TRUE WISDOM | Heaven, Seeing The Future & "Choking The Chicken" | The MJ38 Show #99

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Matthew and Justin talk about What Heaven’s Going To Be Like, Predicting The Future & "Choking The Chicken"

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Welcome in, ladies and gentlemen. Episode 99 of the MJ 38 show. Wow, that's a 99, bro. That's hard. It's a hard sell. Next one, we go wear some hats or something. Some celebratory sparklers. Some hats. We're not like the New Year's Eve. You know? Yeah. Okay. Okay, cool. Thanks. I can cheers, man. It's a lot. Yeah, it's true, but that's real. That's real. This is 99, so we're going to hold the bag 99 I remember when it last episode we're talking about the 99 day. And I don't know why that came out of me. You know I'm not sure about that too. I was like, why not say 100? Yeah. You know, that same thing. But then immediately, I guess I caught myself by saying the worst part of it. That's over. It's over. That's like the. No, it's the only thing that's 100 day is when you die on that. Wait, what, like you still haven't? Oh, yeah. Kevin, that's better than that. In the presence of the Lord. Just so maybe I feel like day is one where you go to sleep and you're still on vacation. You wake up and you still get to have more 99 day and human form, I guess. Yeah, I think human form is 99 max. Oh, and there's a, there's a, you know, once you get to the 100, that's that's heaven or. No, I think so. Yeah. Okay. It's kind of what I think I'm quoting it to here. Yeah. I just don't know if we're going to do things in heaven. I don't know if heaven don't think so. That's what I'm saying. Yeah, I don't think so. There is going to be in the presence and you will not want to do anything else you will not want. It is gone. It's so there is no wanting it. So it's, it's it's bigger than one life. Go on. Like how old would I be in heaven? Because like, I want to hang out with my mom and she's like my mom. But then I'm also like Demi's dad. So I want to hang out with like Demi. But like if I'm like 18 and Demi just like not alive. Yeah. But then how old is my mom then. Because does she get older. Does she want to hang out as a kid to her parents. You know what I'm saying. But then I'm like 30. So I'm hanging out with like a ten year old version of my mom and then like a 25 year old version of my daughter, like, you know what I'm saying. Yeah, yeah, yeah. Right. What's the physical form that we're going to have if we have body forms at all, how would it be? How do we how are we going to hang out guys. You know what I'm saying. That's like a thought that legitimately is changed to your other age for me you're like yeah yeah. It's able to slide up and down your time spectrum of your what the what your body's growth cycle, the nomic decay and death cycle. I'm like I want to go on a lake day. Thank you. To think with me as 20 and us 42 and grace as 15 and live it on human form. Right. That's what like. Yeah. That my brain wants to think that we live out cool moments and events and do dope stuff in human form when we're in heaven, that it's a forever summer camp. Maybe we can, but that's what the good places. Yeah, yeah. So yeah, for a while, that's kind of what they're doing is like just part of the premise. Yeah. It gets to a point where they can pretty much do any experience they want. Like they just like, all right, I'm going to go explore the Amazon jungle poop. And then they're like, go out the door. And then they come back until they do everything until there's nothing left to do. That's what happens to that show. Yeah. Then to be in the presence of the Lord. Yeah. That's that's all you want to do. I think we skip past all the I want to do everything in the world, have every experience. Maybe you do it. I don't know, maybe you're, you know, maybe you can do both. I don't know, I don't know. I think it might get to a point where you just max it out. There's nothing else you want to do when you're crying in church. Yeah. That feeling. Yeah. I think it becomes. We become that feeling. That thing. Yeah. All the time. Yeah. Like just you go higher and higher. Just like vibration frequency like that. Yeah. Until you're just overcome, bro. You don't want to do anything else. Exactly. You don't even want to get on a jet ski. No. Exactly. Nothing you'd want to do. That's crazy right. Yeah. But you won't even want to get on the jet ski. You don't want no jet skis. No jet skis, no good food, no sex, no food, no nothing, nothing. I sure I, I think I want to like White Lotus in Italy without all the crazy shit. I think we could do that too, though. I maybe like, you know what I'm saying? We could have the option to do that. And then when we like, when we finish what we think, you know what I'm saying? How do we do the things we want to do? Because, yeah, I guess I want to, like, talk to my dad, you know, like, have a conversation with him. Yeah. Fucking answer. Oh, definitely. Yeah. See those babies like the unborn babies and sit in heaven or like, children who passed to early type shit. And I'll get that was that we want to we want to do that and we will. I think we have the ability to say when we get there, and then once we run that out, we'll run that out as well. Yeah. Like we're we have a mini version of that now. I think we can have heaven on earth so we can bring it here. And the only way to bring it here is through like sacrifice and Jesus Christ and letting your chakras and doing like, all of that shit and getting your manifest in like a it's kind of true is what like manifestation is just receiving the blessings that God has waiting for you and like you think you're generating the idea and the feeling and the intent of, I want to do this thing, I'm going to manifest this thing. But like this, like, who's giving you that? Where's that coming from? Right. You know what I'm saying? And if it's within or you could manifest something in here, you would feel it. It's a broad answer. If it's within alignment for the Lord's will for yourself, then it's God giving you that. And but it could also be the devil. It could also be things out of alignment for your plan for your life, things to pull you away from that. Yeah. So it's like, you know, you're blessed by both. Yeah, yeah. I pursued by both I think is the proper always present. Yeah. The option choice of freewill. Yeah. But then let's say you have the discernment to have a good intimation for what you want with your life, and then you're going to manifest it. It's more, more likely you're going to surrender to the Lord. I guess at that point. Yeah, that's what it really that's what it gets down to eventually when you level it up enough and you think that you're manifesting all these things and you're like, wait, where is the intent and where does that even coming from? I'm I'm a surrender to that thing. Wherever, whatever I, whatever force, spirit thing generates my thing, I'm a prey to the high one. Hopefully that it influences me in the correct way so that I can manifest what I determined to be. Blessings, which are things that make me feel like that, where I'm. I'm I'm crying from joy. You can cry from sorrow. You can cry from joy. Like it's just being, you know, filled with this emotion. And it's like overflowing of just like gratitude, you know? So we have a mini version of that now. And I think when we die, maybe we inherit the entirety of the ability to do what we want to do here. Now, without limits, truly. And then we'll max that out and then we'll just be like, okay, I want to be with God. Now I'm done. You know, I'm saying I did it. I did everything I wanted to do with the people I wanted to do it with. I didn't get enough time to hang out with my grandpa. My dad. You know, people who love me. People who loved you. Yeah. Let's not just. Sorry. I'm just all over the place with thinking about this concept, right? Okay. Bringing it back up to. I think that we personally mean you just expressed a belief that it will be more just like being in the presence of God than doing cool stuff, but that's, in my opinion, kind of like a sad thing or not. It's just a it's a tough cookie to eat, but ultimately you would want that. Trust me, it's like being on DMT. Yeah, totally. So what do you want? What do you want? Whenever you're what do you want? But I don't want to discredit God. God is definitely, like, powerful enough to know bigger than an exact good in Big dog. Like whatever weekend I'm trying to describe. It's like, that's already lined up for you, bro. That Luke Day? Yeah. Luke day. Do I got a hang? I saw you hanging in the field, pastor Ramirez. I gotta do that, bro. I gotta commemorate that date of. Let's go. This is. Oh, yeah. Dude, it feels like a fuckin like a premium badge, bro. It's like I got fucking stuff hanging in from the mirror from, like, you know, I got, like, trees hanging. I got, like, a bracelet from this God fearing Christian prayer bracelet. But then hanging that thing up, it's just like, so it's like, it's like a key item in a video game. That's what I'm trying to say. It's like a quest item. The on the field, you can't drop it. You can't trade it. That's not like the quintessential like, game item. Yeah. I keep like a box of stuff like that. You know, I thought I was like, this is go in the box. It's just there's sentimental value to things. There's that feeling in there that that exists for real. Yeah. But yeah, but amazing day bro. Yeah. Like that feeling. What like that was it, you know, saying. And hopefully we get the ability to manifest days like that. And then that's coming from somewhere I don't know bro. So lucky. I'm scared to even want to have days that cool. You know. What do you mean? I'm scared to want that to happen again because it was just such a perfect fucking day, bro. It was so perfect. It's like an A1, a can't even. We didn't even do a ton to make sure that perfect day happened. You know what I'm saying? There wasn't a whole lot of prep. It's like the Schlitterbahn trip was, great. Amazing. Like perfect day as well. That was. That was like we had to kind of facilitate that, you know, we had to get the tickets and go through the lines and go through the, organize the sandwiches and organize what we're going to eat, and then organize our way through the park and do all the shit and figure out, okay, what do you want to go we want to do. Okay. So we go to, no, let's go back to the side. Or like, we had to. And if we didn't do it like that, we're kind of making it up. And I should do it anyway to a degree. But if you're going to plan it out, it takes time and energy too. But then with the you Luke day was just drive there and show up and that was it was just like playing out beautifully. There was a whole lot of interaction that we had to do, you know, observes like a movie. I'm watching the yeah, yeah, watching the game and stuff. I had something so funny. There's a point where it was like a movie. We went to the we went to go pick up the, pepperoni rolls, pizza rolls, and then I'm putting I get the pizza box, grab a ranch. Instinctually, I'm like, put the ranch inside the pizza box, because if I'm going to be moving, I want this ranch to be. I just had the same instincts from. Right. I don't know the smart thing to do wisdom. It's like I played this situation out of my head, and I see how it goes in both situations, and I choose the better one. Like it's simple, very obvious, easy to do, easy to do, like an easy to get that. Blessings like this a low hanging fruit. To do that it's like okay, just boop. Put that in the box. And then I carry it to the thing and then you put it on the scale and then, we in line looking at people doing this and she's like, yeah, you know, check out this, put, put it on the scale. And they, they weigh it. I'm like, how do they know like the weight of things I guess our camera, she's like, no, I don't think so. It's like there's got to be a camera. So then we get there and put it in the thing and then she's like, put the ranch outside the outside the box. I oh, there's a camera on this. And then we start talking with the people about it. And then I was like, yeah, my, my instinct is to preserve this thing. And then my aunt's like, yeah, because it's really funny you say that because we whenever we get these pizza boxes, we come all the time, we go to all the almost all the games pretty much, you know, so like we see whenever we welcome back to our seats, we see a lot of, like, broken ranches and dead soldiers on the side of the road here. And then sure enough, we're walking by and then boom, like there's a ranch right there. It's like, yeah, it was, just watching a movie play out that reminds me of. But you said that Solomon asked for wisdom. Yeah, that's like, put the ranch in the pizza box. What's the intermission to do that? Perhaps that's wisdom. Yeah, like it resulted in a better. I saw the result of not doing it. So imagine just being able to go into any situation and being like, let's put the wrench inside the box of us would look like a genius. You do the thing. You know, it's going to help, help us in the future. Because I could predict the future almost to a degree, just by looking at it. Just like, which way is it going? It's like. It's like I could play the situation out. And what we're trying to do with this, guessing the football, this is what we're trying to do with day to day life almost. It's like, hey, if I go to school and I do well and I get the grades and I get the job, and then, you know, I'm saying we're kind of like building it out, but it's just like looking at the situation in the moment as it is and being able to discern what is the up, what's the down. And sometimes it's really fucking hard. And then ultimately you get to be like, oh, I don't know. So I gotta give it up to the big man. Yeah. True. What was generate in the game I'm playing dog. This game is crazy deep y'all. I feel like Matthew McConaughey hero detective was called True Detective. Yeah. Times of last circle, my friend by Lincoln. You know, sometimes a lie. It's all blurred together in the road. You realize, you know it's a it's a, it's a one way road. It's a one way road. There's only one place we all go. It's full of detours. Pit stops, forks in the road, flat tires, love life or like a scenic route. So take the long way home. So that's one of that. But that's like the feeling I'm trying to tell you is when sometimes, like, I get the cup of coffee and you sit down in the chair with the spreads in front of you, and you just like a fucking detective, and you smell that hot steam. You know what I'm feeling the fairs this week. Chicago, I see you. I can't tell you why. Who, how, where. But I know that the motherfuck can bears cover that spread? Black coffee. Right. To my black coffee to the. So for m. Yeah. And you put the bears in the power and you don't know why he did it, but you know that that's what I'm trying to say. There's something is like, sometimes just like, well, only God can figure this thing out. It's like sometimes it's like. Because the other thing is, we love watching that play outside continue the next day, like three hours into football. It's so like, why did I fucking pick that team? Like, obviously that was a stupid fucking pick. Obviously that was the right choice, obviously. How did I not see then? Agree with that, right? Right. You just, you know, it's so much so then but there's a moment right before you're about to know it's so much it's like you can almost touch it. It's like there, it's right there. Oh well how am I going to feel in six hours? You know what I'm saying? And then so I think there's just something about that moment where right before, you know, where you can almost know, before you know how you're going to feel the next day. And, and that I don't know what that is, but it's fascinating. That's why I love the pics. Truth of like, well, how it plays out, you know, the how it plays out. It's so crazy because how it plays out, we love watching football for that. We love watching sports for that. Well, Olympics whatever. Whatever you whatever you get into whatever. Playing competitive video games like it gets to up there, whatever the limits or games or rules that you just put onto the moment of life and filter your actions through, that will present limitations and situations that seem impossible to overcome. You don't know how it's going to happen. You have no idea how it's going to happen. But if you were to not watch it and just like look at the scores the next day, you could just like, like, okay, this happened, this happened, this happened, this happened. But like there's a moment to moment thing that's going on here where the Eagles are down, they're not covering the entire game. And then they block a field goal. Take it back to the touchdown for a fucking miracle. Miracle in the in the last second last play of the game. All those Philly fans experience what they would deem a miracle. You know like just like us as humans channeling the spirit of sport and game and following rules and agreeing to limitations and allowing those limits to hinder us, we bow to those limitations. We you know, I saying we change the game, we change the way we play the game because of those limitations. And we allow that. We love it and we push it to the limit. We do our fucking when all of them are agreeing to doing this, and then that situation just comes out to be a game winning like they were about to lose the game, blocked a field goal to suck it back to win the game. And that also helped my wife. When points in our fantasy league where we're trying to predict what's gonna happen and the unexpected nature of things just is amazing sometimes. Yeah, and she doesn't care about football, just care about football. But she's like, what is this thing I'm feeling here? Yeah, she's watching like the the like she's like, oh my God. Like they just they just won. They just covered. Like we was driving home. I was like, damn the packs down. Those are down. We ain't getting no points as a family this week. No points. And then she's like, oh my god. Like they just they 33 to 26. Like they just kind of it was like what. Like they must have just bought a field goal or something. And then sure enough that's what happened. Just it's yeah it's unbelievable. Unbelievable miracles. Well we love all competitive video games. Do the same kind of thing, you know what I'm saying? It's like there's certain limitations to certain game types. Capture the flag, search and destroy a team deathmatch domination. Yeah, whatever. There's certain limitations we all agree to. And then it's like, oh shit, they're down big. And then they turn it around in reverse, sweep them, and it's like, oh my God, how'd that happen? What happened here? Crazy. The crazy unexpected. We love it. Yeah, we love it. Yeah. We love we love the structure of the competition. Yeah. I remember thinking to myself like five years ago, I'm like, it's almost like a drama. It's like, you know, the big bad part. Theater. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. It's like I know the characters in the drama. Character types. Yeah. And like what they represent. And then when they clash, like, you know, what happens is stranger than fiction sometimes and you're watching, but it's real life too. So it's more interesting than fiction in my opinion, because it's like fucking tangible real. Canelo lost. Yeah. Right. That was crazy. But digest narrative. That's ESPN nation's. So millions of people have to digest that. Oh yeah. See there's like as I boy what happened. There's just so many good more than expected. Yeah. Everyone's getting good, man. Yeah. Everyone's getting good across. Everyone's striving for excellence. Well, I have so many titans anymore. There are. I guess it's not standalone titans. There's no one just dominating shit. If you were a gladiator like that, but like 20 years ago, there were less people coming up to, like, really do damage on you. You know I feel like now there's just the rookies in the NFL go crazy. Yep. Like there's eight year pro cornerbacks like Marlon Humphries. It's just like these fucking rookies bro. Like they're not there used to not be this many good wide receivers in the league nowadays. Anybody can get off man. You know like any like I had a great yo you dog is crazy. Well you gotta like but you just you gotta lock up all game. Be careful. Hunter Henry must have two touchdowns on you, bro. What the fuck? Out of where? Where'd you come from? Right. And so I think that some of these tight ends now to fucking dude, I love Tyler Kittle or to Warren Tyler Warren. Yeah bro. Hours like. Right. Dude, this wasn't the same case. This wasn't the same league five years ago. Things are change. It. Does it change? Yeah. Yeah. It's cool. It's it's cool. Recruiting is better too. So they're like, have a bigger scoop on the nation. Yeah. Finding more talent and more ways to see that talent. More people look at the talent out there. Everyone's got everyone's all the games are recording now. Yeah. Every single game is recorded now. Peewee. Yeah. Peewee to the NFL. Yeah. Everything. Every time. No they're all film unless say watching it, breaking it down, trying to figure out what's the. See you did that. You should've done this. And what's the what's the up down here and adhering to that enough and believing in the spirit of that enough that it will manifest blessings in your life that you can't even comprehend. Giving yourself to that thing. Yeah. It's like, that's what we're here. That's what we're doing here. We love watching people do it. It's fucking awesome, man. But 99 episodes deep fucking rocket, bro. Then I do. We keep on pushing, man. Hundreds every time. Hundreds every time. Triple digit is real. Dude. It's insanity. That's a lot. We really. That's all I've been putting. We started doing this at JPM. Yeah, yeah. The blueprint talk is unreal. I can't even understand sometimes. It's, can't quite comprehend or understand it, but it's real. Manifest and blessings and just so much. Lord, what I got. Oh, I just want a ton of, like, I feel like I'm falling on my shit. We're in the, We're in the church or the chill. Chill in the couch, in the love seat. Chilling to death to life. But, yeah, you know, 99 days. Yeah, yeah. So I think all that was the reason why I didn't say it was a 100 day. I think it's a different thing. But as far as here in this, what we got right now, this is 100. And I was I was like maxed out, maxed out. Perfect day. We were able to say yeah because it was more of an experimental, experiential, movie watching, observer esque type of day. We didn't have to put a whole lot of absurd shit happen to imagine, like, you're going to an event and then you show up and you're like, basically front row. I mean, no matter what you're doing, you're like, oh, this is fucking cool. You know? We're all watching the thing right here. The seats were insane. And then they're like, do you want to go on the field afterwards? I'm like, like I'm in fucking Florence, Texas. You're going to go walk the field and, you know, dap up the people I know or whatever. Like, we kind of have to like every UT player, you know, everything just right there. Like, if I was if I was a psychopath and decided, like, I'm just going to with confidence that, hey, man, good to see you the next game. Hey, good to see you, bro. It's like like I like I've met them all before. The homie. Yeah I could have got a lot of devs people. They're all fucking tired just playing football games are dog. You know what I'm saying? Some pals bro. Good game bro. Chill. Let's go dawg. Or if I just had the inclination to try to make friends with the YouTube players. You know, if we were at a Indianapolis Colts game, I would have tried to touch everybody. Every single player like, dude, I love you, bro. Good shit, good shit, good shit, you know? Yeah. And you haven't been to a college or football or NFL game. Yeah. Never been. Oh, I went to A&M. He was saying I'm game. I was super hype and I didn't appreciate the game that much. A little different thing. Ryan Tannehill is a quarterback. I don't know. But this was definitely different. Definitely diff diff kind of day. But that's all I'm trying to say is there was things happening in the day that made it so, so ludicrously awesome. You know, like I had a 99 day probably in. Port to South Padre Island. When I was a kid. We just got a condo, and it wasn't the nicest condo. It wasn't the best part of the beach, but, like, just on a beach, right? Yeah, bro, let's go do the thing with my family. I got the Xbox Live. We're doing game battles later tonight. The wall slam and monster coffee. Energy drinks. Yeah, yeah, I got, like, a six pack. You hold like, 514, you know, listen to the resistance. But I drink like eighth grade. Going in ninth grade, South Padre. Perfect day. But like, if it was, that's a perfect day. But this day was crazy to me because it was like we had the nice condo on the best part of the beach with, like, the the bougie water. Like, it was crazy. I'm like, we had the seat cushions on our spots. Yeah. Just saying there's literally a seat. Prepare for us. It's like, oh, this is nice. You didn't bring sunglasses or hey, here's a here's a wet towel, dude. Here you go. We got your back, man. You'll need this place next fatality. And the amenities. The best is here. Player is. It was so great. So I'm saying the best is here is everything. Player. So yeah, I think that that's that's part of what was really mind blowing about that experience was it was so, it was so nice. Just so cool to be. We probably could have had an awesome 90 night day in the nosebleeds, too, but it was just fucking premiere. Premier show was plush. Yeah. And didn't have to. It was it was given literally gifted to us, you know, since given to us. I've never been to any of the games. My aunt's been working there for 25 years. You know, I'm I'm saying my mom, I was talking to my mom on Sunday, and she's like, I was like, that's my that's my first one I've been to. She's like, oh my God. Like, that's your first one. Like I've been so many times has been like Nicholas or like I pretty much everyone's gone like, yeah, I don't know. I just, I don't know why. Just like that. That was it was so cool though. She's like, oh, that's for a lot, dude. Yeah, I'm pretty chill. The one I get was a 99, bro. I'm good dog. They always lit. Yeah dude I would go to another one for sure. But that was we're batting 100 right now. I'd be willing to say I just had a flash of a thought. I was working out super hard at true at the time. I think like during the J Prime dungeon, it's like becoming who I was destined to be, you know, just like Rocky montage. And I was like, shit to the limit, you know, doing the fucking thing, man. Really doing it. Then I'm in the sauna one day and there's like this Instagram filter thing you do and it gives you like a Madden stats. Okay. And then I just like, did it while I'm in the sauna. And then it gave me like 99 overall 99 speed, 99 everything. And I was like let's fucking go for it. Yeah, right. That felt like, I was like, I wonder if it does it for everybody. I like saved it and then did it again a couple times and it didn't do it really. And I was like, I Nattie roll the 99, which is kind of crazy. And then I like became convinced that it wasn't like the machine just gives it out to everybody on the first time. Right? Yeah. And I was like, I think there's something about what we do here that is like generating an energy field that could produce a Yahtzee. I think that's like part of what we're doing here. Like, I've, I've had. Have you, have you had big hits in your life? I've fit a couple things big I think. So I one vice principal for a day when I was in elementary school. Okay. It's like, did you ever have like field day in elementary school? Yeah. We all play like, games and stuff in the out, like outside. Yeah. So we had like a field day. But this, it was the same kind of thing where like a once a year thing that the school does. But this one was like your parents come to pick you up, but then they stay and there's like an after school field day with like a blow up jump pad and like, games everywhere. This sounds familiar carnival type stuff. Sure. For sure. With this a force North for sure. So yeah yeah yeah yeah. So cool. I remember. Yeah. So that. Yeah. So at like at that day there was like you bought tickets and you spent them on games and stuff. And then one of the things was like you could put tickets with your name on it into a drawing to win, like principal for a day. And my mom was like, let's put a bunch of the assistant principal for a day. One, I was like, okay, I remember being in school like two weeks later and they're like, all right, I winners for the thing. And then said, like, vice principal for the day over the analysis daily announcements daily. That was that of things he was doing that school. I don't know, bro. Every classroom getting pledge of allegiance and shit. All right. Like so doing that I don't even know I guess my daughter. Yeah, right. What are y'all doing in there? The. Do we do that in high school? Do we have announcements like that? Yes. These are your daily noun teacher. Yeah. Flu shots will be available in the cafeteria. We have the book fair coming up, right? Yeah. Yeah. I don't know. Men either work, but you're hearing your name announced to the entirety of the school. That was a surreal moment in my life. I felt like I was in fucking severance for a second. It was just like. Did everyone clap, I think? I don't know if people clapped, I don't remember. Let's go. Yeah. The. Oh, BP, that's my BP. Yeah, she was cool. Then she was cool. And then they're like, okay, so we want to do. And I was like, I don't know what are you free chocolate milk. What do you guys do? And they were like, what do you do? I don't know, I think I see principles a day. How old are you? I am the first grade. I'm like in third grade, I think, like, it's like eight. Yeah. Like, okay, okay. And then what did you decide to do with your powers? How much power do they give you? I remember one thing that I definitely did was I said that that the teachers. We should buy all the teachers at McDonald's. Yeah, all the people, all that first order of business. First thing I want to do in the teacher into my reign. And every night. I promise you it might not be the best food we're going to be eating every night. Everyone's ballet should be full. We're going to work efficiently. We're going to be the best fed department. Yeah. No. Yeah, I was there. I was like, because I remember I went and I was like, so what's the matter? What are we doing? What's happening? Tell me what's going on. They're like, oh, I think we're going to do lunch here in a second. And I'm like, lunch? What is lunch look like? What do we do for lunch? What what do we do for lunch? Like take the cafeteria and I'm like, you guys eat cafeteria food. I eat cafeteria, yeah. They're like, what's up sometimes? Will I get food from like McDonald's? Something like that. I was like, okay, let's do McDonald's. I'll just get McDonald's. And then I think they pretty much after that, it was like, I think I wanted to do recess all day. I'm like, can I do recess all day? Great choice. Rest of the day. Great choice. Number one answer roll. Success. Come on. Yeah. Fuck all this building shit. Let's go outside and have a field day again. Yeah, right. I was like, that's that shit. Let's do that. How do we bring that back? Yes, I got them inflatables, right. Yeah, right. And then I think that their response was, that's a little hard logistically, but you can have recess all day. Like just go with the third graders and go to fourth graders and go with the fifth graders. Go to lunch wherever you want. You know, you don't go to. Yeah, go to class today. And I was like, I'll take it. I just gave you the what's that movie? The oh, it's the Bueller. There we go. Ferris Bueller. Yeah. Because they know daydream. And I was just like, oh, I'll just take yeah that's fine. You know, I want to I want a drawing. Okay. Recess for the day. Yeah. That's tight. Yeah. That's tight. You got a, I paid off the teachers. They were cool with it. Did they, did they get their McDonald's paid for? Yeah, I think they, like the principal was like. All right. Matthew says first order of business. He's buying us lunch. And then I was like, yeah, am I ready to go through the roof, dude? Shoot. Yeah, it's spiking it, bro. Spike it. Yeah. Coming in hot. Yeah. They were like, what does this kid. Why? What is this all? Dave thought about it. Good. Give it to him. You got it. Easy. Done. Everybody gets back to work now. Have a good day. Yeah. So those show. That's awesome. That was cool. But the moment that they said that's what I'm saying. When I feel like you get a big hit. Like we found a Charizard in a pack of Pokemon cards when I was a kid. Yeah, yeah. Remember that moment my dad opens the pack? He looked at my cards before he gives them to me. Whole fight in my family the whole time, he's like, look, I buy the cards. I'm gonna take a look. See, as a dad, I respect it, I get it, I get it doesn't bother me as a 30 year old. I get it to two people. Got to open the pack for the same dollar point. You know what I'm saying? It's pretty fly. So he's like, oh, looks at my mom. Oh, this kid, this kid. Here you go. And then resets the pack I go through. Bam. Charizard. It's like forever my mind. Holographic Charizard. That is core memory. Shit. Oh, yeah. That is awesome. Dude, we've got this energy pool that can hit, you know. Yeah, I think our musical hit a podcast or hit. Shatter. And what's crazy is, as a kid, I wasn't really like, you know, trying to prayer, pray extra discipline every day so I could cultivate this awesome life and these blessings. I was just like fucking being a kid, you know, trying my best. Yeah. You know? Yes, bro, since I love the thing about. Yeah, I'm trying to. I can't have any off the top of it. Like, as far as, like, winning contests or like doing, like, winning. Like getting a low, low probability hit. Yeah. I don't know. I think I was one time I bought, like a stocking stuffer, Game of Thrones, like it was a pop pretty much before pops came out. Okay, I back in college, okay. Bought one and for Christmas gift. And then it turned out to be like the like one out of 250 or so, like they had like the statistics on the side of the, of the box. That was like the what you call it. It was like probability hype around. Yeah, yeah, there's the most rare one. I was like, oh shit. I was like, I just said everyone like, no, I don't think so. That's vice, that's a sub. That's five on a random stocking stuffer. Yeah. It happens, it happens, happens. But that yeah, that that energy field you're referring to I think is real. I think it's like a pool of openness and wisdom. I guess maybe, maybe wisdom itself is the a pool of openness that gets wider and allows more of the positive to enter through, like through your predictive analytics of what's going to happen next. You know. Yeah, till I know that, know that God's going to come through or like, know that the things that I happen. Yeah, I had no it like and if you know something you're going to change the way you behave. Right. Right. That's the ultimate indicator okay. So and Noah's workouts going to work I know this tightening is going to work I know this that's why I'm doing it here. I'm saying a there's a culminating moment where Julian was like doing all the right things. But then at work you'd had several bad days in a row that was close to like several bad weeks in a row. And then looking at a section, it wasn't going to be a good night that night. And it's just like, bro, like kind of defeated. And I was just like, nah, man. Like, I refuse to believe that's what happens, right? Like you're definitely going to get taken care of. Like I've seen the movie Faith, like, you never know. I know you're going to be you're going to be good tonight like big trust. Come on. And then has like two of his two tops tipping like $100. He's able to scoop up a five top that was out of a section. And then he ends up having like a great night. And then I was just like. And he was like kind of blown away a little bit for sure. He was like, bro. I was like, what blocked the field goal in the fourth quarter, dawg? Yeah, we took it back. So we covered. Unbelievable. Unbelievable, dude. Filling in the power. And like I don't know what it was about that moment that I just was like, no, you know what I'm saying. It doesn't go that way. I just realized as I was like, you never know. Because like, if he's like, I know it's going to be bad. Like, my immediate action is like, you never know what's going to happen in the reality of the nature of how God's going to play. We're just we're just enjoying the drama where it's enjoying the drama. Right? So you never know what's going to happen next. But you had the like, no, I know what's going to happen next. That is not going to happen. This is happening. Yeah. It's like he's like, oh my God. That that's like confidence. Yeah. And to have it come true. Yeah. Put them in the power bro. Listen to me. It's like oh dude hard conviction. Yeah. You know it's like we don't lose these. Like God doesn't lose these, you know? So that's what I'm trying to say is I think it came from a place of like, just belief and faith. I'm like, no, like that. Then that's it. Ultimately, yeah, for sure. To see it play out is a beautiful thing. I don't think I manifested it by speaking it into existence per se. I think it, but also I know who knows. That's what I'm saying. If you didn't say that, what would have happened? Who knows? That might have given Julian partially like the eyes to like, see the opportunity to, like, take the table, be open to be like flipping it like, open. Okay. Like, how would this be a good night? Well, pick up a five top out of my section. That would help it be a good night, for sure. You know, and so, yeah, definitely was. Can I make here like, moves. Can avoid it with jokes that I have to make to get a couple extra yards here, man. Right. Like, I guess I need to break a big touch. That has to happen. I need a juke outside, get outside and run. I need to find a gap and hit that shit. Find a gap and hit that shit. And I'll say, one guy missing and I'm gone. That's it. It's all I gotta do. Make one guy miss. Like I miss the find it I got this, I did it and I'm doing it. Yeah, yeah it's done. Yeah. Big fucking woo. Big old foul. Woo! In the end zone. But yeah. So I don't know I part of it. Like do you ever like watching like put on a football game and all of a sudden your team that you were had picked starts doing really well and you're like watching it. You're like, bro I swear if I didn't watch that game, they would have just continue to suck all the way until the end. That would have been terrible. I knew I needed to get my eyes on the game. I felt that this Sunday at Ihop, watching the PAC show. I'm like, okay, they're up by three. Let's go watching the game. You put the Packers on over there for me. Please appreciate it. I have the we went to after CBC Easter. Yeah it's now an Ihop Applebee's. Whoa. No idea. They integrated and, had a restaurant baby. Yeah, it was the Philippines in an Ihop. I was like, what the hell is this? This is crazy. This is the same one. And then this is like, what's Applebee's? It's like Chili's cousin, you know, save it. No, no. What a weird time to be alive. I never this I can't blame her because it's not. I didn't I have been twice, maybe three times in my entire life. I know there's been one near Lakeland Mall in Cedar Park, Texas, but I never went there. I just knew it existed. So I can't blame her for not knowing it because we never gone. We don't fucking go there. We don't fucking go there. There's a song on the references that was kind of popular on TikTok. Either way, it was Applebee's fucking Ihop. Put on the game, please. We're watching it. We're up three. We're up ten K ten. Nothing. Here we go. We're rocking. Let's go. Good. We're cover. We're covering. Egos are looking a little rough. But that's okay. I'm covering. We're going, we're rocking. And the bucks were looking good too. They were looking good. They were looking great. I was like, hey, the bus are covering. We're good. We're rock one rock and we go to Costco. As soon as I go to Costco, I'll take my eyes off the game. Just downhill bro. It's just downhill, bro. It's like, no. What happened? They just just shit. That. That's what shit in the bed looks like. That is. We're shitting the bed. Looks like. Unfortunately for my favorite NFL team. Yeah. If anybody was curious to know, that's what it's like. You're the heavy over over favorite. You're seven and a half points over favorite or favorite in your direction. And in our pickles. That was the most epic game. That was the highest outcome, the determining game. So many people had to pack in the power or the three. It was a lot of people who were sad. I didn't look at it this week. No, I was checking it hard because my wife is number one. Somehow in this crazy pick a predictor that I've been doing for years, and she's just on vibes. That's one thing. Cooking is looking so real. Yeah, but watching, like a fucking thing, dude. Yeah. Now. Yeah, I was just, I guess I was, I was I'm having between thoughts here because I wanted to mention another thing that talked about my wife winning this league thing is, is like, I've heard this motif before, I'm not sure if anyone else has heard this motif before, but why do women perform well in the fantasies and the pickles in the game? It's like a Tim had mentioned it. The guy who had me move the other day, he was mentioning it while we were moving, talking about because we were talking about evict. I was like, yeah, you got a 12 point week last week, bro. We're fucking rocking dog. Like we're out here breeding points. I give a fuck. I got eight points, we're feeling good. And there's two goose eggs in a row and she's just poop on some crazy miracle of Philly shit. I just want to, like, do some riffing. One, she's got tons of practice, probably in watching drama novella like the Eagles cover, I promise. Unbelievable. So the good feeling thing? Yeah. She's like, she's just like, no, I know it's unbiased, unbiased narrative. That's that's another thing, right? I'm biased. Just pure vibes. We're like a lot of football guys still hold on to like Tab on Austin. You know like Mike Psyche's got a place in your heart like you remember things that these guys did because we were like, we're guys. We're like, do you remember when fucking PJ husbands out of fucking out of that? Who's your mom? Who's a Ellie? I remember that guy, bro. Do you remember? Let's see. Do you remember fucking, Dante Hall? Don't they call Pepper human joystick? Don't they call me for that guy? So it's like we have this, like, these little bookmarks on our heart. Like the Sean McCoy in the snow, but they don't have those. And so maybe, like, they're predictive, like analytic output is, like you said, like less biased. Yeah. This is different. My mom was doing well last year. She used to finish like top ten, top to get paid. But she did like the best out of all of us. Like, dude, what the hell. And then Tim had mentioned the same type of thing. He's like, yeah, I'm in like 2 or 3 different leagues where there's only like there's one league with like 50 people in it and like two girls and they're in the top five, and there's another league with like ten people in it. And the girls are like winning right now, just like what's going on here. And then that happened when we went to J Prime. I played in the Fantasy League and I think I can't remember who won that year. It wasn't me. But I know that I think maybe the analyst or the narrative of what was going on there. This is the second or third year they've done it in a row. But Lauren is apparently like really good. Oh yeah, she dominates, you know, saying she and she won. I'm not sure if you win that year or the year before, but either way she's like, she went she won. And then my wife last year in fantasy for her work, for the place she went to because I drafted and I got we got drafted Malik Nabers, Bijan Robinson and Jamir Gibbs. Those are our first three picks is not a bad look. It's a pretty solid all draft. You okay? Yeah. The auto draft. Fucking Isaiah's team is auto drafted. It's so good, bro. Like, I didn't think it was good. I feel bad. I'm like, man, he had the auto draft and he got all the people nobody wanted. Luke three I'm like, that team looks fucking good, bro. Why is Christian McCaffrey and Bucky Irving and Cam's got a bow and he's got another running back scared of us on his fucking bench. He don't even need him I can't remember as fourth running back but the boys good bro. Damn. And then his wide receivers be taller now all his resizing by the way they should stacked by the way, is a weird narrative going on here, but they, the lady is doing well in the fantasy sports. I think that might be a common motif that people are experiencing. They say the women are smarter than us. They're nothing more. Because, the chick deliver. I'm biased in football, for sure. What is wisdom? You know what I'm saying? They're wise and we're wiser in other things. You know what I'm saying? Everyone. We all have a equally, maybe not equally, but a distributed information. Like digesting and computing, configuring predictive analytics of what's going to happen next. We all have we're all dealing with that. And we all have wisdom is the ability to know which one is the right one, which can you look back and be like, that was the right move. That was the right move. I look at, you know, I have I there's clear forks in the road here. It's like pick this team or pick that team. And like that's like super basic broken down like too much to a degree. But it gets down to like the process logically. Logically. We should bet it like a 75%, just logically like there's just logical like green Bay should have logically beat the shit out of the Browns. Just fucking logically, you know what I'm saying? But it's not so cut and dry. So then it's like things that I think have to wait different weights. It's like when I pick with this feeling right here, I'm always wrong. And that's the feeling of most of the time, like maybe. Yeah, right. Or like pretty sure this feels good. I used to always pick Indy and Arizona just like always. And the Bengals always got in there too. And I realize I'm like, dude, like every other week, man, I don't know what to do. I'm just like Indy. Arizona Bengals and they don't fucking cover. Like I don't know why I keep doing that, you know what I'm saying? But something tells me like, I like that. It's like this unsure place of familiarity with the decision. It's like that can't be the thing that motivates the decision because that's not a productive hey. Yeah. And then there's there are things the way that it plays out. There are picks that become true that I never would have. Like I would not have felt like I can't submit that. You know, if I do submit that, I'm submitting it knowing that like, this is a lie to myself, but it's true. So I'm just wrong. Yeah, yeah. Like, damn, where am I wrong? Why am I still wrong about some of this shit? Yeah, it's the only way to tap into objective truth on such an unpredictable. The bears. The bears, the bears. And then I was like, nah, I'm not going to pick the fuck not like to do it the night before, one of our coworkers talking about, you know, around the place, we all talk about running right now, some random we like. We like to run an Eisenhower round that park place. There's like some bears out there people, some spots, some bears. Real black bears. She didn't say black fight back, but she knew the correct. I was acting counter. Why is this keep coming into my matrix? I didn't say I didn't want to bring it more into your matrix. Why? I didn't say it's. I felt the dialog present itself like, hey black, fight back, right? I'm funny. This isn't funny. I was like, don't, don't bring that up. Like it's funny that she's not saying it's funny that she's like, if you see a black bear, you want to get big and aggressive and make noise. Yeah, I'm like, it's black, fight back. It's like, keep it that simple. Yes. That is what you're talking point to here. And she's talking about this in like random conversation Saturday night. My wife wakes up Sunday morning and it's like, yeah, has this dream is how much it bears in my dream. And I was just like, what else you need to hear? Why did because I did. I just didn't believe it. I didn't believe in it. I didn't believe I could stand on it. I didn't know it was solid. I didn't know how. It was so solid all game long. There are games you could pick and you're like, that's good. From first quarter to fourth quarter, I feel good about the entire time. I mean, it's not games where it comes down to the last fucking play, where they block a field goal and do the impossible thing and run it back for a touchdown to cover a four point spread hard enough to block it, yet you got to run it back to a big man. Number 90. I don't know his name. Fucking shout out to that guy. Thank you. God, that thing that do your thing bro. Keep working hard. Keep losing weight, running fast, big man. Moving dude. Impossible things. But like, yeah, I didn't doubt that particular game. The bears just coming into like, follow that thing. You know, have the courage to and I didn't I did not I did not straight up. And it's it's it's I don't know what to lean on sometimes but that seems pretty solid. That's it. The becomes becomes it becomes this like what you see for the football guys. This is the first station of reality. Yeah. What determines reality here. Where's the future come from? Being able to say you really just had a dream about bears. You stop. You really just had a dream about bears. How many bears? Yeah, like we're talking two. Three. And then I, like, feel the 20. Did they feel powerful or weak? Were they slain bears alive or dead? Bears? Yeah. How alive? Like ferocious bears. Like bear cubs. Ferocious bears. All right, hold on and then change your picks that. That's like an insane person. But you would have been right. Would have been right. Would have been so. Right. So I feel like get to the. Yeah. Yeah I know what to do guys. I don't know what to do. No one does. That's the beauty of it. No one does. Maybe watch Victoria win. No. Maybe that's what I mean. That's I'm that's what I'm that's what might be happening this season of the pick this thing on this season. Fucking beginner's luck. Just let's just say beginner's luck to just like I've seen that be so true so often. Just people's first year in the league, this person's first time in Vegas splash. And they're chasing that high. That chasing that high for a next decade. She. Dude, it's real, it's real. There's a alchemist. It talks about that. Yeah yeah yeah definitely that that was a that's an identifiable be like like it says in that book. Yeah. But I've just seen it so many times. Like someone's first time doing something or like my first time going to a new rec center just played really good basketball. You know, playing good ball. Boy, first time I'm excited to go to poker night for the first time at someone's poker night. If I've never been, I'm like, hell yeah, I'll go, I'll go first time for sure, because I'm like, I'm gonna crush. And then if I continue to go, I'm like that. The law of averages plays out, and then I don't do so well there. Like so many times you get the nuts, but you can get the nuts a lot when you're a beginner. It fucking happens. Like no one can explain it. Some some people know what we're talking about. The nut is the best hand. Yeah, you can win without the nuts. And that requires play. Facial and body language recognition, predictive analytics. What they could have probability Cajon. Yes. Yeah they bluffing. They have the nuts I don't have the best hand. Do they have the best hand. It's like I don't think they have their hand better than me. How many hands beat my hand. Exactly. Yeah. Because like the perfect hand that plays out here with what's presented. But then there's the ideal. And then how how close are they? So yeah. Like I'm pretty true here, dog. Yeah. We got a full house call. Yeah, I feel good on the boat. Aces over kings. Full house. Beat the boat, bitch. Oh that's pretty big A big fat. That's a big fat one on you. Yeah. It's like no, I had the best possible hand. And if I had the four, it's however. Yeah, I'm willing to go all in on this. Yeah. Yeah. You know, I'm saying. Yeah. What is that? Oh, I was not willing to go all in on it because it gets to that point to where I couldn't, I couldn't even though I wanted to, I couldn't I felt it too. I felt this, I wanted to, I could because I thought about this fucking bear singing Me Too a lot. That was the second most picked game. I was like, the pack. I bet on the one that everyone else bet on. We all lost on it. And then I didn't bet on I didn't know what I knew what to be true with that one. Everyone picked Dallas Red skin slotted at the knees. It becomes listening to life, bro. Just like that. Throughout the entire game from first quarter to fourth quarter, they were just like it was kind of close in the first. Of course it's zero zero first, first quarter. So you can't count on anything out until the fourth quarter. Honestly, that's what happened last week with our power and the Carolina. They were down big the entire time and then came back, scored a couple touchdowns in the fourth and then boom recover. And power back. Let's go Eagles last play of the game. But it's like they were up from like the first quarter half way second quarter onward. And it was just Caleb Williams four touchdowns 40 fantasy points. The other end oh okay okay I see you Ben Johnson. Yeah that's fine. That's I remember specifically I just got slaughtered last week. That's partially why they got slaughtered 52 to 12 or some shit. That's. Yeah. The Saints remember the Saints had 240 point games last week. And we thought the Saints had this monster offense. Yeah. Last year they came out hot the first couple weeks. Well you're like scrambling to trade for Saints players. You want Alvin Kamara. You're picking the Saints with the fucking over. And they just take bro 3 or 4 games deep I remember them I'm just like okay. So like just because something looks like something now doesn't mean it is something. Yeah. We're not we're not so sure what things are yet. As far as the league goes, we like to predict that we're all we're all using predictive analytics. Right. Yeah. Looking identify, categorize trying to draw, trying to look into the future and predict what to do now, you know, based on what certainty you have about what's how it's going to play out. But we don't know ultimately yeah. Cam's got a boat could suck. I could trade away Tyree, kill for Cam Scarborough and then over. By the time we get to the Super Bowl, I could be like, what a fucking stupid thing to do. Tyreek Hill is like, come back player of the year. There's the meta thing to do. It's like I'm sticking to my guns. And what are your guns. Oh develop your arsenal dog. What are what is that the dissection or arsenal we got going on here mentally and spiritually. I think you got to time to the spiritual aspect. Yeah. The emotional aspect might lead you astray. It pretty much always does. True. You know, I'm saying I think the other thing about fantasy is it's real, tangible. Be like what I think doesn't work. Like what I lost. I've lost ten years in a row, I always lose, I think always sucks. And it's the NFL is an objective thing that's happening. You know what I'm saying? It's just happening regardless. It's just happening. It's like, what's the narrative here? You're saying I'm just out this because it gets deep in life is the same thing. We're all assigned to that. Yes, I do that. Life is probably win here. Easier to predict than the NFL slate, but life is easier to predict the NFL like an average day, you know, like, oh, for sure, you're probably going to go day to day. Yeah, yeah yeah yeah. In one day. Oh it's so strange the moment at moment time. What I'm going to say about fucking picks too. There's another thought just watching I wish I could have stood on the bears. It was like that. The entire game was such a nice feeling. Mattress wisdom for anybody that's going to gamble with. It's based on like a gambling strategy, which is where you do like,$10,000, $5,000, $3,000, $2,000. So you're gambling you could you could do lower numbers. You could do 550, 30, 2010. Yeah. But so then you're hoping it's like a, it's a way to layer your bets out so that you minimize loss. But you can maximize profits. And so if you hit all four you win obviously the most you can hit. But let's say like you hit a win as much as if you put all that into one. Exactly. Of course. Depending on the odds for each game. Right. So but if you get your biggest bet. Right, but you missed all the other three ones, you cover yourself so you don't lose any money. So you only really have to get one right to push. That's the idea behind it. So but then if you hit all four of them right, then like your, your power pick basically pays for your other bets to be free bets and then that's like free money coming back to you. So the belief is that I'll get my power right. And then when you get your power wrong, it's like the other three. If you were smart enough to get those three right, they cover your your confidence back. Yeah, yeah. So that's what they call it a confidence break. If you see like it one. Just one like you got if you're going to fucking be a gambler motherfucker. You got to be able to get one pick right week to week. Yeah. What's the thing you're using. Yeah. You're what equals your analytics equal something. What do you got to pick. You get one. Yep. And then if you can hit that one then it'll cover the cost of being a gambler. So that's like the strategy behind it. That's like yeah. But instead of actually going and gambling money every week this is like practice for that. Like what you would do if you were gambling. So that's like how I used to think about it a lot. But then one thing that I, pulled away, it's like true wisdom from doing this for like, I don't know, seven years now, some like that college bro. I'll only ever be able to get one right. Like, statistically, usually I get one as things go on. Like I'll get one right, and you got to have some kind of thought when you're reading or you're like, looking at it, you get some kind of like intuition, like, oh, this is going to happen because this is going to happen. And it's like a powerful thought and you're like, I'm leaning on that. That was a powerful thought I believed in when it came to me. It presented itself a solid when I started like spittin it's lyrics. Yeah, yeah, yeah. I started getting into the watching the fucking Packers. Browns highlights. Or like you like the predictive analytics of that, like the NFL analysts or whatever the, the narrative of that game. Yeah. I'm like yeah, yeah right. Yeah yeah. Right. You start getting that move and then like I'll find the one I feel the most of that about and then pick that. But then I'm trying to pick based on what other people thought for like all three other picks. It's like Justin said this about that and I felt that was powerful. I felt him have power, but I'm not going to be a draw for powerful ideas out of the fucking mix. It's just it's just hard to do. It's hard to do. It's just, yeah, statistically, you're only going to get one two, right? Maybe. And that's why I like it when you say something that I wouldn't have thought of. Or like when Victoria said the Ravens, I'm like, I looked at the phone, I saw Eagles. I was like, oh, I like that, right? I didn't feel that about like any of my picks really, except for like one. And I got it wrong. Damn it. See that? That's good to steal that. Like I'm taking that. I'm injecting it into my house and throw it in there. Yeah. Fuck it. I don't know what do I know? I don't know shit. What? I'm. I'm usually wrong. Like, sometimes you get all four wrong and you're like, dude, I should just bet against myself. I'm wrong. All the all wrong. As much wrong as you could get. It's not your it's it's like turning a little bit. It's like yourself with other people's confidence. Yeah. Yeah. Other people are using the same type of thing. We're all trying to do it. And like some, we just hit different people, hitting different truths on different things. Got different wisdom. Yeah. For me it was the Colts this week when I was just like, how many weeks are you going to say, I don't know, for good. And then you fucking cover the spread shit about it. Should have been I should have got a good yes. You can't get on the wave and ride the wave while the wave is wave and looking ass. Come on. I missed it, bro. You think it crashed out, bruh? Yeah. You're in the in the rev. Too late. Another earlier bro. Ride the barrel, dude, it's gonna squish you to death. You had a crush, bro. You want to fucking rush, bro? So then, yeah, I remembered that saying that to you in the restaurant, and I was just like, fuck it. You just power the cool. I saw that you put him in the power. And I was like, how do you know it's go, let's go. Oh, it's like it takes a fucking pic, dog. Good fucking pic. I felt that I felt the same thing. You know, it sounds like I want to pick them. I think they're good. I put I did pick them, but I didn't put them with as much confidence as I should have. They were my two as well. They were the one game I felt truly the most confident in, and I was trying to outsmart myself. And I was like, nah, that's got to be the trap game I'm moving to. I want, it's got to be the trap. It's got to be the one that people are super confident about. And then it falls out from under you. Yeah. So I fell into the trap, avoiding the trap. But either way, the picture would have been in there anyway. I should have put the colt in the power. I saw you did it and I was proud. Thank you, thank you. Good shit. It was a real guts. Play it. I didn't feel great about it until they were demolishing and I was like, let's go. It was really just that. It was just a strong sentiment. Like the thing that I was saying that was, don't make me feel something. There's truth outside of me, outside of my objective or my my subjective perspective. There's objective. Like that was a true thing I said in that place, in that moment was a true thing. I felt. Yeah. And it was one three second moment, not even in life that just passed by. I heard mentioned in the bears, I was a little bit longer of a conversation and then the dream to reinforce it. Those are just like little blips of life that we get. We get 168 hours a week, you know what I'm saying? Yeah. Like that. I'm trying to get back to next Sunday so I can use the same hundred and 68 hours of interfacing with life to determine what's going to happen here. It's all good. These little blips do these little blips. And you're like that blip, that three seconds. That was golden. Yeah, that was a solid rocket. We're just sitting there smelling the coffee, bro. Like, what's going on? That meant some fortune telling bro. It's crazy bro. It's yeah, it's not fortune telling. It's just trying to analyze the game of life. And I analyze that life's drama. What's going to happen next in the movie? Yeah. What's going to happen next in the movie? Yeah. I just had a weird thought. It's like, what's going to happen next is fairly predictable. I guess sometimes it's very unpredictable. It's like random roles. The Browns meet the beat the back. Right. Like what? Right. I could see them not covering, but they lost to them. Oh. What level is that predictable. Like what what settings makes that a predictable outcome? Vegas made a lot of money on it. What's more, the people in Vegas just like the Packers. If the Packers were to not cover the spread, we would make so much fucking money and they do. So often they use all the games. It's bound to happen a couple times. Yeah, especially nowadays because we were talking about it off air. I think one of the top corners is just like, do this, these rookies, these rookie receivers kind of wheels and got routes and got hands. These younger people are the skin. The access to information is changing the game, bro. It's changing how we behave. It's changing how we influence our children. So if you're trying to talk about throwing some scissor kicks out to your girl. Yeah, she's like, not even one yet. Yeah. No, I want to look around my local. We moved to the new place. As we mentioned, I'm looking around different. There's like a Denver Heights community center and a YMCA, and I'm like a volleyball net to hear what's going on, man. Wake up Jenna. We're trying to get this shit poppin. Probably going to have her on a train training or like Mondays, Wednesdays before school. We go do this and then after school on Fridays we do this like there's going to be some kind of practice here. You got a game here. But when I was a kid it wasn't so much like that. A lot of it was just like I'm going to go outside. We were on the, we were on, we like we're like 3 or 4 years ahead of it. Yeah I agree five years maybe it's where now it's like everyone's doing it. Pretty much everybody's doing it, you know. Yeah. Like if you get any kind of you kids and shit. Yeah. All so like, seems like it's a, it's a different circle of people, you know. Yeah. It's like there's one part, there's one of the dads. We met him. We met like a lot of the parents on that. Like two weeks ago we went to the Utah game. It was a yeah, watch the game. Great time. Met all these parents. And then there's one guy, his name is Grant, and he's like, his daughter is like been playing for two years. I think she's one year younger than jazz. And she's like getting into like the select circuits and like, that's like a different pool of people who, like, know the different clubs and know like the different like they're like, yeah, we went to I9 last year. Sorry. I know they're like that. She was bunk. Archie Bunker, you fucking Reggie type. Shots fired. No, no. My deal deal with them. But you know they're not good like enough for whatever reasons. But there's a it's a it's a different time. Different time. People are freak athletes. So any given week any of those games could hit. And then Vegas just makes money on all of it all the time. Anyway. The house always wins, bro. Yeah, the house always wins. Yeah. So I think maybe remembering that there's trap games, remembering that Vegas makes their money too, and being able to say I played enough to know to keep the Colts in there. I knew enough to keep them in there. A couple years ago, I might have just done away with them, right? Or I would just pick them. And not knowing about the trap game aspect. And then I would have had a found find that out through analytics. Yeah. Through like deducing what just happened. Yeah. It's like I was so confident that everyone was so confident that it was trap. Yeah. But that one was a little bit more unpredictable because you could see, I guess the cults seem more like a trap. It looked like a fucking booby trap with, like, the the the sticks and the leaps over it. I was like, I could see the Colts winning also in three point bullshit. Fucking close divisional game. Can Ward starts watch. Welcome home Titans always play good against the Colts. Yeah the calls might not be as good as we think they are. Like looking really good you know what I'm saying. Sure. So then like to the at the the appearance of the trap door. It looks different to me now, but I know what to look for at least a little bit. But I knew that it was initially the truth, solid enough that I should throw them in there anyway, because I'm sticking to my guns. But I didn't stick to a hard enough and stick to the bit like sticking to your guns. What is that? Sticking to your guns is like your your fucking mental fortitude, your spiritual fortitude, your fortress. Like what determines your behavior? You know, like ability to trust yourself. Yeah, yeah, yeah. Because sometimes you can know you think something but not trust yourself enough to act on it. So it's like with with all of your your guns is like, I knew I knew what to do here and I didn't do it and but I knew it, but I didn't stick to my guns. You know. Yeah, I should have the way that I know I should act. The way I know I should carry myself. I didn't carry myself in the way that I should have, or that I know I should have, and I could have. It was right there, but I didn't rise. I didn't even write. Well, now it's time to rise. Okay? I've always saying that in this league, I've been saying that's the narrative for the last couple of years here. But I was going to the pictures. Yeah. Do we rise, we rise, we rise. Come on. I believe it's the year to rise. The year of the rise. We're right on its tail. Some smell. The coffee we hit when we powered the Colts and hit. I'm like, I'm on your fucking tail. I'm like, I'm on your ass. I got four points. That's fine. It's just a little four. But I'm on your ass. Yeah, you're right there. Four is good. You're in top ten for sure. Tied for seventh, I think. Let's go. Flawless lap or stay relevant. You know top seven for sure. We're here. This one I think I'm 13 so it's I actually good. It's eight I only have eight points. It's hard to score. It's hard to fucking do it. A lot of people got zero a lot of people got zero. I like that was that was me. Yes. That's, trying to figure this thing out here. I remember like a week, ten people that had like 40 points was great at like week ten, it's like for ten point weeks was great at week ten, it's like we're we're good, but we have a higher standard of like score points, strike, strike, strike. That's why when we catch rhythm bro, we're going to rise. Royce A couple double digit point weeks is all it takes for our dude. Double digit points, couple 12 stats. I feel great, bro. 12 is a ridiculous getting all forward. It's the equivalent of having a come to dinner in Vegas and blowing out little dough. I'll take the fucking, pardon my French. I'm looking for the Louis tray. Okay. Can I get a couple? Louis? Treasuring my friend. We just want $10,000. That's getting 12 points in our league is the equivalent of, like that. That's what it would be like. Yeah. All like practice for getting like sized welling up that big fucking vice principal energy dog. Everyone get him McDonald's dog. Everybody get McDonald's. You're gonna die Coke. You could die coke. I'm like a little betray tray dogs and get a Louis train. Yeah, y'all get Diet Coke. Everyone's getting something, I promise. Yeah. Michelle. Four more years. Yeah, in those lakes, bro. It's, It's. I don't advise gambling. Oh, I don't suggest it as a as a means. Do I do this instead? It's fun. It's just a fun thing. It's just adding extra drama. It is. You know, it's within your means. It's like $140 for the entire year. About ten bucks a week, a little bit less or 17 weeks. You've got a little time left to talk about something other than football. Yeah, yeah. You to push it. I was a you said on a past podcast the one you don't want to. Tyler. Okay. You register for your birthday energy. Yeah. You're like, I don't remember exactly what the lead up into it was, but you're like, you got to incorporate the shadow. Yeah. Drink a little bit. Yeah, smoke a little bit. But also praise God a lot. That's everything. That's the better thing. Yeah, yeah. And I was just like, I don't know in the gym that goes to the gym sometimes. I was in the gym thinking about taking things to a dark place. I'm like listening to Joe Rogan talk about sober October. I was trying to take you to a dark place, but, yeah, I was trying to kill you. Joe goes nasty. What to do? Double what I do. You're going to meet the death. So you got to find a grim reaper at the end of double what I do. Yeah, it's like challenging Goggins. Or like you awakens that Goggins energy is like, okay, motherfucker, go get your running shoes. Dundalk. Yeah, we go for a run. And sometimes doing this is like 1 a.m. finishing up my workout, just doing abs. Slow, intentional. Got nowhere to go, you know? Should I go home? Go to sleep. Let's take a time doing these abs right here. And that's like, I feel it's like what's motivating me to go through there. I'm like, I could go to that place. We could just said, yeah, I could take you down. Yeah, down, down deep. That was just like, I don't know if I want that to drive me then. So I do feel like you'll cooperate. The shadow, you know, go break the shadow and then then. So that's why I, I was thinking in my head, I was like, that's. I don't know if that's the opposite of. Does that contend with sanctification in a way that juxtaposes it from what I guess, you know, the sanctification to be based on what I told you, sanctification to be based on what I heard from my dad, more or less. It's like this desire to not want to sin. Yeah, or like an M no more impulses to sin, right? I don't know if the incorporated shadow is incorporating the urge to sin into your life. I don't know, I don't know if sobriety is sin on that level. Because yeah it's just like aggressive energy. Yeah I'm saying aggressive energy. That's a sin okay. You know okay. You know you know I was feeling that today oddly enough in the gym I was going off dude I was going off. I was definitely setting off the lunch alarm in the fitness. Sure dog. We have a we have like a semi really short 20 yard, not even 20 yards. I have like let me like 15 yards of the little turf field in the, in the gym, some tires or like they're they're not like true tractor Wheeler like rubber tires. They're I don't even know what kind of material like sort of just wrapped around, you know, made made for athletics maybe for this type of field. Sure. And then I was just doing legs and I was just listening to this gospel music, and I was just pushing some weight, and I was just doing some, leg press. But then I did, well, I really was send it off was on the fucking, leg extensions. And then I was super sending it with abs and then Super Center with a minute of, like, tire flips. I don't know where I set that. I set the tire up to do. Oh, I know where, because I thought this I have to do like step ups and twists and in one step up and twist on my abs. Just like, just like almost like crammed on want me bad. And I was like, oh, okay, we're not doing those. So I started doing some tire flips instead. On the third set of that, I was just, just listening to the playlist. And then in my mind, I was like, I really want to hear drop right now. That would be that would be awesome for this last set of tires. And then boom, the next song and I just got sent over the over the cliff. Yeah. I was just throwing this tire. Yeah. Like throwing it. Yeah. It was, it was very aggressive. I heard that it was like the same energy I was talking to you about. Like, I want to fight Travis Scott. I want to fight future. Like, where's that coming from? You tell me where that's coming from, right? Right. I don't know, you're just submitting that. You're like. It's not that I like. I don't really want to do that. It's almost not disrespectful. You're like, I'm being honest about how I feel. Oppressive energy. That's just like, I will challenge anyone, you know what I'm saying? It's like a UFC fighter. That's part of what they tap into to a degree, but I'm not sure what that is, where that's coming from. But it's just like I will stand on the promises of God right now. I know what the future holds. I'm the one in control here. Yeah, you know, ultimate. But you got to come to me. I don't know what that is. Maybe that's just like our personality type. Maybe we're just be guardians. Maybe we're just be the redwoods and the oaks in front of the fortress. I think you've mentioned that metaphor to me before, right? I've seen it in, like a like a spiritual place. Okay. What is it? Just. We're just thick fucking trees. Like. Like tree in front of something. Like in a forest. I feel when I have seen it, it's just like we're in a forest. A vision you've seen in a spiritual like mental place. Yes. Of us. Yes. Metaphorically as trees. Yes. Like red oaks. Like. Yeah. Trees. Like in a forest. The thing that I've seen is like in a forest and like where it starts to get really dense, it starts to get crazy dense thicket, like you're kind of you're going through the forest and you kind of come to a clearing with like a pond and like a little bit of scene. There's like a scene there. But then if you were to keep going forward, it's like you see us and we're like, it takes you aback. You're like, is that a that's a fucking tree. That's a big fucking tree. So I never in my life, what the fuck does happen in this forest? Okay. That was like one. Visualization was like a dream you've had, like a daydream. It was like when I was like a kid, dude. Like an elementary school. Yeah. Oh. Vice principal de dog. Yeah. Back. Yeah. It just like I sold. I like, 6 or 7. Really? Yeah. Yeah, I don't know. I remember thinking, I want to be like a thick tree. I remember, like, having that, like I want to be like, it's hard for me. That's tree. You got to fuck. You can't. You can't just knock me over a store like you would look at that level and density and girth up a tree and just think, this tree could withstand anything. There's no storm that can knock this tree over. Especially, like in the middle of the forest. Like it's not like you're getting to us with, like, a lot of wind, you know what I'm saying? Where like standard strong. But. Yeah. Yeah, like 6 or 7 and then. Yeah. So, like, I felt like I was an earth bender if I was like an avatar. Me too. I feel like this tied a like me to earth bender status, bro. Avatar. You know? Come on. I feel like, there's something I don't know. I don't think I get, like, my power from the earth, but the idea that, like, I'm rooted to something bigger than me, I think that that is why I like the symbolism of earth, but it's more of a reference to God that, like, I draw power from, like, something bigger than than me. Like, you know. Yeah, but but I don't know. So then anyways, I feel like Demi, she, I kind of push the color green on her. I feel like she has this, like, tree energy about her, you know what I'm saying? Yeah. Like a little Bulbasaur. Yeah. Yes. She feels like a Charmander to me because she's. She's a Charizard. Charizard pole. She's got memories. Also, she's like the you're the dragon, you know? Okay. Word. Yeah, like Chinese New Year. Maybe there's, Because I know that. Weird. Maybe it's Virgo that's associated with Earth, but there's, like, Earth. Wind. Yeah, water. And Virgo is associated with Earth. I'm pretty sure maybe she's associated with fire. Could be. I'm not sure she's. What? November. October? October? Yeah. What about what it is? What is what is her sign? I think that she is a Libra. Okay. Let's just look like real quick, just for the sake. Look, I'm. So I continued trees. Thick trees, bro. Okay, okay. But then just a just another thought that I had along the same layer before we lose you guys to the talking about the metaphysics, I'd also seen it like there was like a tundra palace. Bro, this is like I haven't been mentioning this one. I think to me it was like ice. You said Tundra Palace? Yeah. Ice palace. Tundra mentioning this one to me. And then, like, outside of the Tundra Palace, there's this, like, same age. Yeah. Maybe a couple years later. Okay. Like 9 or 10, maybe Tundra Palace, there's like, like these structural beams outside this tundra palace and like, they basically create, like, the fortress around it, more or less. And, you and I were like, these two beams out in front of the the the Tundra Palace, like. And it reminded me of the redwoods. Like a structural column. Yeah. Because we were like, huge thick columns. And I was just like like the magnificence, magnificence of it is like as stunning. Yeah. It's like, bro, it's never getting through there. Say oh geez. Yeah. Oh gosh. And that's it struck me the same as the redwood tree thing. And everybody said, Victoria, I had a dream one time that we were like these two roaring lions, and it kind of struck me in the same, like, I don't know if I feel like those lions, if they were like, protective lions, like holding it down, you know what I'm saying? Hold it down. I don't know what that is. So, yeah, maybe we have Guardian Energy and we need to tap into that. But I guess Jung that came from Jung. The incorporation of the shadow, I guess. I guess maybe Jordan Peterson has a. He's doing it in a way because, like, we're literally doing it in the gym, like, this is like I'm throwing a fucking tire, bro. I can I didn't plan on doing that right. I did not plan on doing it. I didn't come there to do that right. I was just gassed up to the gills. Yeah. Fully channeling like maybe do maybe manifesting my Dharma to the highest extent. I'm not sure why we're working out exactly. It's better to be stronger than to be weak. I can't explain it. Why? I'm so predicated on it, right? Yeah, I love it. Love it so much. It's like gravity. I need to go there. Yeah. I need to go there. Oh yeah. It is a Libra sign. No Libra air element. Okay. Air elements okay. That's cool. Like it's a lot of fire but that's all. Charmander. Yes sure little Charmander but I feel this like also Demi short for like if you were going to have like the longer version of the name would be like Dimitri. And I think Dimitri is like true meaning or I don't know, different names, different meanings or different things. It's like, it's like a, like a Roman or Egyptian god that is of the earth and of like, the bounty. And I'm like the plants growing, you know what I'm saying? Okay. So that kind of like, puts that hue over, I think her sometimes that I just feel this like earthy sturdiness. Yeah. Little Red were baby. Yeah okay. She's super happy. She doesn't. But as I always say she's just like in Pokemon you get like there's like a nature and a quirk for every Pokemon. No. Yeah. And then they kind of like describe like the nature describes. Every stat gets a plus or minus. So it's like if they're jolly, it means like plus attack, minus defense. And then sometimes there's like ideal ones like adamant is like plus speed minus special attack. But if you want a fast attacker that's like perfect because you don't need special attack. So but then I think about that with them. She's just like super jolly like not that it changes their stats at all. She's just like a jolly baby. Just the captain John. Yeah. That's your super explorative at all. She's like happy and wants to be get out there can't really be contained too much and get out there. Kids like I get off when I'm trying to do stuff right now a little bit. Evie. Yeah, this is awesome, dude. Yes, we're doing in. Yes, bro. That's amazing. Yeah. We look at them also a little bit. I'm we're getting close. I was talking about, Dan when we were just talking a little bit because Jordan Peterson corporate in the shadow. That's from Carl Jung. Yes way where they're expressing it like, maybe we're manifesting our dharma in that way. That's what we're supposed to be doing. I think everyone should be doing something physical, though. I think just to some degree, we have this body, bro. It's a dog. You got to take care of your dog, bro. Got okay? Yeah. Walked over for him. He's a dog. Like he's a he's a human. Like he's a there's physical things. It feels good to use your body. It just it just does with your rock climbing or biking or swimming, doing whatever sort of physical thing and moving your body feels good. And then doing the hard thing is a meta skill that is better than anything, that's for sure. A wisdom I pull from to working out. So I love it so much. But in the gym, expressing this in corporative aggressive energy, you know, send out the fucking link along with those tires. That's maybe what it looks like for me, but Jordan Peterson, maybe he goes to the gym, but he doesn't do it quite like that or you know, so he's his incorporation of the shadow might be more of a psychological pursuit through his story, by looking at and reviewing and combing through the history of the 1950s, 60s, 70s and even before that. And like looking through all of these things and having this desire and curiosity to find information that seems solid, and he's like going through and finding all this. And then as he's combing through atrocities like Soviet Russia and shit that's going on in like concentration camps, in the concentration camps, in Japan, I think it was it wasn't China somewhere in Asia, just terrible shit that's been going on. Yeah, yeah. And he's like studying these different types of governmental structures and like the propaganda of the era and Stalin and all this crazy shit, bro. And maybe that's like a type of incorporation of the shadow as well. It's access to the information of like exposure to evil almost like, oh, how close can you get? How much can you read? He's like, how in reference to the Gulag Archipelago. Archipelago, archipelago, the Gulag, that book archipelago. Yeah, that fucking book. He's like, it's hard to read, you know, say like it's hard to read about these things, let alone see that, let alone commit them. Like what? How do you get there? It's like, that's sort of a a shadow maybe in that sense. But but that thing is maybe it's associated with aggressive energy to a degree. And we need it because people are fucked up, man. Yeah, I don't know. For this limiting the shadow to aggressive energy to like, I don't know like because if it came down to if someone's trying to hurt them, you're going to kill them. I know I've thought about this. If it comes to dams, it comes to them. You're going to kill that person every time as a good parent should. Yeah. You know what I'm saying? Like your child's in danger. That is your innate human nature to do whatever it takes to make that not happen. Right? You know? Yeah. I don't think that's a far reach to say that. I think it's fucked up regardless. So that's that. I don't want to write. I don't want to have to do that. Right. Not like in a self sense, all the others. I don't even want to live with that. Like afterwards, you know what I'm saying? Like, now I have to deal with that. I don't want to have to, like, I'm lazy. There's part of that. That's part of me that's like there's a rage against the machine. So it's like some people don't understand. How about they just kill a man? It's a fucking crazy song. Okay. Yeah. Crazy band, rage Against the machine. Yeah. You know, fucking 90s rock, bro. Yeah. Going nuts. It's kind of rough to say the same thing, though. I was like, yeah, the shadow is. There is a part of you, the killer that's a big or you know. Yeah, there's something there that is there. Yeah. And you can maybe it's different accessibility levels for different people determined on what they need to be doing in their maximum of contribution to the general public of human existence. Yes. And I think that, that just looks different for different people. But it's important. Yeah, yeah, I think with the shadow sometimes I would think it is like you have a proclivity to be aggressive, like you're going to be aggressive. This is like part of your human nature. So you're going to have aggression then like using it in that setting and like channeling it in that like safe place to channel it is like maybe the right way to, to incorporate your shadow that's incorporating your shadow. Yeah. Yeah. Like, and then as a human. Yeah. You have aggression, bro. Right. You can take it to a more degenerative level. It's like gambling. It's like I have a proclivity to want to gamble like I do, but then to incorporate that shadow, like to play the pickles, like, satisfies that urge. Without me actually gambling. I think sometimes I think that's like incorporating your shadow, but I don't know if that's selling yourself short on like the sanctification aspect of like, I don't want to gamble. It's like, I don't want to drink, I don't want to. But then it's like, yeah. So then another side question is, is drinking the shadow or is this in, depends on who you are, right. Because for me it's different thing for different. For me, I don't like in my narrative of what I tell myself, it's like sinning or like alcohol. It's not like I said to me, or it's not like a thing I struggle with, regardless of sin, nature, whatever. For some people, it's like, I can't have one drink, I can't, but for me, I like, I can. I don't have any desire at all. I no want for that zero want. And that's the thing that can take people out. And it's like, I just don't have 001 for that. Like I rather would smoke or, you know, say like I have want for that, right? Like, you know, it's like I've had want for that subjectively talking about it. Yeah. It's just like that is a different sort of vice or like a different sort of it depends on who you are though. So ultimately the answer is drinking like incorporating your shadow. For me it's like not they don't have to because I don't have to wrestle with that. I'm not wrestling with that. I already won that match to a degree. Of course, I know things can happen and situational circumstance changes like, sure. And snowfall, that kind of happens to a degree I won't spoil. It's fucking great for you. Sure. Like you're talking about torture. Yeah, it's it's cool. It's about the. But. Yeah, it would be easy to buy a big ass bottle of some kind of liquor and just drink two shots every night when you get home, like, make a double when you get home. Just create this ritual. And then also. And that's what you do. Yeah. The ritual is get home, light up, get home and light up. Be whoever however you do it, whatever, you know what I'm saying is, it's like everyone has a night. Everyone but everyone who smokes has a ritual. Everyone has that ritual, has that ritual. Or like they fit it into their life narrative somehow through habitations. Okay, now the now's the part of the show where I go out and take a smoke and as a part of the show where I do whatever or like the cyclical nature of the patterns that we just repeat out day to day, because every day is pretty much the same as the day before. Sometimes a drastic things happen and it's like a different world. Now I work in a different job, or we broke up. Or are we? Something's different. Not completely, but for the most part, it's the same every day, just a little bit. Just like it. Like the thoughts in your head are about the same every day, like 90%, 95%. You have a couple. We have like 10 to 8% of wiggle room to fucking get yourself inspired. Have the fuck out of there. Yeah. To go this way, the exponential nature of that way. So that way for real, dog. Yeah, it takes everything. It takes everything, takes everything. But it's worth it. Yeah, that risk is worth it. So I think incorporating the shadow is different for everybody. And depending upon what you're struggling with or what you're doing, it's like, that's one thing I want to testify to. Just like also like I've been because I've been, like jacking off for ever, you know, say, as most kids do. And it's like, that's like not I deem that to be not good. Testify. And what you determined to be not good. A simple test I like to run is just like, what would you tell your kid if I had a son? And he was like, hey, dad, I don't know. I'm not sure how to incorporate this jacking off porn thing into my life. Like what? How do you how would you know? Like, what's the ideal way and how do you navigate that? And whatever advice you would give that person like follow that advice. You know, I'm saying I was like, I know it's hard, but ideally you would never do it. Ideally you would never do it and you would never want to do it ideally. But it's fucking hard. So like I'm trying like, how do you say once a month, once a week? What's a you know, what's once a year. Like what do we how we what are we doing here. So I think that's kind of where it flows. Let's see. Yeah. On my birthday work it's like maybe they say oh. You want to talk about oh Jay and Jay. Oh in the morning. 99 day, bro. OJ where's the glove, bro? Come on, all out. Your voice. Yeah, dawg. But it's like, so I think that there's the incorporate. Trying to follow that advice is hard advice, not my advice. And like also the same thing with like smoking I do guys I just get it like since we were kids and like it's it's like that way now but like times a thousand, you know what I'm saying? So that's like we're living in that society, our kids that day like 8 to 10 years old or dealing with this shit already crazy. It's getting fucking wild out here. Like we have generate like we have only fans and that's going on. So it's like, where are we heading as a culture. Yeah. So I think that's just like the I don't I can get I'm getting way out of there vending machine blowjob. There's the fucking in the mall shadow and there is a way to incorporate it. But there's also a way that like breaks those vices completely. Us, Jesus Christ. Like, I don't have the urge to really smoke anymore. I've gotten that one down. Alcohol. I never really like I drinking in college and stuff, you know, but now it's just like a never too, too crazy little crazy. Definitely crazy. Definitely enough crazy to know where crazy is and don't want to go there anymore. You know, nothing illegal or like, not in jail. But there's different levels of crazy. And I found my chaos and order tightrope. I wanted to walk and I got it. And like, alcohol is cool. Got it. Whatever we do a little bit different that one, because I think it's almost a truth serum to a degree, just objectively, prospectively, subjectively from my lens. Like that's what I kind of if I use it properly, I can do that. Like if it's almost like a day, like if I wait like two weeks, give myself some time, we're good, but we're it gets abusive or I'm like every day with it, you know like I that's I'm getting the shadow is taking me over you know saying I so I can be over at that one and like kind of like the same thing and like jacking off. So I kind of like the same thing. All we all have different, different things we're trying to pursue here, different things we're meant to be doing our dharma, whatever, whatever's the manifested ultimate maximum blessing you could ever imagine for yourself. Someone's giving you that thought. That's your thought. But where do your thoughts come from? Okay, I am who is you? Okay, I'll come. Coming. Okay. I almost did it for you, you know? So, so so here's the here's another question is if you're going too fast and go so like, is there a gravity to that fast and go, yes. Like what? Like let's say you're going to give up the weed and the alcohol and the porn and the cigarets and the the loving the fucking. Yeah. Whatever. The the ultimate, the the online, the dirty kitchen. Yeah, the. Sure. The dirty kitchen. All the dirty dog. Easy stuff bro. You know, and you just like, do it, you know, you're not drinking, you're not smoking, not jacking off. You're cleaning the house every day, doing it. It's like sometimes I think that when there's like a, rebounding effect that is going to hit people at some point and that, that maybe that should be the incorporation of the shadow is when this rebound is going to come where you're going to do some fucked up shit, maybe like do it in a or like if you feel this aggression coming on, it's like, well, I'm going to go to the gym and throw some tires around because I feel like I'm going to be fucking, you know, lit today. But but then also like when I'm fasting like a true fast, it feels so good when you're fasting, then when the fast is over, it's kind of weird because you're just like, well, what am I gonna do? I want you to, like, drink. Now, you know, what's the narrative now? What's the story look like for how's the drama play out now? I had structures and limits and rules, and I was playing a game. And now the game is over. Yeah, that one game I playing. I think the difficulty there is that it's easy when the game is just. No. But when you have to create like a rule set for where's my. Yeah. Where's my. Yeah. Because some people it's just like no drinking I can't do it. I can't do it. Simple. Yeah, yeah. Like cigarets I can't do it I can't do it. And there's also maybe things I like you don't like. Maybe get to the point where there are things that are the most drawing and pulling to you, and you can conquer those things and say, I don't want to do it anymore. But I've been doing it for so long and like, now I'm a different person and I don't do that thing anymore. Yeah. You know, I'm saying, yeah, I feel that way about smoking. For the most part. It feels like integration. Shut up. They've done a lot of use and the and the like, they're hard to get now fucking whatever the fuck is going on. I still get them. I don't even try. Yeah, what I'm saying, I don't even know what the struggle is like anymore. The different story. Yeah, exactly. Yeah. But then but I still use these things. But in my mind, it's just like they're less damaging and they're relatively cheaper. So it's just like it's like, yeah, you something, but like it's better than just smoking all the time, you know what I'm saying? So I feel like that's kind of integration of shadow. Like I have an addiction personality. I do get addicted to stuff. I'm going to get addicted to this thing that's not so bad. It has of social ramifications. And it's like, I could just be not addicted to anything, but it feels like there's like this, like fucking, well, getting pulled storm building up, you know, it's going to fucking I'm going to end up blacked out on Coke on sixth Street in the back room with some hip hop club. I'm going to be like, how do I get here? And I'm going to be like, it's because I fasted for like three months. I didn't do anything. And then I was just like, go, go, go, go, go. I got a tattoo tonight. I could explain that to anybody. There's no I don't necessarily exactly think it's like that. But I think like like the, the extreme of what the emotion or the, there's just like, yeah, there's this subtle urge to like go all out and like enjoy. It's like been what's it called? Purging and bingeing. Binging and purging. Okay. Yeah. It's almost like okay, I just I want to fucking kill an apple pie right now. I just dieted for like three months straight, but today, like, I'm at my, like, wits end or whatever. I want to, like, destroy an apple pie. It's like, well, should you just die forever and it's like, well, probably not forever. But then what does it look like when you stopped adding apple pie to my face? It's like, I don't think that's right either, you know? Yeah. But there is a as an honest person, there is a drawer to just go. I did, I did, I did like two weeks ago. I just want apple pie out of the face. I died like all week long. And I was like, I did. I did my fasting. I did everything cheat meal. That's what I told myself. But then I'm looking at myself like, why is that how you deal with what it's I don't know, just eating an apple pie is the right way to right. Yeah. I think there's this, like rebounding sometimes that wants to happen. I think with alcoholics, I think you could understand, like, not drinking for a long time and then you're like, but I'm going to go hard tonight. We're going to fucking go hard tonight. Yeah. I was like, I go to Vegas, you know, say I'm drinking. Went to the UTI game, drink. Good amount of brewskis that incredible amount. I, you know. Yeah I'm with you. We're talking we're not talking about fun. I was crying in the bleachers. It was the best time ever. Cried in the bleachers. Bro. This is some of the thoughts I have about when I'm like, it's good. Carl Jung and Jesus get along. I would think so. I've let the things I'm sure. I think Jesus would probably be like this spiritual. I think Jesus get along with everybody. Yeah, that's the thing. And you expect so. So yeah, I think they'd have some differences of opinions on some stuff. I probably gonna be like, what? But you, Jesus, you like, of course you don't have a shadow. Okay, okay. Lord, I mean, just like the saying, get behind me. The ability to say that. Yeah. To face the temptation and to say that I think that the desert. He would even. He got tempted. Yeah. You know, I feel like your shadow is like your inner bitch. It's like the temptation. Yeah. The temptation. You have Satan inside itself. Yeah. The proclivity, proclivity to fall into that. Right. It's like you stand on the rocks and you're like, fucking ten years old or however old you've been. You know, it's like Vegas betting. It's like sometimes you you like, sometimes the devil. Waynesboro. It's like. It's why he's in business. Yeah. That's why we have a game here. Yeah, it's it's what the game is. Sometimes I gamble on the Vegas winning. It's like, what do you like that you built this. You know what goes on here. You know we lose a lot. Like that's kind of a crazy, like, segway to try to tie it all together at the end there. Yeah, I love it. But I think that Jesus would be like, yeah, just because there's a bad guy and sometimes the bad guy wins, it doesn't mean like, what you should do in the most beautiful version of this art you're watching is to gamble on the bad guy to win. Sometimes it's like you should just fight the good fight, and when you lose, if you lose and feel bad about losing, that's better than losing on purpose because you know you're going to lose. Sometimes it's like, that's not playing in the most beautiful way you could play it. The true competitive nature of what's going on here. The true wrestling match was happening. I think it was more appropriate for me to eat the apple pie, and then feel bad about eating an apple pie than the apple pie and say, yeah, that's why I die, so I can do some weird shit at the end of the week. Okay. Worried? Yeah. Before. Yeah. Joyless cheat meals, man. Yeah. It's. Yeah. Go to Vegas I it's a, it's an a corporation thing. We're kicking around philosophy for sure. The balance thing. Yeah it's a balance thing. It's all balance and harmony. All balance and harmony. We're doing our best. We're sinful creatures in a fallen world with free will for each. And so that's what's that's what's going on here. And, free will is expensive evil. We can do evil. We can. But, you know, when you fuck people over price. Yeah. You know, when you're not doing truly good business or truly good intensive communication and narrative and interaction with people, you know. Yeah. Do you know? Yeah. Always just try to be kind. But yeah, there's a the line or not a line you cross with. It's like a like if you know you're going to be like, all right, I'm doing like organized crime here. Like we're the fucking mob dog. Like fuck the rules, bro. I now accept that we are making the rules. Now. We have to we have to kind of integrate into the system that is at hand here. But ultimately we're just both playing objective reality game and we're just don't play. We don't play by the law. They just decide that they're now they're in the mob and the Mafia and the cartel. It's a real thing that's fucking happening here. Yeah, and they I don't want to. I don't want to go over there. Give me that fucking jacket because it's fucking car. Pussy. Yeah. Fucking car. Yeah, that's a nice car. Whose car says I'm like oh my God, thank you. So that is existence. That's why I need to flip tires. Yeah, yeah. The threat is real. The danger is real. I do feel you like, worst case scenario, you know, let's say I got a real bad dad. Bad gone. I definitely had a pregnancy away from them, so it just gets out of hand. But then someone comes out to someone, kidnap me. But, like, that's why that movie taken is a movie. It hit me because, like. Because that response. Yeah. Because like, I'd have to do something and you'd hope in that moment that you'd have a very special set of skills, because if you hadn't and that thing happened, then you're like, if I would have been training, if I would have been training, I would have been ready. I'd come across the country and get on a cruise ship and kill everyone involved. It's like you got to be like, ready on some level for bad things to happen. Metaphor. It'd be like down to go metaphor and willing to do it. That's why you can just kill a man is kill John Wick OmniFocus, bro. That's the problem. Take you to a dark place. But if he. I will take you to a dark place. Yeah, I did, yeah, the dark place is real, bro. It's there whether you want to look at it or not. It's there every. You're you're creating your reality. I don't want to look at it too much because I don't want to paint with that brush. That's the thing that's I think dangerous about visiting that place. But also there's other times where you're like on a 200 mile run, think to every now and then on those runs, you know, you go to that place of like David Goggins got to go to the cookie jar. Yeah bro. Got to go look. Dig deep. Well we will we use that. Dig deep. Like what are we talking about here. Most of them I'm not going to a very painful spot now. Yeah it's it's a little different for people I'm sure. But but there's painful thoughts that are powerful. Just doing a fucking plank, thinking about, you know, trying to hold up a car. Yeah. Of your child. Yeah, sure. For sure, for sure. So yeah, there's just I don't know. These are good thoughts to think about. I think incorporating the shadows. It's out there, the whole thing. It's out there. And when you have kids, you will definitely know this feeling of like, I would harm someone who is trying to harm my kid. Like Joe Rogan quotes it all the time that this other guy has a quote that says, like, I understand killing somebody. Yeah, murder. Now it's like, I'm not trying to do that. I don't want to bring that into my life at all. But I love that baby so much that like, yeah, yeah. So sometimes pretty aggressively just in case. Somewhere else though some the shit around, bro. You never know. But you're manifesting this. We're manifesting this life is beautiful. Join us next time. Episode 100 100 deep Papa fucking bottle. Play some lemonade today, dude. Forrest. Frank, Christian culture's coming. We're living in a crazy revival. Y'all ended on that note. It's a crazy revival. We're living through. I think we're living through one of the craziest times in history, which we already did when Covid happened. So we're living through another crazy time in history. Just think about the history books in the next 70, 80 years. It's gonna be strange. It's gonna be a little strange, I think, unless Jesus comes back before that, which could totally happen. Like tomorrow. They were saying he was coming back today. I was thinking about that, too. That I'll think about that, too. I mean, really crazy. I'm think about that. It was the 23rd today when we're recording, but so we'll come back next week. But no 20. Yeah. I thought this one was also happened hypothetically. Could have happened today, maybe tomorrow. So, if you don't see it, maybe 99 is all we needed to do is we needed to get to 99 with Joyce for 100. But if we're here for you, otherwise, we'll see you in heaven. Can't wait. But I like Bill