MAKING MOVES | UT Longhorn Football, Moving & Charlie Kirk | The MJ38 Show #98

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Welcome in. Ladies and gentlemen, boys and girls of all ages. MJ 38 show 98 deep. Matthew and Justin. San Antonio, Texas. We're here for you. Okay. Don't forget that. It's easy to forget it over here. Anytime you think about what's magic. What you know what's hundred 38 been up to? We're hoping that you're doing amazing. That's what the fuck we're doing. Yeah. Promise you, they're sending you awesome vibes. Praying for you. I hope you're aiming up. I hope you're getting what your prayers are asking for. And I pray that if you don't get that, that you get the insight to see why you didn't get that and why it's even better than what you initially thought. Can I left turn on such a curious please? Okay. When you do, you pray at night? No, I don't set aside time to like, have an active. I'm praying now moment. You know what I'm saying? Okay. I've thought about this before. I do like, do I do take time to, like, pray? For sure. Most of the time it's when right before I gets hurt, as I get to work out before I go inside the building. Yeah. Pull up at work for ten minutes early. Chill. Turn off the music. Turn off the podcast, whatever. And then just sit. Try to sit for, like, three minutes. For five minutes. About the time. You know. Yeah. And then in that I'm typically praying, you know, saying. But also like meditating and actively trying to cleanse myself and like, rid myself of whatever I don't need. You know what I'm saying? Like, give me let me have this. It does not serve me. It let me like all of this. And then now that I'm let go and empty and I'm open now fill me with Holy Spirit. And I'll fill me with abundance and discernment. And fill me with like overflow me with. And just like visualizing myself as a cup that overflows with positive energy. It's like dispense with this bullshit energy. All right, now we fill in the cup. We fill in the cup up, and then also in there. Definitely prayers, you know. Yeah. Praying for my family. Like specific things that I need to ask or people what they need to pray for. You know, saying I don't have enough specificity sometimes. Yeah. Just general prayers. I'm with you, but. Yeah. Don't know what's up. Where we going? Because present portant. Yeah, we talk about it. I say I'm praying for you, but I'm also like, you know. So then I'll visualize in my mind what praying for you is to me. But I'm telling you, I'm going to pray for you. So I'm thinking about what your perceive, interpret right to be. And then, then I self-reflect is my definition. Their definition. So I'm like, well, what is definition? You know, so yeah, I was curious to know what prayer looks like for you. There's definitely my aunt. Beautiful example. Say we went to the youth game the Saturday shout out fucking at bridge bro. Love you man. Can hook them horns bro. Hook them. I didn't even go there. Thank you. You. Me neither. I, I was like, man, I kind of wish I were here. Oh, like, this is cool as shit. It was on my top three list, like on man. And see where you were, like, you take your boards. Yeah. And then I got in. Just wasn't the move. It wasn't the move. Wasn't the store? Nah. But I really hope Demi goes, like, I think about it all the time or. Or the next one, you know. How did that happen, dude? They got us. I don't know what happened. I just think to the best school, I mean, sorry. Oh, God. But we're in the middle of the shit. We've talked about prayer and stuff, but we're about to get into college. About football time. Football time? Maybe. But we were at that game. Shout out to my Aunt Bridge. She's been working for the Texas UT University of Texas Alumni Association, Texas, and exists a separate little, entity. Yeah, but working for them for the last 25 years found that out at the game. That's really. How long you been working here? 25 years. That's amazing. God, she's g yo. Yeah, that's a long time. Yeah, a long time. And, like, it's just crazy how whenever you go, you get older, you recognize your parents, your aunts and uncles. You recognize people as people and not as whatever they were when you were kids. Right. I was like you. Like I was like you. You were 16 when I was born. And like, you're just like your whole person. Like whenever you got here, you were younger than I am now. Like, you're all. We're all just figure in the shit. Oh, we don't know what's going on here. We're all just. How did you end up with this job? How did you get here? Like, what's going on? How did your story become your story? Nice. And, Great questions. Yeah. You know, I'm just. I'm just in their words, talking, talking about life. And then she's, as or. No, we're talking about her, her daughter and going to college and stuff. And then she got into A&M, but she really won't get into UT. And, like, we'll see how that process plays out. And there's another potential path, road way of pursuing like a ministry or something with the church. So we'll see. We'll see what happens. Always blessings ultimately. So we planned on what we started with and landed on, you know, saying she's like, she really wants to get new team out of you. Awesome. But otherwise it's gonna be God's plan. Yeah, yeah. And then we expound upon what's going on, what's going on with the intricacies, the nuances of the story, the acceptance letter, the beliefs behind it. It's like, or, you know, or her story. And then it ultimately just ends with all guys, right? Anyway, so I guess it's nice as long as you're able to do that legitimately. But one of the things that she had mentioned in our conversation was just, she's like, I'm gonna put that in, because I was telling about, yeah, we're trying to have a baby eventually, you know, start to start the family. She's like, I'll put that on my journal. I'll put that in like my prayer journal. And also now talking to that, saying that. Yeah, that brings me to another, pastor, I think it was Pastor Mo, I can't remember, I think maybe pastor for that one, too. Yeah. Yeah, I think it was Pastor Mo at our church talking about, his one of his maybe people that he's going to college with, but he had the same idea of, like, he's like, what are you praying for? Like, let me write it down. And then, like, he had that lock and then my aunt has like that, like, I'll put that in my book. Like, believe me, it's in my prayer journal. Like, I'm praying for you. Like for this thing. What's the miracle you need to see? What's the key that needs the part? What's the mountain you need to move? Let me help move it with specificity. You know what I'm saying? Yeah, yeah, I think there's power in that big time. There is, there is. So I'm absorbing it. I was it, I'm playing with in my mind, I think one of the sometimes people's hold out to that is like, you know, I don't I want to do that more. All that is all that saying yes to finding prayer. There's a hold out there where it's like, I don't want to tell Pastor Mo that I really need a breakthrough in my music. Please pray for me for that. Then he has that in his journal for like ten years. Some people that journal entry just gets cold and dies. Like what? Like a prayer never answered. That's like, oh, first of all, that ain't gonna be me. That's not our story. Secondly, just the thought of that, though the that thought would make someone subconsciously afraid to even ask for prayer for what they want, right? But at the same time, it might not get answered, and then it would be known to have not been answered. Right. You know, that's it's so definitive. Yeah. You know. Yeah, there's something there. Now, the thing is, I just want to be good. Like when someone's like, is there something serious you need help with? I want to just be like, I'm handling it all. You know what I'm saying? Like, I'm. I'm good. I'm like you. You pray for me as a person. I pray for my house, pray for my friends and family and stuff like that. But like, I'm not in a state of desperation. That's another inclination I have when someone asks me for something specifically, can they pray for me? You know what I'm saying? They're like, I'm not like, I'm all right, you know? Yeah, I'm good. I'm pretty good. And just like general, general prayers, you know, I'm doing all right. Yeah. Let's like someone in your family is sick or, like, you know, something happens. Something comes up or some unexpected bill or something. Yeah. God forbid Demi has, like, a health problem, you know? Right. That'd be an easy answer, you know? Yeah, yeah. Something like, I think that that that's the kind of stuff that I'm like, even as an observer, I'm like, pray for that. You know what I'm saying? Don't be praying about my music breakthrough. Like I'll keep working, you know what I'm saying? But like but also I do want to I am giving everything to God. But I'm like, pray for the babies, you know, or like someone's mom has cancer or something like that, you know? Yeah, yeah, yeah, big time. I think it's, just talking about that. I think as we're talking about it, I was thinking about this, the. I was just talking about that being Bridget. My, my aunts and I had conversations starting and ending with. But it's all God's plan. I think you have to, say your prayers with that ultimately in mind. You know, because I want this. But, like, if it's a prayer unanswered, it's a reroute. It's a redirect. It's a detour, you know? Yeah, it's ultimately still going to be if you have faith and trust in him, it'll be ultimately better than you could have imagined. Yeah. And ultimately worth it, I guess at the end of the day, Romans 828 definitely says all things work for good, which is the easy thing to say, and disastrous times commonly used in disastrous times. Scripture. But it is Scripture. It is what we hinge our faith on. So we lean on, so we lean on for all things are good for this little guy. Yeah. So yeah. Great. And then the meta prayer, you know, like, Our father, who art in heaven, hallowed be thy name. Thy kingdom come, thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven. Like that's the meta prayer. It's like if you know the prayer of all prayers. Yeah. When they ask him, how do we pray? We pray like this. Yeah, this is the one. And the Lord's Prayer. You pray? Yeah. You're praying for God's will to be done and for you not to be tempted into evil and to get forgiveness and to give forgiveness, grace and and to be thankful for today's food, that that's that's like a lot of it, you know what I'm saying? Like, it's and then but it's nice to be one. I thought it was beautiful. You don't often find out you know who someone in your family is to ask them, like, hold on. Like, what's your story to a family member? You know, I don't think we do enough of that. Yeah, because people are playing these archetypical roles in our life. It's hard to get to the point of mature awareness where you can say, like, on what the hell are you doing here on this earth? You know what I'm saying? Yeah. How'd you get here, exactly? Objectively appreciate someone like that? Yeah, yeah. Craziness, man. Because we. Yeah, we all have a story, and we are children, you know, we're all children at some point, and we're still children, you know? You know. So I think that we should ask. We should. We should pray for our music, should pray for everything. Shouldn't want to do anything without God. Even the smallest thing. We pray for a better smile. Sometimes I'm sad. Yeah, it's like anything. And I'm saying I'll take it like prayer for me. Looks like, when I was a kid, at night before I went to bed, I felt obligated to pray before I fell asleep. I don't know if my parents were asking me that or church was telling me that I felt like to be a good Christian. I needed to pray, at least before I fell asleep. Probably before meals or stuff like that too. Sure. You know, I'm saying, but I got to say a prayer before I go to sleep. But then now, as an adult, I don't always do that, except for when I become consciously aware in that moment. Then I always pray because I'm never I don't live in the moment. Being recognized is like the end of the day or like I'm laying in bed. You have the opportunity to. Yeah, I'm trying to fall asleep and I'm like, oh, this is like, what can I do in this study prayer space, you know? Okay. Yeah. Where? And then I kind of have like an archetypical prayer. I've thought about this to my whole life because I've been doing this relatively for like since I was like five for a long time, a lot of years of this, you know. Yeah. So that's why I think I told you in the past a lot of prayers are please and thank you. So, it's like most prayers look like. Okay. Yeah. So you're saying thank you for this. Yeah. Thank you for this. Thank you for this. Please help me with that. Please. Over that. Please. Up with that. You know what I'm saying. Yeah. And then I'm like, how else would you pray? Is that the only way to pray? I say it in humility because a lot of my prayers felt the same. Like I'm using the same scripts at nighttime where I'm like, I'm always thankful for my health, thankful that I made it through the day and then, like, slowly expand the circle. Like, thank you for my friends and family cells. Thank you for, you know, like a few core things that I'm always very grateful for, you know, trying to cover my bases and then move into like this. In my own mind, it's this annoying Santa Clause portion of the prayer, like, what's your wish list? Yeah. You know, please help me with, like, music. Like, I'm okay with, I feel. And then I tell him, like, I feel dumb asking you to help me with music, but I want to do it for my life. I feel really good about it. I'm happy to be open and things like the podcasts and the content creation seems to be like calling me and stuff like that. But I like to have breakthrough, but also help me to appreciate where I'm at right now. You know, try to balance it all out. That's kind of and then at the end you got to like hit your anything else you could be thinking about before you get off the mic, you know? Okay. God. Okay. It's like last minute thoughts for whatever's going on that week or, you know, but I don't do it enough. But anyways, that's what that's what it looks like for me. So in that portion, when I'm like, praying for you, be like, you know, please help this person with this thing and then maybe hopefully have a couple extra thoughts that come from it that like apply in my mind, more like anointing. I can speak over that situation with my own heart if if like I have the authority to help, like with my word or my logos in my mind to generate an optimal outcome, I try to like blessed with that, you know, try to like paint a picture where things go great and pray for those things, you know? Yes bro. I think prayer is one of those things that's harder to find loves like that to you, because prayer is like thought. You know, I think Dr. JP's mentioned something I likened to that. It's like thought, thinking and praying or indistinct indistinguishable. I it's the same thing. It's like you're or you're just because you're always thinking, but like there is an intentionality that you can put behind it and a specificity that helps intensify and make it all better. But ultimately you can't. How else would you pray like it's all in your mental? You pray out loud or like that's like preaching or like praying. You know, praying like and for people. But like either way, it's just like the information, it's generating information here. We're always generating information. But there is definitely, definitely some intensity behind setting aside time. Making it like, this is my growing super saying right now. Yeah. You know, yeah, I'm about to go super saying like the Holy Spirit. I do that when I'm driving to work, similar to like when you get to work. But for me, if I carve out enough time on the drive to work that I know I'm not rushing to get to work. So like, I can just like detach from the fact I'm driving and like, just pray and meditate and focus. I had some super saying prayers on the way to work sometimes. Yeah, just coming in hot. Dude. Something about that drive at that moment, that switch up, it's like, okay, I'm going into like my task, you know what I'm saying? I'm trying to like, rid myself and cleanse myself and focus my energy. Yeah. You're ready. Get ready, get your mind right or whatever. You know, athletes try to get in the zone, you know, harbor that energy, get up to supercharge place. It's like. And it's like you can get to that supercharged place and, like, it doesn't have to be aggressive or just have to be fierce. I'm like crying, usually saying, yeah, like, there's a point, there's a CVC shout out, church will go to love it. Does they have an album just came out. Since that album, bro has been supercharged with the Holy Spirit. Like, no, like it's so corny and so cliche, but it's just so true. It's just so true, man. This is your platform. All we can say Jesus. Like this. So go ahead and talk about it. Number six song Symphony. This is a Josh I don't know his last name, but he sings at CBC. I'm not sure the affiliation between the person singing the vocals and if they wrote the lyrics or their attachment to the song, but it's like 12 songs, probably like five or 4 or 5, maybe six different artists like singing the vocals across these songs. Just just to clarify, CBC, the church we go to their worship and put out an album on Spotify. Yeah, that's what we're talking about right now. Yeah. Sorry. Please go ahead. No. Yeah. That's like that. I've been listening to that album like when I'm working out and there's one particular song, Symphony, and there's a particular point in that song, like after like a minute, a minute and a half or so to where there's like a my inner, I have an inner voice that plays over the lyrics, that is like preaching while the lyrics are going on or. But there's a portion in the portion. There's one like minute, maybe it's like 45 seconds long. He's like doing the song, doing the song, and then like, he gets to the point where he's not. The lyrics are overcoming as much is more kind of vocals, and it's more, like more harmonic and more, like the instrumental, you know, but he and he's still, like, hitting them with the adlibs, like, wait, thank you. Jesus. Why thank you Jesus. Yeah. And like, a couple of those are Springsteen and I'm not rapping, but I'm just like something in me just going off, man. It's like preaching. It's like when the bottom of the valleys, like in the top of the mounds, like we praise you, we thank you. Just like, oh, and just evangelical levels of intensity going out of me. Like while this song is playing, while I'm in the gym and like, that gets me super. Like I feel like I'm. Yeah, boop boop boop boop boop. And I'm like, fighting back tears, you know? Say I'm like, on the verge of just, like, breaking down in the middle of the gym. Yeah, in the middle of doing jumping Jacksonville. My eyes just start welling up and it gets hard to breathe a little bit. You know, far, so far I felt that energy when you brought up love there the other day. Yeah. That song when I would workout to that song, I was in a portion of my life where I was on that same kind of energy you can harbor that, you know, like you're saying, maximize my harbor mile. Whoa, whoa. But, like, it doesn't have to be on aggressive or, like, powerful symbolism or imagery. Nothing like that. I felt it on like power on a different scale or power on a different barometer. It's, it's, it's power that's like it's not just the word power has such a connotation with it. Yeah. This I was going to note that lately I've been coming into work like, I guess a lot of it's lemonade because I'll choose to make the choice to play lemonade because it's the right thing to listen to when I'm going to work. Yep. And then halfway to the song, I feel the payoff from that good decision. And I'm just like, praying and feeling good and like, I don't know, man, I'll get on this. Like I'm a more like just like I'm trying to glide so I frictionless, just walk up, do my thing excellently, have good timing, good pacing, no rush. Chillin in the car. It's just like consistently hitting the dance moves without trying to break a sweat. You know what I'm saying? Just like I do this shit. You know what's excellence? Homework to perfect so I can do this shit, bro. Like, doo doo doo doo doo doo doo do. And it's weird because it's different from the, like, the floor slap. Oh, yeah. Yeah, yeah. You know what I'm saying? Like room break. I'll be coming in the hot sometimes. Just ready to whoop. But then like, I don't know, since I got punched in my face and I don't even want to fucking talk about it like it's a moment in my life, but like, some things to be the turning point. Dude, it was a turning point. Like, on one hand, my energy was more timid and more just like, okay, well, I just got pop. So like, I don't want to something, I need to fix some. Something happened. I need to, like, process it and then adapt behavior. I guess something happens. Yeah. If I just come back, I'm ready to go. I'm going to end up fighting this guy. Like, I can't, like this. I have to do something to not get that same result because I was I can't get it to say it in the face again. You know what I'm saying? Yeah. And then all the trying to figure out whether or not you. Are you going to what's the was that justify. It's like not helping. It's not doing anything for me regardless. Like I felt like this pivot of like I was like, oh here, let me let me lose some money, let me run some hills. Let me, let me do some abs. Let me fucking. Okay. All right. I'll, I'll step back. I'll step back and I'll fucking temple up real quick and like instead, even when I'm going out to play now, I'm not really fucking getting after anybody else. I'm not crashing the boards. Crazy. I can't get in there. But like, there's something in my spirit that's a little like. Whereas normally I come in like I'm a gives a body and get up there bro. Like some bucket warrior for this baby. Right now I'm just like, I'll play defense. Let me just give me some time. I'm clicking right now clicking on something gnarly, I'm simmering is simmering. And I'm gonna come back out on some some bread pudding type shit, I don't know. Well, let it simmer and I don't know. Oh, yeah. Okay. Weird, but, but yeah, I think I'm going to come back out hot. But right now, in this little change of pace that I'm in, that's what I'm trying to say. Like low, slow, this change of pace is it? I'm still coming in on some different type of energy. Instead of coming in with the warpaint on like ready to go hard. It's like I'm just like trying to be like, feel. I feel like an ice Pokemon. Just like it's okay. I'm liking let it chill, let a chill, let it all chill. But I'm working. Matthew, where you been? Running Hills. Oh, Matthew, where you been? Late night. Lonely gyms. Thank you. Where you been? YouTube. YouTube. On my carpet floor. I got back burns from abs on my carpet floor. Brother, where you been? Intermittent fasting, brother. In a minute. And then I'm gonna come up and play some fucking hard nosed d a couple weeks in a row. Just fucking. In tempo to. There's a weird thing. It's like, should I let that change me? It's like, no. Anyways, I've been hooping there. It's it's my community. Yeah. So much change for the better. Yeah. Change for the better for sure. For sure. Always one thing I definitely don't I just letting people be for the most part praying for people man. Yeah, yeah. That's what started all this. Yeah. For me, for people man. I'm praying. Fucking love it. When's the Utah game? That was so fun. Fucking cool. That was so fun. It was due to this past Saturday, but it's how this comes out. They will have played another game already, so hopefully they play better this coming week. Whenever this comes out. Awesome. It's not like that. Great. The game itself did not look that great, but the experience was like literally A+. Yeah, like 99. Like I went to of it. So it was and it was our boys birthday on that day. And he's a huge lifelong Utah fan. And I just like threw not even any, any of my own deeds. My aunt, she just works for this company has these tickets. I haven't been I've never been to a game. You mentioned it at both of the weddings. My wedding. At her brother's wedding. Dude, I don't know where that came from. To be honest with you. It was a, like a 99 day, bro. It was one of the maxed out. It's max. That was the worst part of I times. Oh, it's it it was so fun. It was incredible, dude. I mean, that's part of what's maybe pushing us to be like, go to you. What can I do? I'm telling you, I've been daydreaming about sending them to Utah since she's been born. Dude, where I just it's in my head. I think it's the Ark typically represents best school, but then also one, it's in Austin and I'm like, that's so cool. And like, it's close, you know, like, I could be right there. I could go up to Austin for the weekend of Austin. Any weekend. My mom's out there. We have an awesome time out there. You know what I'm saying? Great time. And it's just we we got an experience, I think, like, there's, like, two sides of the coin. It's like, should you pay all out for the premium sec school? I know you, it used to be, but like, you know, the Alabama and LSU, Texas State competing at that level. Right. Or should you go to an awesome university that makes more sense for your budget? You know, they're both great choices. And we made a great choice to do the budget school that worked better for our situation. Yes. Perfect. I would love to be able to send her to the premier option and and let her enjoy that. I think it'd be so fucking cool, you know? Yeah, yeah, I guess that's why I be daydreaming about her playing like you to soccer and shit. Yeah, but they're was one of the coolest things about that experience. I'm just going to paint a picture. Why wasn't that an A-plus? Yeah, okay. It's the last birthday present. My. My birthday's been over for two weeks. Justin's been over for a week. It was our my college roommates actual birthday rap's birthday season. He's a diehard Ute fan. Said he'd been to 30 games. Right? We are stoked to have him. So the levels go like Justin's there with his aunt Luke is here through an invitation. Almost like a plus one because I introduce you to Luke, right? Yeah. And then we're best friends. So you give me a ticket to. And then Luke's, like, given us the tour we've never been knows about or history. He knows about everything, right? So deep in the lore, bro culture, going to games since he was one years old, he gets into it with bridge, talking about like the local legends of the UT campus and stuff like that. Who knows who about what. And Ricky Williams, he's bar for bar with her, just knows everything. You know. Yeah. And I'm like super fan. Thank you for this ticket. I don't know what's going on here, really. I fucking love Peyton Manning is my favorite player. It's so cool to see Arch Manning play. It's so cool, dude. I'm really thankful. But I'm not even like, this dude's like, look like deserved it almost. You know, I was like, damn, I'm so glad you're here. I feel kind of bad now, though. Like, I don't like because it could have been my wife. And my wife was like, she told me as soon as I was like, oh, bridge was mentioning tickets to the UTI game. And she was like, yeah, if you want to take somebody else, you know, like, I'm not going to really appreciate it that much. But if there's anything like you want to take, take one of the boys with you, you be fun. I was like directly to someone who would appreciate it a lot. Like the most. Yeah, like the 1.1. Yeah. Anyway, I was in immediate contact with. So Luke's pointing out the sheep and the slap. He's like, you got to come see this street takes us down. I don't know, it sounds like sixth Street, but I don't think it was sixth Street, but it's just literally like a head to foot. Luke called it a sea of orange. And then when we got there, I was like, oh my God. It's like the streets were packed with people I haven't seen. It was like Lion King, you know what I'm saying? Fucking oh, everyone's going out to see the the fried Rock. Yeah, I no, when they, when they're about to trample. Oh what are they going to kill us. Yeah. Oh that's a remind me I was like if this crowd took off, there'd be some fucking lion cubs looking for trees, bro. Oh, Christ. Yeah, man. Everyone just breaks down a dead sprint. Oh, God. Dude. Yeah, a lot of traveling. We start buying, like, 100,000 people. It's the car seats, Stadium seats, 100,000 people. So it's, there was a at least close to 80. 90,000. I would say 75,000 with ease. Oh, it was pretty fucking easy. Yeah, pretty fucking full. And it was not supposed to be, like, a good game or, you know, it's like a they're supposed to blow them out of the water. It was also an opportunity to probably get a lower priced ticket. So people were really just there to enjoy the ball game. Yeah. Luke's saw one of his old like students. And when we saw one of our old coworkers. Yeah, it's just a random whim dog. Just haven't got a gone to the ball game going to the game, you know what I'm saying? Oh, so cool dog. So cool bro. We start buying beers by the twos. Yeah, it looks like. Not like we need to do that, but, like, we'll get like 3 or 4. He's like, now we're getting six. Actually, I bet we're walking these legs. I will get a. It was so funny. Oh like he's like I'm not going to drink but I'm not going to not drink. So like we're going to drink with purpose here, but we're going to take we're going to take our shot. And I might not drink I don't know, I'm really like now these are for you guys. I need two more. I'm going. I bet we're going. We'll have the experience. So then we walk into the stadium. They had me there handing out ice cold washcloths, towels that you put around your neck. They know it's hot and shit and they know you're sitting in the sun. Perfect, bro. I didn't have a hat. I didn't have sunglasses. It was like an angel came by and kissed an angel's wing. Here you go, my friend. The one thing that you really needed was like, oh my goodness, thank you so much. Drenched in ice, buckets of cold water buckets, ice cold water. Luke's guiding us. Yeah, we're over here. Oh, okay. No, no. Where are we going? Which one's like, oh, that's really close, man. Row 11. We're down there. What? Down there? What is it? Luke has been to 30 plus games, so it's like he's never been that close to the field. Like, this is the closest I've ever been. Dude, I'm sitting there like, this is the closest you've ever been. And, like, I can't even, like, I don't even have your perspective. It kind of fucked me up. I was like, you've gone through so many. Not this experience. And now you're here having this, like, awesome moment and I'm just like, this is what? This is all I know. Yeah, things are different than this. Like, yeah, it felt super privileged. Yeah. Right. Yeah. So I was like, you know, just fill in that a little bit. So nice to have the wrestling, to have Leah to have Luke give us that vicarious experience like that is so beautiful. Then bridges husband Kyle comes by and is like, so here are some like on the field passes and we're able to like after the game, go on the field Luke. Do the can, do the song, do the song. After they win on the field. The field with the players fucking hard bro. That's pretty cool. Luke's like, I was at the game where Arch Manning got rolled off. I saw it happen. Yeah, yeah, for real. But as I turn it around, bro, come on now. Bless us. Oh, I want to go back to a game guys. Will. And when I see him next time I'm going to say arch. They wrote you off. Yeah I was there. You ain't right back. But you ain't my fans. Yeah. You have a Geno Smith moment dawg. Yeah I was there to see the velo. Yeah yeah I believe you turned around. You got greatness bro. Friend is in your veins for all I wanted to know. I'm sorry I look like amazing experience. We're down there. We're, like, right in front of the cannon. Every time that bitch goes off, boom, boom, boom, fucking ball shaking you, dude. Every time, every time that thing goes off, my my body lunges forward. Like, I'm like, the way I feel like I was ready to go back and get out of my seat and be agile, be ready to leave. At least I felt aggressive. I'm like, where do you leave me? Like, what's going on here? You know, like a big thump in the dark of the night. My brain definitely felt like it. More time, like 1800 Spanish cannon, war time. I think part of my spirit was like, okay, it's going off. I fucking know this virus. If. Do you know me? Fucking chest rattle, bro. Nothing to see. There's nothing you little kids out there having fun, bro? Dude, there was. We were literally sitting and right in front of us. We're like three girls, ages between, like 7 to 3. Like, how do you. Someone's 7 to 2, six, two. Yeah, yeah, the family dub. It's scared because we're just telling me like these are because he she's Steph as well as her husband Kyle. He's also Steph. And then they have these seats because of that. And then also surrounding them is like mostly Steph as well as their families and friends of Steph families. So it's like a little soft little section bro. They're home. That does section 34 cool so far dude. Yeah it was such a great pitch to work for university. I was like, these motherfuckers always making money. Like, damn it, this place is beautiful and you get so better a little football America. I love Texas, Texas specifically for broadcast. Yeah, I bleed orange that day. It was awesome. Crazy, crazy experience. And yeah, Luke was able to go on the field. So happy for him bro. And he was a you're not expecting that. That'll you know, it was just such a it was such a green either. I have no fucking idea what to. I literally just showed up. Dog totally just showed up to go from literally just showed up to superb experience. 99 out of 99, bro. Okay. That's that. When we were leaving I'm like, I won't I don't selfishly, but I'd like more of that. Like how do I is this the beginning of more of that? Can I just start like appreciating that and like inviting it into my life because it was fucking awesome dude story bro. So beautiful. So happy for Luke on his birth on his 30th birthday. Happy birthday bro. Like happy 30 and it's around out the whole birthday season. Your birthday and his birthday was two weeks. Exactly two weeks. Two weeks of just birthday energy bro. Now we're in this half point oh. It's a different bro. Yeah. Now that's partially also what maybe maybe made you feel some of that new book type energy. And we just moved into a new place. There's another thing we want to talk about fucking moving bro. Moving is always a bitch. Always, always, always a bitch. But this is like we're we're good. We're so good. It's so nice. We have till the end of the month to like it all the, all the shit out. But we got 90% of the shit already 95. And now we're just going to comb through whatever. Trash it though, or do what we got to do and then clean it up a little bit for the landlord. That's it. Chillin. And usually it's such a different experience and a different energy. Yeah. Do I have like pretty much every other time in my life I've done it's been a different energy. I'm willing to bet a lot of people, if they could list their top ten most stressful days. Truthfully and objectively. There's a moving day on there. Oh yeah, dude, getting out a hillside. My sister, like, moved out. I love you, Chris. I love you. I'm sorry. I'm putting our laundry out there. I got my sister. My sister, like, moved out, like 3 or 4 days before our move out day. Well, the thing was, is she was going to California over the move out weekend, so she was going to be gone when we had to turn in the keys. Oh, shit. Yes. So this is a premise for an episode of five of her little this. No, this is awful. Continue, please. So by the time she had packed up and left, I hadn't packed up that much. Maybe about maybe, like, working on my closet. You know what I'm saying? Okay, but then bro. But then bro, I do my whole room, then the living room. Right? It's like a lot of shit in there. Did the living room, the kitchen. Oh, bro. The kitchen. Yeah. Oh, man. First of all, having to watch show that just just felt that energy. Just felt it. You know, first of all, had to do all the dishes so that I could pack all the dishes. You know what I'm saying? Yep. So clean the kitchen spotless, which took forever. And I'm doing I start this like the night before. The day of the actual move out day is when I really start getting into like, okay, my room is pretty much good, what else do I well, so I got to do here what how how bad could it be? You know, like it's just dragging. Yeah. How could it possibly be like the belly fat in the kitchen, dude. But then pack up all the shit. The problem is, the pantry is thick as a bitch. Let's go. Oh, jeez. Take this bitch. Damn it! Pants. Just like old Bay, brown sugar, whole bunch of seasonings that you haven't touched in fucking 48 months. Lord above. Why do I still have this? Yeah, fucking get there. The cool thing about that was, is that, all the plates in here are from that apartment. Shout out, Grace. Shout out. I believe these couches. Shout out Grace, shout out. This entertainment center. Shout out Grace, shout out. The only problem was, is that I had to pack all that shit up. Like, did I ever. Did you come in, help me pack this shit up into a van right? I'm pretty sure. Yeah. Okay, so I think this was me prepping it to get to that place and just fucking. I'm about so cooked by the time it was, like, finally, like, you have the whole van packed up and you're going through the apartment, everything's pretty much done. Yeah. Like, let me sleep this room. Let me sleep, do this. Let me fucking clean this toilet real quick. And, I was just so fried by the end of it. Dude. Yeah. Move out there. Moving is always a bitch. And I've said this before, and I'll say it again until I die. Those are the homies. People who come and help you move. That's a homie. I was thinking about that. That's a home. Because you had friends. Tim and Nick came, came through and just took the work load on the body and brought his body to it. Bro. What's up? You never play defense. But fucking love y'all, bro. This is like, I don't yeah. It's because I know it's a it's a it's such a bitch. It's such a bitch. It's not that bad when it's not you. I know I was thinking about that too yesterday. I was like, why am I not like you? All ball put it on me, dawg. Like, I. I carry that so much easier when it's not. My shit was like, what the fuck? Where's that? I want that bag. Because when we move, sometimes it's like, get the fuck out of the way, bro. We're out here doing this. Yeah, so we're fucking hooping. Yeah, we do it. We do a really well call it you all ball like we turn. It's a competition. In a game we turn into a game. Yeah, but the problem is I didn't feel that either. When I was cleaning out hillside, when I was cleaning out Jonathan's apartment to help him move to Chicago, I helped him conquer that demon off the U-Haul ball. I own real estate in real estate, you're trying to take energy. You're trying to take some. You're trying to take some holy, holy points away from my dog. Because this demons big dog. Yeah, his demons huge. He's stressed out and they gotta make it fit in this truck. Like they have to make it fit. And they're like, all of a sudden it feels like they can't. It's like starting to be overwhelming. People are getting overwhelmed here. It's so nice to be able to help like work that out. You know, home that I got you I got you, I got you I'm one getting overwhelmed a hillside bro for real. It it happens bro happens. Especially because like I felt it yesterday or so. Like I was like, this isn't even like that bad. Like I was still feeling this fucking dragon, bro. I was like, I don't want to get this fucking long. The laundry machines. I don't want to get the fucking fridge. Like I have to get a that's some grown man shit you did though, I felt it. Yeah, that's some dad shit, dog. Yeah. That's big. That just move the fridge. That just moved it by himself. He did the fucking hard. That's precisely the shit, Steve, bro, you know what I'm saying? Yeah, that's crazy bro. Yeah. Get the appliance, Dolly. I was like, oh, they have a dolly. Like specifically for that. That helps. Thank. Yeah. Thank God you need that shit. I don't know, I guess I don't know if you need it, but it definitely gave me the confidence to be like, I got this shit bag. Just fucking strap the strap around it, tie it up. However you can get that shit tight. Just who did it? It it it does the damn thing. I already had a fucking this, like. All right, the stairs are going to be a little bit of a bitch, but here we go. Take that van and take that up the stairs. That would have been fucking lame. Fuck. I don't know if it would have fed dude, it was a dick. Well, they got the other one up there, though. That's the thing. Yeah, yeah. So I would have measured it to see. Yeah. Even. Yeah. I think that was one suggestion or one thought that I had had I. So even if we wanted to put our fridge in there, I'm not sure if it's big enough. I'd have to measure it because looking at that fridge, I think ours is a little bit wider. Okay. See, that's the thing I'm saying. Yeah, yeah, dude. No, you you did it. But yeah, shout out the homies that help shout out the fucking homies, bro. Anytime. Y'all need help, bro, I got you. And when I come, I'm bringing energy and tacos and fucking. Yeah. Some coffee. I'm sorry I did have that free run. I gotta get stuff right down by the fridge roof. Anybody a little bit some. You can't you. But it's so funny because that thing is so fucking real. Like, I literally felt it yesterday. I felt yeah, the whole energy behind because usually I guess the thing that the thing, the thing that's a bitch is the in and out day. It's like like you have to be out by a certain day and like, usually you can't. It sucks because you can't be in until a certain day either, you know, since you got to time that just right. And then I guess like we've, we got in like two weeks early as far as when we have to get out, out like we have until the end of October to get out. And then we have were we were in on the 15th of this month. So it's halfway through the month we got. So we're able to, you know, have some time. Yeah. To get to finish the exit. But sometimes you can't do that or whatever, whatever the limitations of life are whatever. You know what I'm saying? Like the house isn't ready or whatever, how it works. Typically it's like, oh, we gotta get out today. And then that, that is what makes the drag and fucking gigantic. Yes, you know what I'm saying? And even though, like, I don't want I had like a two week buffer on that, it was still there and I was like, what the fuck is this thing, bro? Fuck you moving Demon Lake. Yeah. What's going on with that? It's so stressful. Like, I gotta get all my shit and getting a move on my shit. You know, my time constraint. Yeah. What? What I would say. You boys are too broke. Well, you should be hiring movers. I mentioned this one. I was moving, all right. If I know when I hire the movers, that's when I've made it. That's when I got some fucking I think. I think that's a lot of I coworkers at work, another server. And she was like, fuck that. Like I pay the movers. Yeah, right. It's like, what, 3 or $400. Yeah. Right. That's like I don't hit the roach money. But for me right now fuck. Not doing very fine. Okay. Now that segue was probably telling you Luke Stad I don't think I can verify this, but from what I've gathered he doesn't coach anymore. But he opened it up and opened up his own moving business. Love it. Let's go. We gotta get some boys who are down to play some U-Haul ball. You teach me a whole ball. You said throw the truck. You say don't throw the combine. Okay, okay. You tightened up the skills that need to be tightened. You send them on the road, yo, you get those boys moving. Balls are efficient. Look at this. You're doing quick making. They're making like $78 an hour plus tips. Like I encourage them, take shirt off. Right there with you, dude. And I am cooking in any moment. No. But they. Yeah. You know, if the if you got two guys making in 20 bucks an hour and they both work for four hours and make 80 bucks each, so you make 160, but you charge 360 for the move, you know, $200. But the other thing is like if, well goes and helps move with like Luke and then he pays Luke, like, I'll pay 800 bucks for today and then they make like 360. He makes like 260. You do like, you know, do the math or whatever. And I don't know how much time the trucks you have to have, but he's making it work. You know what I'm saying? That's cool. Cool, right? Yeah, yeah. Cool business. So there you go again. Paying the movers, though. Paying the movers. The thought crossed our mind. That's across our mind. And then I was like, it is going to be like$400, $500, and we don't have that much. This dragon isn't that big. Is that is that justified in my mind? Yeah. No. Fuck that. I could take that dragging on. There might just be guy energy there. Hands. You take a fucking bus, you call I fucking, I can move this shit on the move with a call. Yeah. Like, oh, you get this fucking scrub moving my shit. Yeah. Right. Now imagine this to the petty part of my brains. Like if I break my TV while I'm moving, that's all me. I can still sleep at night. It's all me. If some possible. It breaks my TV while we're moving. Because I paid him money. Because I wouldn't do it myself if I was. Priceless. For a long time. I was sleeping that night. Oh. Yeah. Yeah. The thing is, they're super fit too. Especially if you're able bodied. Yeah, it's funny, because we're watching, Handmaid's Tale started watching that show. I guess it's a relatively older show on Netflix or Hulu. Original. Yeah, I think it relatively recently just finished. Oh, well, I think my mom had mentioned that it was good. So I was like, I know, I've heard, I've heard that, but I remember watching it a long, long, long time ago. But I don't really get into it. But, dystopian kind of society, totalitarianism, crazy fucking social order or social orders and rules that dictate this crazy dictatorship and shit. And one of the things that's, that shows there's a lot of talk about what was our. Part, The Handmaid's Tale because. So we were watching movers moving company movers. Oh yeah. Because in that show, it gets to the point, to about it. They take the they take the rights away from the women and then they're like mentioning, like one of the characters in the show is talking to like, the husband of another character who was like, like you're part of the fucking problem. More or less is like me. My wife is like, we need our men to take care of us. Like, what the fuck? Like, do you think me and my two girls could have, like, done all that shit? Are you fucking serious? Like, no. Like it's not like we could have moved here, right? Like, what are you talking about? Like, it's just. We're just different. We're just different, right? This make it better or worse? It's just like. Especially physically, like different. Like I said, it's just. It is what it is. You know, I'm saying. Yeah, I think Jordan Peterson's great explaining this, but he uses like the, like the bell curve distribution of like statistical analysis to like the standard deviations. It's like right in the middle of the bell curve. It's like most of the population. And then it's like 66% of the population is like 97%. And then like 99.7%, right. So it's like at the extremes in that 99 point set that, that 0.3%, that's where you find the what's kind of more, more or less going on there. So it's like at a physical strength distribution, like people who are stronger in their upper body. Like if you take a man, take a woman, the man's got to be stronger like 60% of the time. But like on the outer 0.3%, it's like the men dominate. There's no women. Zero. Right. You know, I'm saying the women don't enter the category until somewhere around here. You know what I'm saying? Yeah. If you take the top 3% strongest women, point 3%, point 3% and try to put them into the NBA, they would not be successful. No, that's the thing. Yeah. Let's and that is that is just different is what it is at the extremes. It's like I think I, I've loved that. I've heard him talk about many ideas in this way, like personality distributions and stuff and like openness and non confrontation and agreeableness. Like the women are out there in the 0.3 like way, like most agreeable people are all women and the least agreeable people are all men. You know the point. Threes. That's where like the the truth's, the objective kind of truth of reality may lie. And I've taken that and I've extrapolated that's like pretty much everything I think about. You know what I'm saying? Like is this true? And then I take it to the extreme and take it to the other extreme and then try to find out what makes sense. That's and what's more logical. But yeah, that's just like a little thing I remember mentioning. Yeah. The extremes. Sometimes the truth doesn't exist in the extreme, but it does help to realize what's going on, to look at it through that lens. Yeah, yeah. When something happens to run it through a filter of both extremes so you can be like, just make it more palatable to understand, like the meta thing that happened there, you know? Yeah. Yeah. I agree with you. They're just bananas. The movers moving sucks. Oh, yeah. About did that shit. Sorry. You talking about men did that shit, though? Yeah. Sad out to the homies, bro. I fucking love y'all some dope shit. If you got a friend, this is your son. And help him move. It's going to be some good karma. Something some good karma. You know, I think Tim was mentioning it because Tim is more of my wife's dear friend. They make a difference for a while, but we've met him as well. Whenever we all work, we all work together at the River Riverwalk. So, like, Tim's been in our story for a minute. As long as my wife, he knows me and like they're homies for a long time. Even before we met, Steelers fans just been working together for a minute. And then he dates Emily and like Emily and her, are really good friends as well. So it's just like a triad. And then Linda got introduced and like, it's all just so crazy. How did it's like the cast of scrubs, you know, after they left scrubs, they're like, that was some special shit, man. Like, I think that was that was weird. It's kind of crazy. Like, at that point in our life, whenever we transitioned out of, like, the full pursuit of the music, right? We need to do something. We need to support ourselves. We need to fucking make some money. We need to do this shit. We need to stay alive. We need to do what we gotta do. We gotta do, we gotta do. And this is part of it. And that was like just kind of how I felt the story. It was calling us forward. And then they called us to this place where I met my wife and then her friend that her friend, and then another friend. And then now that we're like, we're still in contact with them. They're like major, major side characters or like external extended family, more or less, you know? Yeah. In our story. Yeah. Super strange. But his homie came in helping us move and he was just talking to my wife about, I think I kind of overheard him saying that. I think he, with his uncle, some sort of debt to his uncle that he owed him. He was like, I'm not sure the financial depth of it or like if it was like just a favor he did for him. So he was going to do him a favor back or something. But he was indebted to his uncle and his uncle more or less was saying like, yeah, you ain't got to pay me back. Like, don't worry about it. Like instead of trying to pay me back, how would take that energy and like, pay it forward to somebody else, do something nice or somebody. I bet somebody he's like, I bet I got you. And then like two days later we see him or like, yeah, we're going to be moving on Monday tomorrow to actually he's like, oh shit. Like I'm free tomorrow. Like so help like yeah, that'll be fucking tight. And just like it's, you know, it's crazy. It's nice in an angel city angels where they just come and help you do stuff. Angels help in movement. Fight the dragon God move mountains, man. Well, we're working out today. Yeah, I feel mystical about my arrival into my day. Regardless, I will go put that fucking swag on. I'll drip it. All right? That's how you feel? Yeah, that's how I feel about avatar. That's why I go, like, I had a switch implanted in the side of my ribs, and we pulled to the gym. But rock in the same tank. The military camel tank. Military camel. Gymshark. Stringer I was like, it's fucking up, boy. It's fucking up. Like, that's MJ 38 I do. I woke up for some shit today boy filling in now then you're like, let's do pull ups. And I'm like, I got fucking pull ups, kick my ass, but let's do it. I'm just not going pull ups. I'm like some bitch, no body swings. Okay, we'll do a five sets. Yeah, yeah, I just switched it up. Actually. We do the facets as. I'ma be honest, 4 or 5. Pretty much the same struggle. Like much difference. But fuck it, I'll do a fifth. That's fine. We we we get through it, finish all the reps, perfect reps. Maybe not do all the reps. This lady walks up to us just like I just want to say I'm watching you and I was rooting for you. And I just thought you did a great job. She for. Yeah, sure. For you, dude. I was like, dude, I think that lady was an angel. Yeah. You know? Yeah. I was like, oh, I'm glad her I you know how we reciprocated it? We said something a lot like, I'm open for you to like, I'm glad you hear something like that. Whatever. Just fist bump to have a great workout. Yeah, she wasn't even asking for more. Which I thought was the even more impressive part. She wasn't like, now give me some conversation for my nice words. Yeah, yeah. No, she was like the take off. Yeah, yeah, that's fucking sick, bro. And it's not exactly like we're older folks who are struggling through a workout. You know, we looked competent. She just like she could shut up. She knew she was like, do the thing. You came here to do that and like get to that struggle point and then do a couple more. That's what you came here to do. You didn't come here to do X amount of reps. You know what I'm saying? You came here to get to have a feeling, get to a point of failure, regardless of whatever that is for you. And then do a little bit more. Yeah. Let's just watch this. Do that. Yeah. She's like, I'm gonna go do that too, you know? Yeah. That's worthwhile. They did it. Good job guys. No. Oh sweet lady. That's like never happened to me in the gym ever. The hell where grandma walks up to me and says, you're doing such a good job, honey, I was rooting for you. That was a good, good goal. Good. Good exercise. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. You finish squatting a grandma. Except not squats today, babe. Well that's fine. Yeah. Not never happens rolling for zoom, but class of whatever that was so that was so chill brother. So cool. Did we experience the same fucking thing when we were moving? We pulled up and we were pulled up out of the U-Haul. Yes. And then we're just pulls of the U-Haul and then a car pulls in. There's we're while we were unloading the U-Haul for the first, like, big trip, the biggest, most heaviest dragging. So I had to get all the big shit into the truck and then had to move the big shit like couches, beds, appliances. Those are the big, big four, but they're big three. Whatever. Move them all over. Then we're getting them into the house is like the end of the mission. We're doing this shit. So I was like the hardest part relative of the journey, you know? And then within that part, there's like at least 3 or 4 cars. I just, like pull up on us. And then like, the house we moved to is like a super small little side street. We're kind of like, tucked away. So it's not like a busy street, you know, there's only like three, like six, eight houses on this entire street, you know? So it's not supposed to be super busy, but like, for instance, there's of cars just pulling up on us. One of them just, I think, I can't remember if the guy was the first one that pulled up on us. Yeah, the first one that pulls up on us, lady, I don't even know. Kind of car she was driving, you know, it was nice, right? It was like a, a charger, I'm pretty sure. Okay. Yeah, I was a charger, and then I don't even know what she's doing, bro. I can't even tell you. It's hard to even tell the story. It's so random. Still sounds like a dream. I had. Would pull stuff out of the van, and then she pulls up in this, like, dark purple maroon charger. And then she gets she, like, gets out of the car, and then she's wearing this exact shirt. She's wearing this exact same shirt. I thought for sure we had this smoke on us. I thought, for sure we're about to catch the smoke from this lady, bro. Yeah. She's like, get the fuck out the way for sure that the fuck out the way, because we take it like, as I mentioned, it's a small little street with only a couple of houses on it, so it's not super, super wide. It's only like a two lane, two and a half lane of, you know, space. You can fit three in a U-Haul, like a 20ft U-Haul. Yeah, with all the biggest shit from the dragon that we have to slay right here. Yeah. And then she pulls up on us. I'm like, oh, fuck. Like, I'm pushing it through. Like in my mind, you know, saying, like, if we just could do it. And then she gets out of the car and it's like, doesn't even like this opens a door like stance and then is wearing the same exact shirt and more or less is like, because I was wearing this, I have two of these shirts. This one is a nicer one, the more recent one. And then I have another one that I got in 2023 at the church. We're talking about that at the beginning civic level of death. And then I had we went through a baptism and then after the baptism they give you a dry shirt after you go through the water and your wet clothes and they change you. And then this was the shirt that they handed out that year in 2023. Since then they do baptisms every month and then they change up the shirt. You know, over time. So she gets out of the car, she's wearing this shirt. I'm wearing my other one of my moving shirt. You know, it's a little dirtier. I like I will be right in the shirt. I'm always rep. I'm trying to always rep dog. It's partly inspiration for the tattoo. We'll talk about that later. But I'm always I'll be rapping, I'm rapping. And then she pulls up and she's like, yo, I got baptized CBCs as well. Like God bless. Like I'm 2023 cats in my life. Like we got one day right over here on the south side. She can say the south side, but I'm sure what she was implying, you know, there's a CBC in in our local San Antonio area or San Antonio is kind of geographically or like the layout of our city is like one big circle for like the largest highway loop and then a smaller circle. It's like a bull's eye, you know? So yeah. And then she, like our main church, is on the top part of the bullseye or top part of the outer ring. And then downtown is the innermost part of the bullseye. And then we live on the south side of the downtown and they open it up another CC on our south side of our town, under the bullseye. So it's like, okay, they're spreading out. They're going to do a East one and a West one and one even more north of the of the board. So they go way outside of the top of San Antonio. It's like super far from downtown. There's not on the North side campus, but they're spreading around. And then yeah, she's talking about God bless them. I love CBC Southside whatever. And that was it really. Right. What else did she say? It was like she she came up and gave you a pass. She was like, oh no, you good. That's my homeboy. You're good. We're good. I see you backed up. I'm going to work right now. Yeah. They told her friend to get in the car and then the other person just, like, drove through and just drove by. And then they switch seats, and then the guy hopped in the car, and then they just dipped. Yeah, someone honked and she's like, oh, yeah, that's my homie. Yeah, he was me or something. Yeah, it was weird. Like, what's the. Yeah. They backed down and took off. Yeah. No I don't know what. I don't know what they were going to do. You know what I'm saying. I don't know what to I don't, I don't know what to think of what to say. What's going on. It was just like a hey, hey, what's going on, man? What's up? That's. What. Have you done some good shit. Good shit. Good shit. Let's go. So praise God, praise God. You know that lady in the gym this morning? What's. What was it? Awesome. Oh, it was awesome. We're in there 10 a.m. doing ten some back and some pull on some show. So she's probably the ship I suck up so hard. If I don't love to do that, they're in here and they're matching shirts. Yeah. And doing their damn exercise, doing pull ups and workout partners. She's like, I want to go up and be like those 30 year old. Yeah, yeah. She was I just came up, juiced this up, gave us that. Give us. Yeah. We were matching. We were literally wearing matching. Yet so kind of get some she might want. Yeah, yeah, yeah, I appreciate it. I didn't even think of it like that or like I, I saw you were in the same shirt, and I was like, yeah, this is tight. Yeah, me. Like, I forgot about it. So the rest of the workout from perception of another person. Yeah. Someone watching these two guys literally wear the same fucking shirt. It's like, oh, fucking. But just serve in the fucking anal unit together bro bro. Yeah. You know. Yeah that's it. This. But yeah to see that from one person just wrong with it. It it bothered me with it. Brazen her to come and say what's up to say what's up and carry some of that energy into her own day, into her own workout. She was like literally about to go and push it. After she said that, she was like walking into the door, like the classes were exchanging. At that point, it's like, all right, we're over. Oh, I come, we're coming in. Yeah. There's like perfect transition, perfect timing. Yeah. And seen this. Yeah. It's been like this since I fucking woke up the other day, bro. I feel myself on a different cadence. Two, two, five, six. Fucking new song going on here. Five, six. What the fuck are we going I don't know, yes. Well yes, bro. Is that not to talk about that is. Yeah. I was just thinking about that. Right now man. Fucking always wanted to be repping. And I remember feeling this and your birthday at Schlitterbahn because I'm always wearing like a CBK shirt, typically more, more often than not. And then I have the chain and. Yeah. And then sometimes I don't have either of those things like I should have, but I'm not going to wear them my chain, I'm not going to have a CVC shirt on. So yeah, I'm in this and this. I don't know where it came from or why, but it's the feeling of like, I don't like that. Yeah. No, you know, I felt it before like, what is that like that's why I like to have the smaller chain and the bigger chain because there's never takes my chain off. But it's a it's like you feel naked. Almost, almost. Yeah, yeah. And also it's like I have this feeling where it's like I'm not up for grabs, like, almost like a person who is happily married wearing their wedding ring. They don't have their wedding ring on. Yes. And they're just like, I'm not single, bro. Like, yeah. Oh yeah. That's all I'll say is facts, facts, facts. Part of the identity. Right? Part of my identity. And I want people. But also just like I want the rocks to know. Look at me. Yeah. I'm not available. You know what I'm saying? That guy supports Jesus. Yeah, yeah. Say so. With that being said, there was this tattoo we've seen. Shout out Ink Master, the show I've watched for a long fucking time. Great show. Competition show. Tattoo artists competing. I'm trying to be the best. Amazing. Highly recommend it. And then that got me into the idea of just like, tattoos and like, I've always thought they were cool, you know, like, especially like the artistic ones, the ones that are like art, you know, like doing it at that high of a level, it becomes fucking different. It's like people have, you know, whatever connotation you can have about tattoos, tramp stamps or whatever. So, you know, say there's a classy way to do it, but maybe not. But you do what you do, maybe do what you do, Playboy, whatever you want to do. But it's, definitely at least like art on your body. It's like a drawing, bro. Like one of the guys we work with. I seen a guy with the five tramp stamp. I don't think so. Maybe you don't think you ten. I don't think you can, man. Sorry, guys. I don't think you can, though. Just beautiful art. Like, you see a beautiful sculpture or a painting or whatever. It's like it moves you. And then like the same thing on tattoos. It's just the same artistic expression idea. But they're a different medium, of course, as all the mediums are available to whoever's called to do whatever. Yeah, but great show on that show. Saw a tattoo by Tommy Montoya. Some more to. Yeah. Something fun to you. Just. You just stole that? I mean, just some shots out over to you, dog, because I literally was talking to Victoria about it, and I was like, yeah, this is it's crazy. The. Oh, I guess I was telling her about the reference picture. I was sending the guy and I was yeah, I sent him the reference picture from Tony Montana, and I was like, tell me one toy I that's funny, but tell me about it. All right. There was yeah. The he did a tattoo on the show. He was a guest judge. And then he also competed against the people. And like, he was kind of like the you know. All right, let's see, like, put it up side by side. We have the same amount of time, same type of subject matter. It was Christ tattoos. And they're all different doing different depictions of Christ. And then he's like a he's a professional. And that the challenge for that particular week was black and gray realism. And then so they all had to compete in that medium and the same subject matter with the same artistic style and subject matter were the same. And they're going head to head with someone who's a fucking master of black and gray. And then his tattoo at that particular challenge was like something I saw, and I was like, yo, I would like that. That shit's scarce. If I had that on me, I would be like, that's gas. And I saw that episode like six years ago. Seven years, like a long time ago, bro. Long time, long time. And then now just finally was like, okay, like, let's do it. Go for it. So cool goal for big black Jesus. Peace, bro. No debates, no hard. I want it, I want you. Maybe the subconscious can see the outside looking in all the time and I'm like, I need the other side to know I need the other side to know. Something tells me I need the outside to know. That's hard. Not sure where that's coming from. So yeah, I guess like the I love the analogy you're talking about wedding ring not wearing your band. Oh yeah. Yeah, I'm saying like that shit's. It's part of your identity, you know what I'm saying? Yeah. It's crazy, I honestly. So those identity is what's getting us through. Because it's what projects our future. I think it's what we use to predict our own future. You know, how do you keep doing hard things every day? Like, for me personally, part of the answer is just like, it's like I rhythmically do it because it's my identity is to get up and fight this fight every day. This is the person I believe who I am. I am the person who does the hard thing. Yeah, I'm not consciously choosing like every single day. Like taking the full weight of doing the hard thing. It's just like, almost like a byproduct of just like, wake up and do life, wake up and do life. Like keep the stress down, knock things out as early as fast as you can, stay on the ball, crush. You know, it's like, that's for other for other people. So I try to go to the gym for the first time. It's like it's really difficult going on your first run. Second run. It's like, oh my God, it's such a chore. But like I think identity helps with that. Once you are a runner going on the run doesn't feel like this big fucking chore. You're just practicing identity. You're just being yourself. You're being yourself. Yes. You're being what you're you know what I'm saying. That's labor free. That's tax free. That's not energy going into the downfall of things. Yeah. And it's like, we don't have the ability to just we have free will, but we don't have the free will enough to just change that like that. You know what I'm saying? It's hard, man. How does identity even develop? Yeah, there's the watching the story of who you think you are and what other people have told you about who you are and what you've experienced. But, oh, I think this is it's all taking place in your mind too. But of course, the fucking external, external sources are. Trying to take you or trying to influence you? Yes. Either way, the what I'm going to do for good, you know, we're trying to like we're trying to raise our kids, you know, it's like I'm trying to, like, manipulate you and brainwash you into success and like to prosperous abundance. Right? Because there's a right way and there's a wrong way, or there's a a path that leads to destruction and a path that leads to like, peace and glory. And maybe glory is a separate thing, but you have peace throughout whatever you're whatever you're going through this job, bro. It's like you can't have the it's not going to be sunshine and rainbows all the time. Never, never, never, never. You can't expect that. And you have to be able to navigate the best you can to try to summon the best garden, the most beautiful garden you could possibly create. And it's still going to be worked. Attend to it, but you have to fall in love with the work of tending to your garden. I'm trying to. We're trying to raise our kids to do that. And that's like beyond beyond fucking information, beyond, I don't know, I think I think that's like the highest what we're trying to do here. And then there's an opposite, an equal end of that. And this is a struggle for manipulation. And it's ultimately it's comes down to information. And like the empowerment of that information into somebody to make them agree with it. And then if you can get them to agree with whatever information you're trying to push on them, then you can have them self-generated, self perpetuate, self create in whatever direction you're sending them on. And when everyone knows that, everyone knows that, everyone knows that, and there's a fucking, there's something going on here, bro. There's something going on here because we're trying to raise like we're all trying to raise people. What are you aiming at? And part of what your aim. And that's your belief of like you're aiming at the right thing is my identity. This is what we believe is what I'm about, and I'm about the right things. I'm not a bad person. I want good for people. And I know what that is. So listen to me. It's like, well, you get that from where are you getting that from? Where do you determine you are the one who knows what's good for people? I don't know anything. People. I will be the first person to tell you I don't exist. Cos I'm a ghost. I'm an alien, a ghost and a flesh body, you know? Say the controllers in here talk. I'm just a little alien to me. You talk like fucking men in black talk when she was a fucking little guy in my little suit right here is playing Justin like that. This isn't real, bro. Like I get information from the source. Like I'm tapping into what the creative and generative power of reality itself. Whatever made this, I'm with that. I talk to that thing. I only allow that thing to try to. Only I do my best to only allow that thing to infiltrate my information and my changing my behavior, you know, and changing my changing your belief will change your behavior, you know? Yeah. From bottle rumble to yes, belief can change behavior on a level that does require energy, exertion. Truly believe something. It's not like you're having to break all these chains. I truly believe I am someone who goes to the gym 4 to 5 times a week every week. Right? You know, it's like so easy to believe that, right? Like my actions help verify that and validate that. It's like it's just evidence and it's like, so it's I don't even have to like question that. No. And like, that's someone you want to be, you know, saying like what? What are some characteristics and traits that I want to express in exhibit. Like I want to be the person that does this. I want to be the person that does this. And then it's also just like gravity, like I'm gravitated to go there. Like my schedule is like predicated on that. Like my body is like, we need to do that. If I don't do that, then I'm like, I need to go finish that before I can go to sleep. Like, it's crazy, bro. It's not this chore of going to work out. Yeah, it's different. It's different. Sending it was just like being competent on some level. It's like becoming identity. So it's just like even when I'm not thinking, be competent. My baseline is like perfect, like a professional answer, you know, smoothness. Like just being able to if I'm getting thrown a curve ball, I can catch it, throw it back and forth, throw it back. It's like, it's not like, oh my God. It threw a curveball at me, you know what I'm saying? Yeah, yeah. It's like it's becoming identity. It's like, yeah, trying to truly believe that. And then what's the you can't fake it till you make it. Exactly. But you had to try to embody the energy of doing the thing, becoming, believing that you're the person who could do the thing and then watch yourself and try to do it and continually work towards doing that. Yeah, forever. There's a fucking butter that that should happen where it's like, you believe you're you're fighting the curve of fake it till you make it in the imposter syndrome, hoping to be great at what you do. And then you get great and greater and greater at what you do. And then the rate at which you feel less like an imposter and, what you have true competence are coming together to form true confidence. Yeah. That's fucking butter, dude. Right? Oh, yeah. That's a graph. And you should know when you're in that zone if you're being honest about what's going on. Objective reality. Yes. If you're paying attention to like who's good, what's good, your own performance. Are you doing good. Are you like climbing the ladder of what is to be known around you? Are you like taking it all in and grinding towards what is the ideal behavior set that would make like a good athlete, or a good server, or good concrete worker or whatever? Are you doing all the things and then are you getting better at it? And then are you getting nasty when you look around like, is it all kind of coming together? And if you're not on that spectrum or getting there, then I think you're being dishonest with what's happening around you or with yourself. It's pretty fucking clear cut, you know what I'm saying? But yeah in that, in that place that's what I'm saying. Like it's then like doing those reps so many times it's like you see. And Rodgers isn't nervous when he goes out to like snap the football to like he's like all right all right everybody whatever. So like he's in a different place than like JJ McCarthy. He looks a little wide eyed like different mature competent skill set. Great expectations. Yeah. And we're getting on the scary side of repetitions. Starting to feel like Aaron Rodgers late Packers career. Just like 2010 2011. Just ball park Rodgers bro. But this you throw that up bro. Throw it. But anyways that's the something that's happening at work right now. And it just freaked me out because I'm like whatever we do for the next ten years we're going to get to this place with that thing. In ten years I'm going to be like, the butter is fucking buttery. Yeah. Buttery. Buttery. I can't believe it is butter that spreadable, bro. That's that butter spreads, bro. That's a room temperature stays. Room temperature. Just spread it. We're going to be insane at it. It takes time to do that, you know. So it's also exactly though like choose wisely bro. Like we just got to make sure we're dialed in for the next nine years because we're going to be so filthy. If we podcast for nine years straight, we'll sit down anywhere in podcast probably. Yes, all the time. We podcast all day long, bro. It's it's funny though because it is different when you turn the cameras on, you know, to like. An objectively it is different. Like we were just having a great podcast earlier. Part of why we've been doing this is because we just have conversations like the one we had in your car on the way up to the Utah football game, to have the best guy we've ever had together was like A99 overall. But that was like Jay-Z, Kanye Day, bro. Yeah, and it was like a bad Ute game like that. They played terribly like they got the W, but they should have blown him out by 40 and they didn't win by 40. They won by like 17. It was just like oh. The narrative of the game was Utah underperformed. Yes. That is the general consensus that writing off Arch Manning shouted about it earlier. But you never know. You never know. It's too early in the season to be doing all that kind of shit. There was a not a great performance. Everyone I tell the stories to like, they won like 27, oh 629 and 627 to 10 I seven. They won by 17 points. People are upset. Yes. And we could we could just. Okay, just pray to my city tonight because we haven't we fucking won 917 I was like, I know I can't explain it dude. It's a culture thing. Yeah. It's like if you follow the law enough, you'll be disappointed. Like, I don't know enough either. Some like, hey dub, let's go dubs up because I didn't play that. That's all right. At least the quarterback is mad. He only won by 17. I'm like he was I swear to God. Yeah. Like so was everyone in the stands. Yeah. They booed the man. Yeah that's the thing. They booed him. That was tough I do I didn't like that. I didn't like that. They booed the offense on the home team like, oh, that's rough. I didn't like it. But there was something honest about it. It's truthful. It's very truthful. Tell you that we don't like their shit though. Not okay. No. Yeah. Bad. Yeah. Bad boy. Well, we tried to tell you it's bad boy. Yeah. That's all we did a couple times. I don't know if the metaphor is righteous in the sense where he's our puppy, but that's exactly what we did. The game, which is exactly what we did. How to express your disinterest. We shame them for peeing in the house. Yeah, we've been on the carpet. Shit the bed. Come on, man, knuckle stuff. Shit in the. Been on fourth down, please. And this is the bed. This. You shouldn't even be sitting in this bed. It's a small bed, bro. Like it's tiny. Yeah, it's exactly how was defined. The defined somehow, somehow find a way to sit on it. But, I mean, there are some podcasts on the way up to the game. Yeah, just the ability to do that, bro. So, like, continuous he's doing that. But there is I say that not to say that like, I don't know, I feel like whenever we were talking with Tyler before we started the pod, we were a little more free and we got there, you know, so we got there. It was fine. But like whenever the cameras start the initial, like I'm jumping into the water, we're swimming now, we're swimming now, guys. We're not just like, because you're standing, you have to say hello to everybody that's standing. You got a picture question. You got to get a conversation going. What's going on? Yeah, I was going to jump into some shit. Yeah. It's different than normal. Like how guys normally just conversation cast. Conversation spell with people. Yeah, it's regular talking but there's something there switches on that an objective for the observer or, you know, observer observed phenomenon. You know, metaphysics and I shit, I'm super into like mental state. I really like, like, I don't know, man. Just, just trying to be able to channel energy, harbor energy, pray. Well, shit like this, whatever. So for my mind, whenever the cameras come on, like to be able to not be mentally knowing that I'm like, rolling right now. It's like I do it with ease, but I'm also like pride myself in that. I'm like, that's kind of what I'm trying to do here with my mind, is to be able to be at work and go through a whole 60s spiel without tripping on the fact that, public speaking. Yeah, you know what I'm saying? Yeah. Like I got to be able to do that because it's part of our job to to to like, be able to do this, to fill the field. Yeah. Sometimes. Or let them. We have to guide the experience and we do that with our, our fucking. We're doing. Yeah. With our vocals. Yeah. What started that's what the game is. And like hopefully my teammates back me up with some good food and drinks. Yeah right. Because I have not I got I still got to handle that shit too. Yeah. Fuck yeah. But yeah, one of the questions I ask you in the car that started a podcast was, do you, do you, do you know what you're saying before you start saying it? And you're like, sometimes, but I know what you're talking about. Yeah, I've about it too. Yeah. Sometimes I got one step and I know like the first couple words I'm going to say or like maybe an idea that popped in my mind the other day or something and I'm like, oh, okay, let me I'll sort of jump on to that and see where that takes me. Yeah. That's what I was talking about with Michael Scott by train. He's just so Pat bro. Like, it's so just like another clip, another shot. Put it back in particular back in reload completed. Like saying we to doing that at a high level level. And you're doing it well and you're aiming at the utmost high. Like sometimes you're just channeled by you've become the vessel for the spirit of truth. Sometimes, you know, people who freestyle rap know what I'm talking about. Yeah. Like sometimes you're not in conscious, complete control of what the next that's going to be or where the next that's going to come from, or what the words are going to be that come out with that thought or before that thought or after that thought. Yeah, but it's like something that can inhibit or and in which I say that hands you or enhance you, but, like infiltrate you and like, protrude out. It's just like the spirit of truth can kind of just, you know, do that sometimes. Yeah. I think that's kind of what happens with that conversation if you're doing it at that level. Yeah. So yeah, freestyle rappers I'm, I'm talking about. But the, the conversations when the fucking the parties it's just another we're doing it now. We're doing the podcast continually habitually. We've been doing it for a minute. Like it's whenever we're having regular conversation. I'm like, this is a podcast too. You know, like talking about my aunt or whatever. You're talking with Luke, like, yeah, us all talking together like it's just the podcast. Yeah. Talking about redirecting and like, of course correcting our children's, like what? Our role as a parent. Yeah. You know, trying to brainwash them a little bit, trying to make sure they don't have to be course corrected by something else other than you. You know, it's like, if I feel like I have to course correct you sometimes if you're not doing the right. Yeah. And you want to intercede as a parent when you hopefully do it. Preceding with parenting. Yeah. Prevent some of the horrible things that can happen from happening. Yeah, yeah. Set them on a good path over the path is yeah. Ultimately God's got control will hopefully we know that. It's hard to know it all the time. Part of what the Bible is talking talking about often like podcast approach talking absolutely absolutely love it. Just let the spirit just you know Celeste let it is each one individual perfect life happens. One thing is when we're in the zone talking about when the spirit comes in, I just let little things shift me. Little thoughts, little like, what if you did this instead of that? What if you just just off of that, just off of that. Like these little things, like little synapses that take me off of the deviated path of normalcy, put me into these, like, those things head a lot, dude. And I'm just like, I don't know if that's my microprocessors saying analytic, say left, left, right. B I like the guy inside of me is like, do to say it this way. Instead. And then we insert the dialog differently and I get positive net result. That wouldn't have happened if I didn't make this the shift. I don't know if that's God like course correcting me through the night, but it's like a flow state thing, dude. And there's like little synapses or like little voices that come in synapses. Suggestions? Yeah, it's like a feeling of like, this is my work. And then I feel that synapse of like, offer to do this, this and this, and then I'm like, and then sometimes I'll just if you think too long in the moment passes and you can't just like hit that note. But there's times where you can jump on it and you just like catch this and say, okay, like you're in a state of being. I'm doing my task and I'm willing to accept the influence and then like, catch that ball and juggle it into what I'm doing to. It's all just like, go and the same thing. It's the same thing with jokes. It's the same thing with like, if I'm feeling and someone interrupts me and now I have to like, do the thing, it's always like a little like, say this, go for it. Like just whatever, you know, like make the make the audible call the Omaha. Yeah. And I should just be hitting so many times. Hey, bro. It's crazy. I'm like, what is that? I don't know what that is, bro. Something tells you. Something tells you to say something about something or to say that, like, I was like when, as I was saying, Tommy Montoya, like Tony Montana. It's like, what's in that? Like, you know, meant something. Just just go for it. I don't know what that is, bro, but I just feel like doing it. Yeah. That's it. Or like asking the right couple to the right anniversary, like the right table. It just like, normally I ask, how did you two meet? Be like, what do you do for work, sir? I don't know why, but see these little things like this dialog instead. And then I say this, say this, and that unfolds in this like way that I'm like, that was a way better question. I don't know what told me to ask it that way, but that was fine. It's you got to stay receptive to that thing while I'm on my like, DDR dance of the restaurant, you know? Yeah, but but that's. I'm telling you from the place of, like, doing it so long that the competence level was, like, blowing my mind, like, at this level, that that thing is so apparent to me that you get these little bursts of inspiration and influence. Sometimes they're like intrusive thoughts or like you're like, hold on, I can't. I'm like, I'm locked in. I can't freestyle right now. I have to recite the Pledge of Allegiance. Yeah. So you can't just throw in a bar, but like, I'm telling you, like, that's that's where the magic set. That's what I'm recommending a drink. I have a recommend all night to this lady. She's like, I love those. I'm like, I don't know what that is like in the vein. It's like, that shit's crazy to me, bro. Yeah. Have to have the routine to have the discernment to recognize the spirit that is leading you off of the routine into a better, you know, saying into a better spot. Yeah. To be able to do that thing to this way, say like that, like, oh yeah, that's a testament to that, that having that flexibility to being able to do that, it's super valuable. Crazy should be happen in there. Yeah. Because what do we know I don't know shit. We don't know anything. I'm praying for guidance. And I get little synapses I feel like guidance. You know what I'm saying. Right. Got to follow them. That's crazy. Especially if it leads to what I interpret as a positive experience. And that's objectively true. Right. You know what I'm saying for everyone around me. And like Luke had a great like that was a great experience. You know saying like I can't no one can take that away from him bro. He had a fucking great time on the fields. Like I never been this close, never been on this field like there's been no like, haha. Like fucking loving it bro. Like 99 day bro 99 can't you can't you can't top it. Worst past that it's over. But dude yeah another crazy scenario I wanted to mention before we try to wrap it up here a little bit was fucking Charles Kirk. The day I decide to get this tattoo, I was talking to you guys about this Tommy Montoya. Jesus, crucifixion piece on my back. I mentioned that I had seen it many years ago on this show. Ink master sold so long ago on that show. The day I decided I'd wanted it. Since then, some years. It's been years and a day I decide to, like, finally go do it. It's just literally hours later, Charlie Kirk gets shot and then minutes later he's dead. It's like, oh my God, dude, what is going on here? What a crazy thing. And one thing that I saw video I don't know, but Alex Jones posted about, you know, there's this book out there by this author that's not really well known. And this book that this author had written was talking about the assassination of Charlie Kirk and the like reaction and the coming togetherness and the what's going on, like the reactionary kind of social aspects of it. And that book was published and on the Amazon Web site on September 9th, which is Tuesday, and he was shot September 10th, which is Wednesday, and they republished it and read it and changed it on the Amazon website to say that it was out on the 11th. And Alex Jones has like some sort of approving of this showing of this. So just a really strange extra added element into what's already kind of a crazy tragic event. I don't know what to believe. I think we've alluded to it before. Something's going on here. There's some forces here. We're trying to aim at the upper ups and someone maybe trying to aim at the down downs, you know what I'm saying? I don't know, King knows that there's a war going on. As long as Great King was shut up I don't know why there's a war going on. If I were to get the dub I don't know what you're fighting over. What are we talking about here. It's the control of the belief systems and trying to create reality of doubt. You know? I don't even know what you're doing, bro. Yeah, I don't get it. I don't get it. January. Hell on earth. But what is that? What's a using using life to enslave people here on Earth? But to what end? You're going to die, you know, say, like you're going to die. They don't know you. If you spent your whole life at the top ruling in hell like you're. You get 100 years at most and you're dead. And then what? You hope your children continue on, and your reign of terror and fucking be even worse and worse and worse and do more damage and more damage and more harm. They don't think about that. That's what you like. That's what are we talking about? Martyrs and Jamaican countries. That's what we're talking about. Fucking. Yeah. It's dark and they're going to push these motherfuckers. They don't think it's just. Yeah, it's it's the full on highest pursuit, deepest love of the flesh and everything that flesh has to offer from fucking. I don't know the truth of this scene it on some YouTube shit, but the adrenaline from, you know, adrenaline is like its own thing. I'm not sure the scientific validity of this. I could be off the fucking charts here, but I don't know. I think people are out there pursuing. I think the truth, even if it's not real, this adrenaline stuff. And let's say you have, let's say in hypothetical land, a drone, a comb is a chemical that is released from young children only, and we stop producing at a certain point. So it's an X expressed only in young children and only excreted whenever they are experiencing like adrenaline, but like fear attached with adrenaline. So it's like trying to harness the energy excreted during like torture more or less, and being able to harness that and inject it or ingest it or come into communication, whatever with it. And having that experience of feeling that thing be whatever fleshly good feeling you could possibly produce from, like, that's like the most of it, you know, trying to push whatever, even if it's not true metaphorically, that's a thing. Trying to pursue that flesh at the deepest level. And maybe that's just all it is, and it's just because, yeah, you're not thinking about your kids. You're not thinking about people after you. You're not saying you're not thinking about anything else out of yourself. You're trying to pursue what feels good right now to you right now. And then once you run out of ways to do that through your own means, and you have to, like, start inflicting pain on others or have to fuck, I had to harness harder and harder drugs or substances that make you feel this fleshly satiation high. You know what I'm saying? I think you're describing right now. Like a Wall Street broker, anyone you know, anyone who's pursuing the flesh. And then I guess the people who are pursuing the flesh at the highest level just have the most money, right, of people who do pursue the flesh at that level. Right? You know, some people don't have the money to do what the fuck these people are doing, but they're still fucking looking at this crazy fucking porn, looking at crazy shit on the dark web, or trying to engage in this dark web bullshit or fucking evil, you know, saying, yeah, that that shit exists at all. Yeah, yeah. Try to think of the original step because there's rich people that are just rich people. Fix a plan. Every one of them. Yeah. Hell yeah. Hell yeah. Yeah. And there's also like, people that are maliciously rich, you know what I'm saying? On the upper end of the spectrum of manipulating money and currency and life itself to make more money in currency. Yeah. To feed the flesh, to live my demons. That's what we're talking about. What's going on here? Well, like, this might be a dark thing pulling on here. Some people who are pursuing that. But yeah, we're we're kind of expounding upon like, why are you pursuing that even in this realm? Like, what are you doing? Like, why would you do that here? Right. You know, why would the demons even go out of their way to try to enslave the humans? Why are they trying to create hell on Earth? Like, how does that benefit? You know, I don't know what it. I think maybe it's like Jesus is definitely going to come back. And the only way that the devil can really hurt God or Jesus on some emotional level, is to take as many human souls down to hell as they possibly can, which is happens through despair and compromising of ideals from desperation, fear, fear. Anxiety. Exactly. Hatred. Exactly that propagate all of this, all of this compromise of our integrity and stuff, you know. Yeah, maybe the that maybe in the principalities and the heavenly force are in the heavenly realm. That's just the fight that they're trying to take. And he's trying to take more souls. He's just trying to take more souls. Yeah. Just seriously evil. Constantly trying to win the game would take more souls. His time is coming to an end, and he just wants to take as many of God's people down as he can with them. Yeah. So you want to condemn my behavior? Well, then you have to condemn all of these people. And he's like, I do, I do, but Jesus is coming back to save us. So, I don't know that that's one, one hypothetical and we're talking about here. Right. But us a strange time fucking come on platform. I'll talk about them or demonetized as fuck, but yeah. Good, good, good chili dog stand for something. He's talking about Charlie Kirk, bro. So you are you, sir. What are you thoroughly convinced at this point? What? What does that convince you of? What does the look of how convincing is the Alex Smith footage? And what is it convincing you of? I am not convinced. Mostly. Definitely not. I still lean towards. I don't know what's happening. Maybe it was just because one fact he's dead. Fact he's dead. Somebody shot him. In fact, somebody shot him. He's dead. Okay, from there, I'm not sure. Maybe. Okay. Okay, good. Yes, maybe. Elvis still alive. Question mark. Okay. Hitler. Did he make it out? Navy, maybe. Navy and Argentina, I don't know, I think there's some guesses. Maybe there's some some takes here where they take, like Tupac in there or someone who's super ahead of their time or somebody who's fucking. We can't lose him yet. And we got to cryovac freeze you and get you ready for the war in the future or some shit. Or like, people make more money after they die. Tupac. Once out of the game, these record deals are fucked up here. Go recoup on my death. I'm fucking going to fucking Paraguay. See you later, bro. I don't think there's a country. Paraguay. Paraguay for sure. Uruguay's one. Two. Yeah. Fuck was one to go over to Uruguay, bro? Yeah. I'm chilling. It's a move, you know. It's a move. You can make $2 million last 30 or 40 years if you're smart. Oh, yeah. For sure. For sure. He be chilling. So people. Matter of fact, they're on death. But I don't think Charlie Kirk did. Yeah, I don't think so. So we'll start with he died on it. Yeah, I guess that's true. Yeah. We could be okay. Like. Yes, I love it. I'm willing to accept it with you there. He died. Okay, okay. There we go. From there. Who killed him and why that is where we go from there. That's all I know. So he said. And maybe somebody killed him. What's from there? Who knows? Who knows? There's, I guess, this hypothetical, this Alex Jones footage is suggesting that it was known that he was going to be shot before he was shot, meaning it was a premeditated attack, and that this person who wrote the book released the book. Whoever wrote, you know, released and wrote this book, whatever IP address posted this thing on September 9th, that IP address had inside information, knowing that he was going to be shot before he was shot. We want to know what that guy we tap into that IP address. And what do you know? You know what I'm saying? Who sent this? From where? At what time? Or you know what? What's, if we follow that rabbit, if we start pulling on that third, what's going to happen? I don't know, I don't know, and I'm not suggesting anything. I have no idea. I don't even exist. I don't even exist. And I don't care about any of it. But I am a human in my human. I am saddened to my core. I've been feeling a welling up of the Holy Spirit like never before. This Saturday, with the 98 experience testifying literally crying. Testify described. This is real shit. This is like it's just a never before, bro. It's like such a different what the US final recognition all of like, I need to have this Jesus tattoo on my back. I don't know where this is coming from. I don't know why it's coming up. The timing of it's not a coincidence. I don't believe in that. This is all culminating to this force, Frank. Death of Charlie. Charlie Kirk fucking all these other deaths too. And like more Christianity is coming to, like, more of a light enlightenment revelation. The social consciousness is like guys heightening itself to better and better awareness and more and more awareness and more and more of a desire for truth. And like true justice, you know, or true the truth. Life, true life. You know, people are so cheap or like, not cheap. People are so fake and the facades are so cheap. You know, it's like we all have that affiliation towards politics, sadly. You know, like we know that to be true. Like everyone is a common agreeance. Like this is a kind of an act that's going on here. Maybe not everyone takes a while to understand. They may not everyone. I don't understand it. To last 2 or 3 years. I didn't understand it until a couple days ago. You know, saying, yeah, I didn't that understood until last week. But there's levels and nuances and layers. It's not left right. It's that blue red. It's that damn Republican. It's up, down. It's what do you want? Like a like true heaven. Like a heaven on earth where everyone tells the truth. Then you take everyone at their word. Or a political system where we, 90% of the people have go into politics thinking or watching politics, observing a consuming it, thinking that they're bullshitting me, where they trying to say, what are they trying to pitch, what's going on here? And we're getting there wasn't like that. It wasn't like that for the last 60 years, 70 years. And like now it's no question really like that. And like what the. That's that's not good. That's not good, man I agree with you. That's not good. So I don't know what's going on, but give my life to Christ completely. It's like rededicated more or less like I'm fucking. I feel the exclamation point on what you just said was that you and your temple have felt a welling of the Holy Spirit on a level at which it's hard for you to comprehend or or explain to yourself. Since the day Charlie Kirk was going to die, since the morning of this movie that's been going on, the Christian music you've been listening to since that album came out all the time. Just listen to Christian music now as it. What are we talking about? You know what I'm saying? It's like there's something else going on here. That's what we're trying to do. You know, it's like I thought about this metaphor, like beautiful or like it presented itself to me just in our life story. And then we are moving. I think it was yesterday, or maybe the day before, whenever we were moving and the gates were open to the to our house or whatever, so we can go directly into the garage, into the backyard. Gates were wide open. We let Cosmo out the back door, go and run and do his thing, and then we go out the front door and then he's like, still waiting at the back door. Like the back door is like up some stairs and like, you can, like, go down the stairs and like, walk around like right outside of the fence, but like, the fence is right here and it's just wide open. And he's just he went down. He like, you know, he did his thing, went around and checked out the backyard. But he was just waiting at the door for me. You know, we were like, right. He could see us. He could easily just run around. But he doesn't want to leave the fence. There's no reason to. It's wide up like it's just he feels so much more comfortable and safe and better. Like in our area, in our. What we have, like a commonly agreed upon, is our domain. This is our guard. When we go outside of these gates, you are with me because he's been he's like escaped a couple times. You know what I'm saying? Just gone out and run. Run down the street. But we've like, I don't know this. There's a certain relationship that's developing or that does develop with an animal like that and your dog, and you can communicate with them, and you do love them and they love you so much, and you love them so much, no matter what they do, even when they're being a little shit and fucking up your shit, and you got to discipline them like they still love you so much after that. And like, there's this bond there and I could just feel that and translate that to like, I don't like choosing to listen to Christian music. I don't want to listen to anything else. You know, I'm saying there's nothing else I would rather be doing, you know, than going to church like like nothing else I'd rather be doing. Yeah. And like, I'm able to take that and, like, try to. It's how I feel. Duty game. Like there's nothing else I'd rather be doing. I felt within me whenever we were walking up to the game or to to go find our seats, go to the Sea of Orange. I felt the feeling of like, this is like early, like as soon as we get with Luke and then we take a couple, like we start walking more or less within the first minute or so of us walking, I felt an energy come within me to be like, let's go, let's go, let's go, let's go, let's get to the stuff. Let's get to the stuff. Let's get to the stuff. And then immediately I was met with like a reciprocal thought of like, this is the stuff. This is the stuff. I don't go out there looking for the good time with Luke at the youth game. Like, this is the good time with Luke at the youth game right now. Like, don't do anything. And I was like, oh, okay. Yeah you're right. Yeah. Just talking. I'm going out there to hang out with Luke right here. Like we're just let's just talk like this. Yeah. There's nothing out there that's out there for me. Just drinking in the street. Just enjoy right now. Enjoy where you're at. You're good. Yeah. This is this is heaven. Like you, we have access to it. Through Jesus Christ and the Holy Spirit. We have access to this level of, like, crying in the gym, crying at a youth game, crying at a church service. And you can't control it. I can't stop, I have to stop it. That's the only way I can control it. I can't put it back. It's a flood. It's an overwhelming over washing, overflowing emotional state. I can't stop it. All I can do is try to hold it back. Yeah. If I if I didn't, if I wasn't holding it back, I would just be sobbing on the church floor bro. Yeah. Heavy sobbing. Yeah. And the only reason I don't do that because there's social ramifications. Yeah I remember losing those social ramifications on this on this mega multi vitamins. And I was just like oh I don't care. I was going to cry. And Matt's car right now in the passenger seat in the parking lot of his apartment. How do I get that I don't care, it's so beautiful out here, man. It was was just the most impact like that. It's a I'm making fun of it, you know. Same with like that emotional like, you know, say for real. And you can't stop it. So. So you be feeling like, what is that? Where's that coming from? Oh yeah bro, you know what I'm saying. Yeah I don't, I don't know what that is due to. I can't tell you the upper limits of sanctification. Trying to tell you heaven on earth. I'm not sure a movement. What's his name? Basis. I can see there's something going on here, but I keep. I'm hearing you say that a pastor. Did he say that? Exactly. Like, I don't know what we're trying to put a finger on that something that's going on here. And then you're telling me that's your life experience right now. I don't know man I don't know what it is. There's a movement. There's a movement with Charlie Kirk as a revival. My first thoughts were I don't know what to think. Okay. I have no thoughts. My first what? My first words were like, fuck, that's a that's pretty much my wife. What do you say? My wife was super sad and and my mom was super saddened. And I was like, fuck. I wasn't like, sad. I wasn't like, angry. I wasn't yeah, I don't really know what to think. Trying to try and process it. See, it was a tragedy. People were sad I wasn't sad. Yeah. I was like curious. I'm like, what? What what does this mean? What does this mean? What is going on here? Yeah, yeah. You know, oh obviously I'm sad, but the tragedy, the curious is, was driving me more than the emotional sadness was. Yeah. And I still don't know what it means. Jordan Peterson hasn't said a lot about it, pastor, but I was I wanted to say something about it. Right now, pastor Ed hasn't. I mean, he he talked about it a little bit, for sure. Yeah, he condemned the behavior. He said he also said we also be condemning the behavior. So it kind of condemned the people not condemning the behavior. And then said he also said that he needs time to process his thoughts. It's hard to find out what things mean and what it the right thing to say is, you know, but ultimately there's one table and even the shooter gets to sit at that table. Yes. If you choose to. That is what he said. And then whenever he had the demonstration at the table, I just like had the visualization of like Mason and Nazi, anyone just sitting in that seat in the Jesus right across from you, being that you would just break down every doesn't matter who you are, bro, you would break down, but you got to choose to sit there knowing that that's what's gonna happen to you. And then you would want to change. That's what happens. It's I don't know, just like seeing the visualization on the stage. But it was a lot. It was heavy. Was like, even the shooter gets to sit here. I'm just like, oh, you're fucking right, man. Of course, man, I'm praying for Robinson family man. Yeah. Now that was for whatever's going on. Who knows? Who knows the truth of anything but continue. Thomas thoughts in his thoughts. Still looking for people? I think people don't know what to say. I think one thing, one thing is that if. Here's what I can say for sure, definitely partakes right here. Three of them, okay. One, if he if that's a random act of violence, right. Hypothetically, he's not targeted. Random act of violence more or less was like that. That annoying motherfucker. I'm going to kill him. Because I'm fucking you know, losing, losing my mind. Whatever comes to the mind of a mass shooter, you know. Yeah. Off the rails type shit off the rails kind of person and off the rails person takes out a public figure fucking. And I hate what he talks about here. What he stands for. Fuck that guy. That's a that's a that's a pointless. That's some pointless shit that's so pointless as shit. Like respectfully with the Christian heart. Like you're a stupid motherfucker, bro. That's a sentence like, take that guy out is crazy. But then that really motivates me to say, I don't think it was so much senseless. On some level. I think they killed him because of what he was saying. That's a jump. You mean the shooter? Yes. Killed him because of his message that if he had a different message maybe he wouldn't have been shot for it. Okay. Yeah I think that that's, that's the narrative that's a commonly set the narrative I think so okay. So we're not making a big leap there okay. So then this guy for what for what he was saying got shot and what he did incredibly well was know the word and know how to integrate the word into what he knew about the world politically and how to stand on the word. He did that so well that they killed him for it. Okay, that's heavy shit. That's heavy shit. Because he he could do it so well, like we needed him. We fucking needed him in this culture, in this environment, in this world. And personally, in my opinion. Buckets. We need that guy. He's buckets. He's buckets. So the only takeaway I have right now is like, let that plant the tree in you to read the Bible. We all need to know the word that, well, the word some more. We need to know the word that, well you can never know it enough. And he just got shot for knowing it so well, integrating so well into his life. But I'm telling you, that's what we need to do too. Yeah. They can't just take out our titans and then we lose the war because we don't have any real soldiers. Nah. Fuck that. Fuck that. We're like, we got to know the word well enough to be able to stand on it legitimately and tell a group of people like, no, that's not you can't stand on that. That's not this is why we stand on this because of this right here. That's powerful. Yes. So, so that's how I feel about it. Everything else is going to end up getting washed out with the news anyways man I'm not even going be talking on my story here in the next week or two. That's what I'm saying bro. We'll see. I don't know, I think there might be a revival happening, but I think that was absolutely beautiful. That was well said as well put together. And I fucking love that guy. So it's a tragedy regardless. Two fatherless kids and a wife. Well that sucks. It just sucks. You know, I'm saying it's terrible regardless. Regardless of whatever you think about anything, that's just what's going on. It's like she's like, they're living in that reality right now. Their family like fuck like this. Come on, man, that sucks. If you anything else besides like that sucks is like, who gets it's her who gets to determine where that line is. As far as the empathy. We can give it towards somebody when we can celebrate bad things happening to someone. That's like Hitler. It's like yeah probably kill that guy. I've wanted to take us there and I held back. But I'm saying the other side of the table Hitler dies and his wife's widowed with their kids. What do you feel bad about that. How bad do you feel? It's like no, we probably on some level, people celebrate that shit. Yeah. So it's like there's some people that have that level of attached meaning to this guy dying right here. And I'm like, your wires are fucking cross, bro. Like, yeah, I think if you are able to because the people like Hitler is the is the one, he's the go to. He's the goat. He's the go. He's the worst goat of all time. He's the worst person ever. He's the bail. You know, he's the word. He's the fast guy. Whatever. He's like the fucking Lucifer, let's say. And then let's say we just like in a put him like, take that and then throw it on things like a paint, you know what I'm saying is painted enough to where we look at it and people think that it is that thing. It's like you can't see it. That's bullshit. Like you can't see this paint or like you can't like, that's not real. That's not true. The problem with the propaganda is that when it is the setting, it has like a power to it. It's like, yeah, we know it's not true, but we still have to like look at it being presented as true so much that on a subconscious level, it supplants truth itself. On some level, it's what we expect to see when we look at anything, right? Right. Because it's I personally, my personality types, I'm able to see the propaganda and the bullshit and be able to, like, immediately tie it to that and then understand it. Living in politics is bullshit. Like, I understand that's what it is conceptually. So when I see the bullshit, I conceptually understand it. But for other people that in these settings, it's like it's just hard to fight it off every day. You know, it starts brainwashing people. Yeah, yeah, man. I think we need to be careful. We need to read more about the Bible, need to pray more. And I think we're heading in that direction. And I'm super grateful to be part of it. Living in the best time. Best time in history and the best place and the best country and the best state in the best country. In the best fucking universe, bro of all time. Right. All right. Here we're number one, bro. Hook them dog. Okay, 99 days, bro, is what I'm praying for. I pray for everyone to have some 99 level days. Just the best that you could possibly imagine. It's out of your hands. Level of amazing. I couldn't have no dude. It's too much. It's too much to handle. I pray you get overwhelmed with the Holy Spirit. He intercedes in the way that only he can intercede into your life. Whatever miracle you need to see to believe in Jesus or believe in God like I pray you get that and I know you're going to get that. It's going to be awesome. And that's just what's going to happen, bro. It's just going to be your testimony going forward. The day you were asking God, open openly do this thing for me, please, and I'll believe in you if you need that and do that and it's going to happen for you. This is me putting that in your life right now. Right now, whoever you need to call you, whoever you need to reconcile with, whoever you need to forgive, whatever you need to see, whatever breakthrough you need financially, it's going to happen. And whenever you think of me, you think of Jesus and you say, thank you, Jesus. And that's it. And with that America, I hope you have a great day. Let's go. I hope you get to work on time. Hope doesn't feel like a rush of what feels like a joy. Yeah. Yes. I'm so, like, surprises.