emotions are kind of like what we're experiencing here. George Dispenza refers to as like the thoughts of the or the language of the body is emotions and the language of the brain or the mind is thoughts. Okay? And it's like your thoughts influence your emotions and your emotions influence your thoughts. So if you're able to. Get more properly aligned with the thoughts that are going to create an emotion that's proper, or be able to generate an emotion from within, that then generates the thoughts either way, more aligned with the proper feeling of not having those chains on us that are so heavy we all got to take care of all the time. It's like, that's at least abstractly in theory, what we're talking about here at least Jesus is like the way, the path of life. You seem to get away from the heaviness that is life. It's fucking hard. Yeah. So given my time to those kinds of things, at least, you know, getting and trying to think about the right. What are you thinking about? What are you consuming is what you're filling your moment with, is influencing what you're thinking about and what you're thinking about, and influencing your emotional state all the time. And you live in your emotional state all the time. And you can like, meditate and like try to pray and channel the energy from the inside and like hopefully already be aligned with that, that feeling and then feel it from the inside. Sometimes when it gets activated within you, you know, like, oh shit. Like, oh, I just felt a wink. You know, sometimes you, you see a wink or a coincidence or moment in life and in time where your thoughts and reality align at the same exact moment. And then it's like overwhelming. You can't help but say something. Yeah, like for the longest time. And I still do sometimes today when I see like 38 at the right time or whatever coincide coincidental moment between thought and reality happening, it makes me audibly say like, oh, ooh, yeah. It's like I can't help it. Like, whoa, whoa, whoa with the like, oh, give me a minute. You know what I'm saying? It happens to me. Yeah. You know, thoughts like that can happen. Hopefully you align yourself with the thing that can give you that mental awareness and influence your thoughts properly. Yeah. For sure. So I'm filling my moment with those things that have been socially proven to give people that type of experience or type of ability in this mental jujitsu that produces life. It's like, give yourself more of those things. Hopefully we are one of those things. That's where we're trying to be, hopefully consume some of us. Pass your time with us, you know? Yeah, we all got to pass time somehow. Fill it with fill the moment with something. If not because that moment is always filled with your thoughts. Regardless. Regardless, that's square one. That's the foundation of everything. And then what are you filling your moment with? Consciously choosing to fill your moment with stuff. I like Joe Rogan because it puts me in the flow state, which is nice. It's nice. It's nice to have warm waters. Yeah. So some of these chains after scientifically I'm also listening to like it's also like rational conversation between rational people, which is like stabilizing for your sanity because it's like isolation is bad for you because you're not seeing anything go on. So it's just like you're just holding on to I think I know what things are all on your own, but I can get a little tipsy turvy after a while. You need sometimes you need to look around and be like, is that how he talks about bread? Okay, I know what the fuck bread is, okay? Not something you wouldn't think you need. That. Slice it. Use it for a sandwich. Keep going. Yes, sir. Let's go. Yeah. You would. I think you need that. But you do. When someone uses donuts as buns. Or though this is bread, like, what the fuck are you doing? Yeah, yeah, yeah, exactly. Like we're doing some different, right? That would trip you out or, like, if someone just took, like, a loaf of bread, but then you started eating it like a fucking, like corn on the cob. You're like, what the fuck am I doing? I thought I knew a bread was. What the fuck are you doing, man? What do you know that I don't, right? The absurdity kind of alludes to the fact that you wouldn't think that you would need that. But if you were like, alone in isolation for a while, it's like there is a part of you that like, subconsciously, you need to you like to see other people doing things because it lets you know that you're not crazy. It's like, I mean, this is real. This is real, this is real. Yeah. I'm in a group of people who are also suffering the same circumstances. So that's also how I know it's real. Because you're real, right? It's like, okay, they're real. They're doing that in their house over there. Same shit a different day. Okay, cool. I just need to do it. I don't know how they're doing it, but I need to do it well enough for my standards. You work in a job. Okay, well, you know what? Insurance you pay. You pay that fucking insurance premium. All right? We're all doing that. Okay, cool. You eat right. We got to eat right. Okay. We all eat for sure. I mean, before work, sometimes I don't. What do you eat? What do you eat? Right, right. We're doing that all the time. All the time. And you think it's like because you're looking for advice or you want suggestions, but really, some of it's just like your subconscious is kind of freaking out that you're doing this at all. Yeah, yeah. You're like, what the fuck is happening? What's happening? What are you all doing? What do you think is happening? And someone kind of, like, makes fun of you when you're trying to figure out what's going on. Like, if you're new at work or something, they're like, look at this New York office in the closet, which is some more blinker fluid. Fucking can't go devastating, you know, because it's like you just try to figure out what's going on. Yeah. Which is, a sanity gripping thing. But if you have security and comfort because you know what's going on, then it's like, who cares if someone makes a joke in your expense, you know, all that to say that that's a subconscious thing that's going on here as we're watching other people go through life as we go through life. Yeah, I forget why we're talking about that. And people, because we need, like a social proof to be like what's given, what's helping you alleviate some of these chains that are on us all the time. So I'm talking about force, Frank, Joe Rogan, like, I mean Stranger Things that that's but that's been pretty dope finding a good show. I love that feeling, bro. And Stranger Things is a thing now, but there was a time when Breaking Bad was that thing and that thing, the thing that loves and appreciates like to watch the good show. That thing is nice. That thing is nice. Yeah. At least that that part with them because some people have that for like movies. I used to have that a lot with music. I like listening to two albums on the drop date. Yeah. Has it been like that though? It's. I think it's changed over the last decade or so. You know how many albums drop in lately? For sure. I remember the time when you had Jake, Jake was and Drop and Take care. It's exciting like that was that was exciting. Yeah, that was exciting time. We couldn't wait for something to say that it's not good. Not whatever. Either way though, I'm this force rank stuff. It's trying to find the social proof to help you figure out what are you filling your moment with? How do you handle yourself? What are you doing? How do you. Yeah. So that that's how I've been kind of doing it. I can do this shit. I guess I also have to say that I listen to the Joe Rogan partially because even when I'm alone, I like to listen to a conversation because the way they talk about things is kind of like social proof that, like, I'm not a crazy person, even if I'm just hanging out by myself in my apartment. Yeah. No way that they talk about what's going on in politics or jujitsu or whatever they are working out on. Joe Rogan, talk about the sauna. It's like it validates a lot of circles that I have going on, so I don't have to go have these conversations. I don't have to go. It actually takes a lot of work off my plate when I hear them talk, I'm like, yep, I'm doing the right thing. I should be going to the gym. I should be doing Jordan Peterson being that, you know. Yeah, totally. Listen to me like, oh yes, bro. So that's why I like to fill a lot of my blank moments with that, because it's like kind of getting loop validation work done for me. But then I also had to like follow through and go do the work out so that when I listen to it, it's like I'm on the side of people that's like, you should work out. Instead of being like, I should work out. I should work. And if you're doing what you're supposed to be doing or not, but yeah, what do I feel like moments and then, yeah, a lot of if I'm going to listen to music, try to just veer towards force. Right. Just feels wrong. It's just like water or coke, you know? And it's just like, I just. I gave up sodas, like, I just don't like sodas. I saw the power, I love coke, I love it, I love Pusha T, but I it was a time I saw the palette for it anymore. Yeah. In college, you know, freshman year drinking doctor, I was old time Walmart boy Ryan Casey shout out I had a big red on Thanksgiving. Okay. And, big Red never really been a fan unless I was like, vanilla ice cream in it. Okay. It tasted I mean, as an adult, it tasted like a fucking Little Debbie snack. It was like a cream soda. You know what I'm saying? Elf is so sweet. So red one. Yeah. Okay. Yeah, but it was. I mean, it was good, but it was like this. Or it was like a slice of pie, but it was. It was like I was into it. I was happy to enjoy it. Like it was dessert. Just like, sip it like a latte almost, you know? Okay. It's just like, it's cool. It's whatever. Big red. Yeah. And so, big blue, but that's the that's where I'm at with sodas. People would just be like, drinking sodas, you know what I'm saying? But then yeah, that's really just a metaphor for the same type of thing has happened to me with where it's like, if I were going to listen to like a song, it would be like, this is some dessert I shouldn't have, but I'm gonna listen to Pusha T for this set and then go about it and have to go back to forest trying to be like, yeah, why do I do that? Why do I do that? You know? So yeah, I try to stay off of that shit feeling moments. I mean, yeah, I'm kind of I do like, I'm playing some video games here and there. But one problem with me is that it's like, I really like to go hard. It's like I'm not playing Lego Legends anymore, because what? I was fucking up my sleep schedule. But then also it's like it just gets to a threshold point where I'm like, all right, we guys are doing league play or like, what's the deal here? You know, the cost benefit analysis. Yeah. And I'm like, you should just stop, bro. You should just stop and say anything with Madden where I'm at, I like I love Ultimate team. I love ultimate team. In December they got super hard for Christmas because that's when the most people pick up the game. Kids are on Christmas break. For whatever reason, I don't know why, but Ultimate Team has literally the most players during December and then it is like a bell curve the rest of the year. And so they go crazy for Ultimate Team in December because they have so many people playing, they're trying to convince you to play for the rest of the year. And getting gift cards and shit. Yeah. Yeah. Exactly. Like so that they retain audience and then yeah it's just super fun. But then yeah I guess the point where I'm like the habits about the form and I'm just like, I don't really want to have to have it. It'd be easier to not pay the cost associated to that and then have that free time and energy to do, like things that are actually important and critical. So it's cool. But the problem is, is like, I do need some. Then it's like basketball, right? That's why I kind of keep basketball around because it's a hobby, like video games. But I get some cardio with it. I get testosterone released from it. It makes a workout feel kind of fun, too, because I'm working out all the time. And then I get to go to the basketball court and like, feel the difference. But I don't work. I don't want to do workout. And I think about getting rid of that for the same thing, to have more energy and time to do something. But it's like you need some kind of hobbies. I think we all need some hobbies. Yeah, yeah. Fill your moment with shit. So what are you listening to? What are you consuming? And then also. Yeah, it's been working out, doing that, filling me with that. And then, like, cleaning is a lot of it. Keeping your area clean. It's a fucking hot. Washing your clothes, all that shit, man. Yeah. Well I it takes time, man. If you don't do it yourself, you have to pay someone to do it. Either way, you got to allocate time and energy and resources. Getting it done doesn't matter. Like you have the chain on your dog, like. I'm sorry. What's going on here? It's whatever is. This thing is making things dirty. Yeah, yeah. That's it. As soon as it's done cleaning your back right back to making it. As soon as you clean your car. Dude, it's it's getting dirty immediately. Yeah. Yeah. You hope to get it dirty. Dirty slowly. So what you hope to do. I'm not gonna lie though, my trunk has shit in it from last Christmas. I was thinking about that today. I was like, bruh, I've cleaned out the car like six times in between last Christmas and now. There's still shit, though, that I'm like, all right, I cleaned the whole car out. There's like three bags in the back. I'll get those like tomorrow and then, you know, just don't fucking, don't get to that bag. So then that's what I decided this week. I was like all right well before I go home for Christmas completely got the car I think there's still like a fucking pocket knife in the back. That's like in the, it was like a Christmas present from last year. Like why didn't I just leave it in the car all year. Why did you do that? Like, I don't know, things like get away from you. Yeah. It's there's always something beckoning to your call all the time. And you have to do stuff. You have to get done. Though. That's true. Even though there is always the ability to give in to whatever's beckoning to your call at the moment. There's also this time where it's like, should you? Should I watch Stranger Things? Or should I go drive to the gas station and clean out my car? So sometimes it's like, I've done too much today, you know? It's been too much. I'm chilling. I'm chilling. I'm in my PJs. I'll do it tomorrow morning. I guess that's a good look. That's a good look. I had two birds with one stone. Okay? One big stone, baby. Okay. I'll put it next to another bird. That's what I'll do with that. Yeah, I feel you. I feel you think some plants. You right there. Good. I should a bird put you next. Another bird tomorrow morning. Do you ever do that? I'll get gas tomorrow morning before I go to work. I can't do that with myself. I typically don't get it in the morning. Fuck that. Typically? Not usually. You get it either on the way to work, all the way from work. I have of of lauded two different gas stations or this is one like I kind of have to go to the from leaving from work. But then there's one that I like you can take, and it's just like a quick little hop off and hop back on, not even like 2 or 3 minutes. Perfect. You know, it's like bingo bango, we're rocking. And like, just to implement that little pathway of the head that options like typically where I take care of that task. Nice. Is there a lot on the way back sometimes nice. But yeah, I'm like in because I. Have you ever run out of gas? Yeah. Yeah. So you got to help me up. Okay, guys. Good times. I think everybody's ran out of gas a couple times. Some people I don't think have it as I have. I'll just say I feel like that I struggled with that as a youth and somewhat as an adult, the type of person that would run out of gas, that's like one of my character flaws. Yeah, I think if other people are not that kind of person, if everybody's done it. But I think a lot of people have done that. Maybe I'm tripping, I don't know. Some people are afraid of that so much that they fill up when they're like a quarter of the tank, like, fuck that, we're getting gas. Okay. What? What the fuck's going on there? They're geniuses. Okay, it's definitely it is a scary thing to a degree, for sure. There was one time where it happened to me. It's happened me, like 2 or 3 times, and then I've had, like, we've had to get help a couple times, like twice. But there was one time where it happened, like, perfectly. And like I was like, I lost gas as I was just, like, exiting off the highway, just like rolled to a gas station. That's that's fucking like out of a movie door. That's fucking choice, dude. Yeah. Awesome. That happened. It was the perfect, like landing the plane. You get everything I needed. You all your momentum died out at the pump, and you put it in park. Yeah. It's crazy. You know, they all use my brakes and just get me through. Just like, okay, shit. Will rocket at least roll into the pump? That happened. And with my dad one time when I was a kid, when we really had a gas, like exiting off the highway and so on the access road, my dad's like, oh fuck. And then we like, make it to the gas station like that. And he's like, okay, that was insane. And then to this day, he still references that like, I'm 31 now and he's like, do remember that time we fucking right into the gas station, right? And they get like a movie, man. Really? Yeah. Oh, that's so funny. Yeah. So like, first that's to. Yeah. Because that's just happened before I think maybe the first time or second time around I guess. But it was early. Nice. But, Yeah. Just scary. Dog is definitely scary at first. Like last time it happened to me, I was on the highway. I think I was like, oh fuck, I was going to get my haircut. And I was like, man, I'm kind of late to this haircut. I definitely can make it there, but I'm out of gas, but I can make it there. I should get gas after my haircut. Then I got my haircut, I got excited, so I listen to music. Yeah, ten miles later on, the 40 minutes later, the dude do. I was like, oh fuck. Like I knew right away what had happened. And so I just like neutral day and then got off the highway like luckily caught an exit, but then just died in the middle of like, I think I pulled into a tire shop or something like that. But then I asked the tire shop if they had a gas can and then took the gas can like a mile down to a gas station, and I walked like a mile back. It was like, like 45 an hour minutes of just like fucking bullshit. Taxing myself for no reason happens. Yeah, yeah, silly. But it was clutch to have. If you got to buy the fucking thing at the it's like 2030 bucks. That's worst case scenario. That's like mugging you for being stupid. Shit just fucking happens too sometimes. But yes, yes, there is an element of that because I guess. Yeah, because there is so I typically let it get down, you know, it's like the last couple gallons, you know, because once again there's like the, the, the, the miles left and then once it hits the double zeros, you got some, you see some time. Yeah. It's some time. You got some miles left. My car has like a full 30. It's like a gallons. Yeah I think it's at least like a gallon. Like okay. They're just trying to implement or imply to you like you need to, account for this dog. And. No, I said with the. No, you said, yeah, I said you out, but I was I was being graceful. Yeah, but you are running it out. So like if you don't interject the, the, the neurons and thought waves that create the emotional pattern to do the action of getting gas, and you implement that into your life thing that's like you're always doing, it's like, yeah, we got a fucked hope. You don't need to drive me because you could. Because you driven, because you hope you didn't need to drive me. Cuz again, yeah, yeah. But there is like I usually feel around that point or right before that point, you know, I'm typically hovering in that area, which is not like the best idea, I guess, in theory. What's the people have a different okay, so how does everyone tackle that problem? We ought to deal with that. We drive cars. So people I get a Tesla dog them all. But you still gotta feel that shit up too. But either way, they do it probably nightly. They get home in the house. Yeah, yeah, some people do. In the focus on. Yeah. So it's not like just typically around that point. Yeah. But some people fill it up a quarter or half, you know. What, am I wrong. No I feel like that exists. I've seen our TV shows, people like, you know, a bunch of different tropes where the dad will say, don't let it get down past a quarter of a tank, or the kid's like, I never let it get past a quarter. Or, you know, the kid or whatever it is, you know? But I think most people let it get down to, you know, probably like my dad, let's get down to like 30. And then it's like, all right, I gotta get some gas. I let it get down to zero because you have a gallon on zero. I think I'm bottomed. Pull that on my ass there. I'm not 100% sure that's true, but I know it's true in theory. Once I took my car to get, Work done on it at the Mazda dealership, and I don't know why, but I had zero miles when I took it there, and I was like, hey, do you mind putting just, like, a gallon of gas in it because it has zero? When I rolled it in and I don't want to run out of gas going to a gas station. And I was like in their service department. Then I was like, oh, your car get 60 miles? What's a hit? Zero. That's what they told me at Mazda, I don't want I don't know if I want to believe that guy because there might be some some fucking guy. Okay. So like get out here. Like, do you get bro. So that would, I guess supply. There was two gallons pass zero, which is kind of crazy. But one time my car hit zero in San Antonio and I drove to Kyle for my haircut. I'm pretty sure this is the day that I ran out of gas, so I drove the Kyle, then drove back to San Marcos, and that's where it ran out of gas. And that's about 60 miles. So I think he was pretty on the pretty on the ball. 60 highway miles with no traffic. So you can go for a while. So I hit zero and then I'm like, all right, I got to as soon as I get, like, a free space, it's easy when I have them in the car seat, then. Then I can just get gas because it's like she's right there while I'm pumping gas, you know? But if I'm on the way to daycare, like, to drop her off or to pick her up, I'm like, fuck that shit. I'll do that later, you know, because it's far away. Yeah, the traffic is off, but if I get her, she's in the car. We're going home. I'm like, all right, well, it doesn't matter anymore. There's no way a shot clock let me stop whenever we want. But there's also like, certain spots we're going to. The gas station is really inconvenient. Then there's the sweet spots where you just pop off. Pop back on? Yeah, that one on Thousand Oaks right there. Yeah. It's like, oh, so nice. This is nice bro. So sometimes I don't want to I don't want to get off because it's going to generate like 5 to 10 extra minutes of trip. Like I'll go for another ten minutes on this highway to get to that gas station over there. Oh, that car is on zero. It's kind of nerve wracking. Yeah. So we all got to deal with some. We're all doing drive in if you're driving. Regardless, you still get your Teslas when I swipe in a Tesla when I smoked, it was easier to go the gas station like every day. Oh yes, I buy cigarets and stuff. Yeah. Convenience store. It's a manual and actually convenient. It's expensive. Yeah, that's convenient at all. What the hell? Trash is the hell? Ready for the convenience? Yeah. You paying for the convenience? There's, like, a seat next to each one in San Marcos. And then I was to go in there for, like, 2 or 3 months where that's like, why are you spending so much money on groceries? I was like, I don't know, like, it's like, why are you going to CVS? So much stuff going to CVS. What the fuck you find all your groceries of CVS? I was like, I don't all of them. He's like, dude, look at the prices compared to the H-e-b stuff. And I didn't. I was like, oh shit. It's like way more expensive a CVS. They get you so I closer. Yeah. So that's it right there. Yeah I'm lucky that I live like right I should actually be now it's pretty much the heaps of shit. So until we die. But yeah, it's having more close to you because we, we've, we used to live right, right next to one. It was like two and a half, 2.5 minutes away. Oh yeah. And now it's like eight minutes away, which is not much. You know, it's still not much, but it's almost four times as long as it was. Right. Right. No, that's not so. We feel that it's like because we the same is true because next to that H-e-b was a taco cabana's at McDonald's. So Burger Boy was not too far away. A little bit of chick fil A was not too far away a little bit, Taco Bell. So Wendy's all those options were like right there. And then, so we had eaten out like pretty often, but now we don't eat out like, at all, you know, very, very few and far between versus what it was. Yeah. Even though so that far away. Right. Eight minutes. It's less than ten minutes away. But it's still like just it's a heart adjust to the story. Yeah. It's like out of sight, out of mind almost to like, fuck that shit, man. Come on, man, I forgot I spent eight minutes on this shit. Come on. Talking like, well, I'd rather just, like, get more at H-e-b and just do it here. Save the 16 minutes. Yeah. Fuck. I remember feeling the same kind of thing whenever we would go to a gym that was initially like 10 to 12 minutes away, and then that gym opened up like pretty close to that HB2. So it was like 3 or 4 minutes away. And even just like that extra ten minutes, I was like, this is noticeable. I noticed though, when we were drafted by other gym, I feel like you're like, bruh, you're living in the Stone age, man. You know, you gotta get the gym next to your house for this shit's fire. I was like, it's like ten, 15 minutes. You're like, bruh. But yeah, I feel you. It's nice when it's right there. It's like you're the right there aspect of it for sure. Yeah, it changes how you feel about it big time. Yeah. Changes it for sure. Yeah, they should be really close. It's nice. I go there like 2 or 3 times a week. The convenience doing that mentally. You know I was a what are you feeling your moment with. It's like convenient was expensive. It's convenient most of the time. I talked to some. I don't know most of the time how I truly tackle life is like you only have so many hours given in every day. And I'll try to like plot out my hour blocks with as much like good high priority positive agenda accomplishing things. And then at some point there's only so many blocks, so many days it's like, try to. Then if I clear my kilo of shit, that's where I'll be like, okay, I'll chill and watch TV that night, you know? So I'm trying to do. But it just gets to be a lot. Sometimes it's a lot. I'm like, this kid is a fucking monster. And we did for weeks. We did for months. There's no more gas for the weed eater. What are we going to do here? I'm out of weed eating string, you know, and like, I head over to the weed eating stream the other day. Yeah. You gotta you gotta clean the fucking cleaning machine like fuck, man. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. What the fuck? Like 60 other cleaning machine. I ain't cleaning, no, I feel you. But yeah, yeah, I don't know. Oh you're right. It it's a lot. That's what we're saying. This is the it's a Lot podcast. Yeah. No, I think we're going to actually get to more real quick to the Patreon. Now finish out the last little quick dirty before we have to go do more responsibility and obligation. Shit. But we chillin. We love your YouTube. I know life's a lot. We're praying for you. We're pulling for you. Hopefully we were able to get you in those warm waters and put you in the flow state. Take off some of the shackles. Yeah, let go of the now a little bit because we're chillin in the now too. And I know it's a lot. So we're proud of you up what do give yourself enough positive reinforcement for the small things. The smallest of things. So like positively reinforcing that within yourself. Yeah. And starting that's what it is you know because every it's just as the energy is real the negative and the positive. But the negative just were more it's like times 1.5. I like the positives. Point five. 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