Memory HACKS | Kanye GOAT Talk, Memory & Court-side Conflict | The MJ38 Show #91

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Matthew and Justin talk about Kanye Being “The Goat”, Tricks to Help Memory & Getting Punched in the Face

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Welcome in, ladies and gentlemen. Episode 91 MJ 38 show. Coming to you live San Antonio, Texas. Matthew, Justin, we're here for you. Let's have a day. I'm not sure how your day is going. Let's make it better. Regardless, just better to smell better. Yes, I agree. I accept that. I appreciate it. Let's just keep getting better. Let's make our better. Even better. Sometimes a better is a down spike. Yeah. And then make your best even better. Tim Duncan. Okay. Come on. He's got the quote. Okay. Yes. Timmy de San Antonio legend. We'd love him to make your good better. Till you're better is your best man there. That's it. Something like that. No tragedy today. Okay, I said, dialed in. Okay. Let's go. If you know the quote, comment under the YouTube. There we go. Yeah, give it to us. The full quote. Regardless, the energies are there. Let's make the better, best, okay. The better. Better. We're having a good one. Life just. Life's getting better, better, better. Oh. Yes, man. Been, been doing some good. Sheesh. Over here. Life's been rockin. We, I feel like I've been hitting the gas because, my wife was out of town. She went to, like, a little work trip over the last week, and then she came back on Saturday, sort of cleaning, and then got the house nice and clean, and then went to work and then came home. And then yesterday we, went shopping or we went to church, like back into the regular Sunday routine, but it was like a Super Soaker Sunday of shit, let's go to church and then going to Costco, going to be and then, we do it. There's something else in the mix, I guess. Just making dinner. Yeah, preparing, making dinner, eating and then having to put together a fucking dresser for the little one, you know? Good, like 2.5 hours long, at least. Where'd you get it from? It was on, pretty sure. Yeah, it was on. Do a good 2.5 hours. Easy. Probably. Probably closer to three. Just just taking forever, bro. There was, like a billion pieces. It looked like at first I was like, oh, God. Oh, this is going to be awful to take forever. And then I need a beer. I got a big guy. We had some wine with dinner because we had some pasta. We had a bottle of red wine. And then her sister came over. I am back in town a little Sunday night dinner was hanging out because I, Gabby couldn't hang out with us either because she had to work on Saturday as well. So she came back into town, the wife on Saturday. And then I had to work. She had to work. And then our daughter went to one of her friend's birthday. So she was like, just like, oh, I'm bad. What are you at? So on the Sunday we were chilling, had a little bottle of wine, and then I was like, I ain't tackled this dresser. I need some alcohol and I need a beer dick. Specially because if the red wine is fading while the work running up, it's like, no burning my back to I knew, yeah, I need to be on a steady climb. I need to be on a steady creep at least. Yeah for sure it's way better. I don't need a shot or anything. I just need a little. Just a little. Because, yeah, I knew we put together ours. We had to. We have two different. Like, it was like a three by three and then one that was a five stack tall. And then that was those were ours. And we had done those. The first one took probably 3 or 4, three, three and a half second one took like an hour and 45. Learning curve is real. When you do the first one, the second one's better. Nice, nice. But yeah, I did the first one again on this one was I was like, I think at least two, maybe three hours. Fuck yeah. That's about it. I need a beer. Okay. Sounds like a positive feedback loop of getting shit done. Getting shit done. It's a good Sunday, getting shit done and then fell asleep within me watching TV and like, pass the phone. Did that, passed out, woke up, went on the run. A little run this morning at Eisenhower, a good little couple miles and then coming here and doing this. Now we're here. It's fucking moving like a like you came in on ten. It's like, hey, what's up bro? I was like, you know, he's turned he's tired. We you know, no. It's just momentum of yesterday. It's a fucking game. I go to work like that sometimes. Any track. Yeah. So you have a workout? Yeah. So it doesn't fit. There's like, hey let's go. We're going to. What do they guys get in your bunkers? I got your back. You got my back. There's no team like us. You feel me hard. Everybody in here is good. It's just the momentum. You know what I'm saying? Yeah, yeah, the momentum of your day. I feel better. Get the U-Haul subs I work, I'm just like. Like I was praying. I was just like. Should we arrive successful from the battlefield? Just like I forget, people don't conceptualize things the way I conceptualize them. You know, like, take us there. That's like we like to go there. It's because sports is a battlefield and a restaurant is sports. But I went straight from restaurant to battlefield without good integrator. But anyways, like they know. They know what it is. I had referred to it as that before. Whenever like, one of our coworkers was like in training and then getting out of training going, and I think it was her first time serving even or like maybe at the high of a level for sure. But I was like, oh, like, you're going to be in the trenches with us because you need to be a host, you know, from being a host, dealing at the front door, welcoming guests, reservations on the phone to like being in the service, running the show like the face of the restaurant, for the restaurant to the table. And like having this dish that's different. Like you can come to the trenches. This is where the work happens. This is where the training, you know and you don't know shit about the weeds. Yeah, we dress pretty bad, bro, man. You know what kills me? Anybody watching from blueprint? I'm sorry. Not sorry. Okay. Our hostesses will want to give us a table while I'm fucking doing something. Yes, and I get it. You're you're trying to do your job, but, like, they're like. Trying to hand me the chair. They're like, this guy's not looking at me. I'm like, amid cocktail spiel, you're gonna have to fucking wait, okay? And then they're like, And nine times out of ten, nine times out of ten, I'm trying to round third so I can get home to where you're going. Go ahead. Continue. Go Vegas like it? So then then like, I'll have shit on my hands and I'm just like, yeah, I can't, I'm busy. I need you to. I need you to hold on a second. And then they're like, well, I'll just set it down right here. And then I'm like, okay. And then I look up at the fucking host and and there's nobody there. There's nobody there. I'm like, what's your fucking hurry for? Why? Why work with me? You know what I'm saying? Like, I thought that was the home you were driving to. That the sense of urgency is unjustified. It's like you just don't. You just want to complete your queue, like, use a lot different queue. Okay, like I respectfully, I get it, but like, damn, lady, I think it piggybacks on yours because it's like nine times out of ten the shit doesn't have anything on it of any import at all. Like, anyway, all it has is their last name sometimes, you know what I'm saying? Like, sometimes it'll have, like if it's like a big party or something specific, like, like a Evian allergy, you should be able to figure that out yourself. But on the information or reservation, like where they make the reservation, it's like not going to say anything too crazy unless it's like a birthday, like we have a cake, we're celebrating some special, or there's some backstory and usually it's nothing, anything to to I'm looking for. Have they've been here before and I'm looking for is there a noted celebration that's like the only things I'm looking for? Unless it says, like, my wife has severe anxiety. Please don't look her in the eyes. That's useful information. Yeah, yeah, yeah, something like that too. Yeah, but usually the nine times I don't have a business quiet, quiet meal, quiet dinner or whatever. So I change my approach. Yeah. I'm try to be a little bit less, you know. Hello. How are you doing to the less integrated into their experience. Hello? Hey, guys. I pull up a chair. Yeah, yeah. You finish it. Yeah. Exactly. No. Yeah. So that's one thing that I get really grinds my gears. I love Peter Griffin. Yeah, but, right on him, but on, you know, a much different story because I'm like your trenches in our trench. That's the other thing is there's not a lot of, like, appreciation for in our trenches. And the kitchen trench. It's different. It's different for sure. I feel like the service in the kitchen, our yin and yang, it's like, I need to appreciate the fact that you are dialed and a lot of shit's going on and you got like tons of things happening all at once. And then I need you to appreciate that I am going to take all of your shit. You're not going to receive any consequence for the things that you fuck up. I'm going to receive all of them. So if I fucking need something or you forgot something, or even if I forgot something, I need you to fucking care. I need some urgency. I need, I don't need like, attitude. Get in line. I got a thing full of tickets. What did you do, Ronnie? Here's your spoon. You know, respectfully. Respectfully. Yeah. Because you don't receive any of the content. You're going to clock out. You. No one's going to say shit to you. I'm walking back out there and I'm going to take all of the energy, all the negative that just happened is going on on my plate, and I'm going to get paid to do that. Yeah, that's what we get paid to do 100% to deal with the negative. It's like, so could you just give me the fucking source that you forgot and not question me on whether or not I bring it in? You know, you bring it in. Yeah. What's the whole ticket? It was. It was. Do you want to find the ticket? Well, let me look at the fucking ticket. Does it matter? Shut the fuck does it matter at all? Respectfully. Because it doesn't matter at all. No, no. Whether I forgot it, whether you forgot it or whether they forgot it, someone forgot it. So they need it now, or I wouldn't fucking be here. Believe me, I wouldn't be. This is like, forget to be like, oh, can you? I meant to, you know, I meant to add a source. Yeah. Can you give me that source? Yeah. Of course. Yeah. Right away. But that source, you bring it in. Oh, okay. Whose fault is this fault? Is this? Who's this? Full stop, the show. Where does the blame go? Right. Stop! Oh my God, just so I can. No one gives a shit. Just make it happen. It takes seconds. It takes seconds. You know what I'm saying? Yeah, yeah. There's definitely different levels of severity of problems and fuck ups. And I do my part for the most part. I do my part for the kitchen. It's very specific. Yeah, I do it exactly like I take the time to say, actually, let me backspace that it's not specific enough. They're going to have questions. Let me type it exactly in a way that a kindergarten would know what the fuck I'm saying. How could I possibly misinterpret this exactly? If you play that game? Yeah for sure. Shout out the industry folks. Love the industry folks. Love you guys. I love you guys. I got chewed up by the kitchen because I didn't separate my tickets. The other day. The manager told me to stop spreading my tickets. The day before that. Shout out industry folks, this is the game we play. This is the game we play. These are the games we play. And who gets yelled at your boy both times? It's fine. Forget about it, I got you. We'll take it on the chin. We'll take it on the chin. I got the crimson again. Good luck to you. Well, we got into talking about the restaurant because we got into talking about carrying momentum because we got we started talking about coming in hot. Busy day, busy weekend. Hey, good job on getting dressed or not. Yeah, that's that's great bro. At the end of the day, that's, the role of that is to alleviate concern and to fix things that are broken. Yes. That's like two major concerns surrounding bugs. Oh, yeah. Oh that's that all day dead things. Yeah. Bugs. Yes. Rodents. Yeah. Totally nasty shit. Remember? Actual shit. Oh, my dad told me that one day. He's like, women don't want men to fix things. They want men to listen, but families want dads to fix everything. Yeah, and if you're going to be a man in a relationship and a dad for a family, you got to find a way to hold both things at the same time, okay? I was like, damn, that is true. Oh, fuck. That's some good shit. Yeah. So what are the two things he's holding in that scenario one more time? Women want you to listen. Not listening. Yeah, yeah. Listen. That fix that problem got you sincerity, genuine. Authentic connection. Yes. Empathy. Empathy. Care already? Yeah. Keep pulling them. Gentlemen, this is a word. Simple. Yeah. You got it. Chivalry. Civil. Righty I don't know. Yeah. And then so you had to listen to not fix. Got it. But then the families. Dad, please fix this. You need to fix. Need to fix this. Something's not working. Something's. How many times you. Just like I have a problem. Yeah. The windows broken. The foundation of the house is. But my controller doesn't work. Yeah. Computer slow. Like even just like, logistical problems. I don't know how I'm going to get the practice lawns growing. Yeah. This like the he was like. And and you didn't have that in your house. So your mom did both thing. So shout out the moms doing both things and shout out shiny specifically because that's a hell of a moms shout out to the moms, single moms, single mothers know that. Got my heart. That's Kanye J okay, excellent segue. I'm happy to get into that in a second. Okay. Stay tuned. But, yeah. So both things that you're holding is like, dad, dad, role responsibility is fix problems. Hopefully you fix them before people even conceptualize that they exist. And then as a partner and a male partner, I know relationships like listen, don't fix fixed on fix, fix, don't fix. And so, it can be difficult sometimes you're fixing a woman's problems and you're listening to your children's problems. It's like that's opposite. That's a tough task. So if this guy is hard to do, the things I like that that's also. Yeah, totally. If your dad out there. Hold it down, hold it down I'm Dad and ended up babies doing great building dressers and shit. Yeah, a little baby deal. She's doing amazing latest line along, bro. Flying along. She was born like on episode 60 or something. Crazy 61. And we're like 30, 30 weeks later. She's nine months. Yeah, she's doing amazing. The latest progress report, she's super mobile, doesn't want to sit still, wants to crawl, explore, loves to use her body, wants to climb on everything she can open everything. She can pull everything out. She's super happy she's doing that. So I try to let her do that. But then she's burning so many calories now because, well, she does a tiny baby and she's moving all the time. So I have to, like, feed her high protein diet, make food for, like, real food. So that's cool. I feel like a real dad when I'm, like, making a baby play. That's that shit, bro. Yeah, it feels good. That's high level. That's. Yeah, I like it. She's good. She's eating like an athlete already. It's way different being like the that first those first chapters that first year, that first two years there's going to it's a lot different than year 12. You're 13 I'm so sure I don't want it to someone even year seven who knows and just wanted to stop growing be this forever, you know, be my little nugget. Yeah, man. It's crazy. They're going to be. But time waits for no man, no man. And so she will continue to grow. Yeah. Onward and upward. Hopefully in the right direction, God willing. Yeah. She seems she seems like she's doing great. Yes. So happy. Yeah. So we were talking about a Segway. Dude, I just Kanye West thing is, I think he's the goat. Okay? You think he's the girl? You had mentioned this in a podcast previous. He's on your Mount Rushmore. I was hesitant, I'm like, I was like, flirting with the idea. Yeah, we'd been on a couple dates. Okay, dude. And then you come back and now it's official. Yeah. Yeah. Okay. What happened? I put on the This is Kanye West playlist in the middle of a workout. It's in Spotify. Yeah, because a lot of, like, I have several playlists that I've curated, but they're old and I'll come back to them and they're still good. It's annoying to have to make a new playlist every couple six months or so. I was like, I don't know if I can do this because I go through all the shit again. I used to go to the Forever Bro. It takes time. It legitimately takes time. It's a task. It's a chore. It takes sometimes hours. It's like stashes, like our wedding playlist. Literally took hours. Yeah, like a day. That's different because it's like a lot of songs. Yeah. Totally. Still like. Oh, and you're curating the vibe for like, hundreds of people's 50s of people. Whatever. But the work I play is like 20 songs for you. You probably know five already. Then you gotta do a little dig dipping. But the deep digging. But I'm with you, I like the other one, I like, I like you're right. It's a fucking chore. It's a, it's a task. I used to take a six pack to the pool, lay down summer, open up the playlist, start it. Make the playlist. Yeah. Add some cool songs. Usually I get inspired. There's, like. Sometimes there's a moment where you get inspiration, where it's like a run of a couple songs in a row and you're like, I need to. I need to make a new playlist. I need to create a new a new space for this thing, this new energy. This is different. This is, what did I miss was almost the spiking point for a new playlist. Oh, okay. What did I miss? That's what it is. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, but that's not that great. It's just not that great. What did I miss? I like the breakdown on the beat changes. About halfway through I heard it, like, once. Maybe it's not that great. Whatever I spent coming out soon should be great. Yeah. New album, but I. So a lot of times I'll go into the gym and if my playlists are kind of stalling out, I'll just be like, play, this is Drake on Spotify and I'll listen to that curated playlist by Spotify. Got you. And then I'm working out and it's just like not doing it for me, you know? It's like not doing it for me. Yeah. Nokia hit because I put it down for a month or two. Came back to it. Six out. They believe me six in the club illegally. I could change your life so easily. I want you to stay, but you leave me. Leave me. Whatever. I got the bars mixed up. But you get to do that. That was what got me through the work. That was the DDT, King DDT. I just like crushing the bench doing that. It was great. But then it wasn't enough and I was really tired. And so my brain was just like thinking about the last podcast and I'm like, play that. This is Kanye West playlist, okay? Banger after banger after banger after banger. Dude. Undeniable bangers, bro. Have any intro you think? I mean dude there was six songs that were here within the first ten and I was. I mean, it starts flashing lights. Okay, you're good to rock. Got some paper hit three features in a row. The I think I've had enough, I don't know, the Rihanna, the, the five more or some, but iPhone four, five, six seconds to a while and I got three needs to play that Friday. Yes. Crushed put on for my city with Young Jeezy. I'll put I'll pull it off when I'm in and anything in a panel in it though. Forgot he was even on that song. Yeah. Me too. Right. So you just mentioned, right? Yeah. Lifetime banger bangers. And then the other feature that was out of this. Oh, American Boy, I don't even know. Yeah, but it's just such a fucking iconic song. It is an iconic song. You know what I'm saying? And I was just like, this guy just makes fucking hit after hit after hit. And then, yeah, he's got his own discography, obviously that. And then I was in there and listen to this shit and I'm like, Kanye West is my go and Drake is my number two. I'll fucking say it. The two most controversial people in the world, I'll fucking say Kanye's my number one, Drake's my number two. And if Drake would have made Jesus Walks, he'd probably be my number one. But he did it. So it's Kanye West. Let's go. I don't know, say, that's crazy. I love that call what you want, I love that. Put that on, put it on, call it a I'll play the This is Kanye West playlist on Spotify while you're on a run, and then come and argue with me. He's got some bangers. Fucking amazing. What was the other song you had mentioned? That Ghost Town was a hit on a run? Was the other song you mentioned the other day I was trying to mention to Gabby. It's just talking about songs that are good for when you're going on a run. And I was like, Ghost Town at night, and I know that that's just like, I could just feel that I don't want Kanye West song or just any song. I forget, I don't know, I think it was it was something you had mentioned specifically. It was after. It was right after you had mentioned, Ghost Town and it was like a couple days ago, but I can't remember what it was. I don't know if it was a gospel song. I don't think it's got my back. I think that was a the deadlift day. So I think the total for that when you went on the run. Yeah, yeah, I felt I felt it in my mind. It was like a little blip, but then it went away. Yeah. I try to remember something. It's like if I get to that memory. Yeah. Do you remember you're like in that memory again? You're like, oh yeah, yeah, yeah yeah yeah. But until then you're on the outside looking in. Yeah I 100%. Then memories just like Ghost Town. Oh, the only thing that might help me is if it was on my cardio playlist. But man. But making a playlist is a whole daunting task. What was I want playlists about? I just want to talk about Kanye West. Oh yes, this is his Kanye curated list. Take that to the bank. It's the, ghost. Family feud is amazing. Yes. Yes, bro. Oh, let it all work out. Oh, yeah. That was even on the playlist. I just got back in the memory. There it is. Yeah, I remember now, too. We were in the server line. Yeah, I remember it's a strange if we don't have access. And then you say a word with your voice and then I'm like, there again. I'm like, oh yeah, I can like jump right back into that. Yeah. It's like I was standing in the server line. I was about to head out the door, and I remember so crazy. Yeah. Right in that weird. Is it on my day? Did I read that wrong? Oh, no. Famous is on this playlist, which is a song I like a lot, and famous took me to let it all work out. Let's go. They're all connected. Yeah, we have a we're all interwoven webs of thought neuro synapses that are connected to each other. It's just a way of we're aware, man. Yeah. Our minds, our mentals are so crazy. It's awesome. Yeah. It's cool, it's cool. A little thing. We're such weird beings. My memory is I'm here for it. I'd be willing to say that I have, like, a 95 percentile memory, which is fucking sick in regards to, like what? What do you mean? It's just strong. It's just strong. Fucking remember? Shit. You know what I'm saying? Okay, okay. But you have it. It's, Because, like, like, well, the reason that the seed got planted was okay after I'd been punched in the mouth. Got it. We were as a group. I was like, let's have some counsel of deliberated. We talked about that last time. Okay? We want to get back into the Segway. Stay tuned to stay tuned. Teaser. We did like a council session with, the major heads of the basketball game, to break down what had happened there. And, you know, this is how long afterwards this is like 15 minutes afterwards. Okay, gotcha, gotcha, gotcha. Because, you know, like, I'm out for, like, two minutes are, like, dazed and confused with you. And then I watched my mouth out, and then I come back and everybody spun their shoes on, like, now game's dead today. And I was like, no, no, I got hit in the mouth. You guys want to quit? Fucking pussies? Both those kind of. I didn't say that without the business part. And then we go outside to talk, and then we're talking about the shit. And then my friend Jay is like, deliberating. Well, from what I'm hearing is that these tensions had been built up for a while, and I'm like, not really, bro. Like and then, well, kind of, but I just was like, you know, not in a weird way, just like, I wasn't harboring any resentment or anything crazy, you know what I'm saying? Like, yeah, I want to guard him. And yeah, I wanted to, like, we had played each other in the past. Yeah. I was down to battle, like, on the field of competition, you know what I'm saying? But that's about where I was that drawn the line. And then the dude's like, well, no, you followed me super aggressively last week, and I'm like, I know what you're talking about. It's when you looked at PE and you go, damn! And he goes, damn. And yeah, what had happened was, is that he's like, yeah, I crossed you over. You almost fell. And then you come back and just swing on me and I'm like, dude, I blocked the ball. Like you got fouled by my teammate who was playing helps our defense. I recovered, went up, and then I blocked the shit out of the ball. Like, yes, I did swing kind of aggressively, but I had a clean block on you. I didn't come just like, fucking clobber you, right hack? You know, I gave you no warranting for punching me in the face like I didn't. Nothing like that. And every time we got clipped together, it happened two times. Once the time before, and once today I start. I kind of stopped and I was like, hey, man, you okay? Because I trust me. If I'm really not fucking with you, I'm not going to say shit to you. If I hit you hard. It's like I'm going to be like, yeah, that's what happened. Like, but like I'm like, put that feeling aside and said, hey, you good? Like, outside of the game of basketball. You all right? I didn't mean to do that. And he's like, well, I don't really remember because my memory ain't shit. And I'm like. You sucks. Is your memory not shit? Or is this, narcissistic excuse to not take responsibility? Maybe. Is it, a blindfold that you're almost, almost borderline willingly putting on so you can't be in line with objective reality and truth? We do that. And I have to face the consequences for not doing so. Humans do that every day, all the time, all the times and all the fucking time. Please stop. Good epidemic. Yeah. So. But then that's what planted the seed. I was like, well, I can literally remember the moment it happened, the moment you looked at P and you go, damn. And he goes, damn, because I'm like, what are you what are you damning about? Like, yeah, I recovered and blocked the shit out of you. Anyway, someone actually came over to me and said, do you have anything? You know what I'm saying? The thing. No, but and this guy does watch the fucking podcast. But the reality of the situation is there's things that people do where they're jockeying for conversational position. For instance, I'm like inviting him to church at the end of the thing.

I'm like, look, man, I go to KVK, I'll be there at 2: 24:40

00. You can go with me, come with me to church.

I got to go at 2: 24:47

00 because I need to fucking sleep on Sundays, but I'll go with you at 2:00. And his response was, yeah, well, I'm up at the crack of dawn because I got to get up early because I got to get my shit done. And I'm just like, what? Does that have anything to do with what I just said, bro or church or church or none of that. It's just like, why do a better, why do more? Why did this, why I got it's like this weird. Like I'm on top of the situation, I'm on better, I'm doing more. And it's just like, I don't know why people do that. Think it's like an insecurity. This is yeah, the insecurity. Social hierarchy thing. The jockeying thing. Yeah. Yeah. I think we're I think it's just like what's going on here? I think a large part of I want to get people to laugh at that. I think we're all having to deal with that. It's just such a childish. It's so childish. It's so fifth grade. Well, my dad could be a bearded man. Well, I, I got the Xbox 360. Well, I got a chartered. Yeah. It's just like you're all. Shut up. What's all we're talking about? But anyways. So memory. There's something there. Sorry. Yeah, but memory, my memory is usually pretty, like I remember what the fuck happened. Like, we can talk about a dispute that happened a week ago, and I'm like, no, no, no, no, no, no. Here's the context. Here's what happened. Here's what I said, here's what you said. And that's why I have a problem with it. Because I was coming from this from of reference, super open, super like I just think we should look at this thing. And then you came in really hot. Just kind of like denigrating my person and saying that we're not doing enough work. And it didn't have anything to do with what I was talking about. Like, do you remember that shit, like thoroughly. And then when I get into the weeds about what actually happened, also motherfuckers can't remember and it's either the blindfold or it's your memory sucks. Yeah, yeah. And if your memory sucks, what's your life, bro? Your life is your memory. Holy shit. Yeah, I don't know, I don't I don't struggle with that personally. Yeah. I think I feel pretty strongly about my memory, especially because sometimes I'm able to lean on it so heavily or I'm like, wait, did I do that thing? Like in, for example, like I'll be at work and I'll have like to send an order into the kitchen and then I'll be like, why did I send that? Or did I put that modification on there? Then I needed to to do and then like I'll try to gain certainty, right. Like looking back on the past and like can't remember that can I remember doing that. And then also like remember an instance of me like okay, I do remember, I remember hitting that button and then hitting these buttons and like I remember that sequence of events happening. Nice. I can lean back on that. So I think server training is because I envisioned later, a couple days later, talking to Jordan Peterson about our memories being really good. JVP, if you want. Come on please. Oh, it'll happen. It's going to happen. It's going to happen to me. So I affirm that, oh, don't be awesome, this sweetest dude. Jeez. But being in the service industry and being servers like that, it's got to be like a memory workout. Like we do a memory workout every day, you know what I'm saying? So I think that's part of like, we've like, actively developed like a muscle, the memory of just remembering shit. Like, I gotta remember. Okay, so then another thing happened where, I got introduced to a table by Aaron and Aaron, this wonderful couple that comes in at Blue Promise. They came in and the Aaron, the gentleman is always very keen to be, like, real like a, there's a word for, like, a good person. So he's there and he's brought his friends out. So he's going to take a moment to introduce me to his friends, even though I'm like nobody, you know what I'm saying? I mean, Aaron and Aaron don't even have, like, that crazy of a relationship, but he's a very like, civil, good mannered person. So he's like, oh, Matthew, please, these are my good friends. I want to introduce you to Bobby and Melissa. Right. And those are their actual names, which is fine that I still pulled it out. Bang, bang, let's go. And it's just like, I'm like, hey, I'm Matthew, you know, I've been here for a long time and and a great people. Really nice to meet you. They're like, oh yeah, we're excited to try this place out. Then Aaron says they have a place in Fredericksburg called Sixth Twist. It's a bubbly champagne prosecco, mostly a bubbly type of, bar and food place. Got it. So if you ever out there, you got to check it out. So I'm like, oh, really nice to meet you guys. You're one of us. I'll be feel at home. I'm. Beyonce's crazy, right? All right. I'll talk to you guys later than I do my whole fucking shift. And then I need to go talk to my friend John to say goodbye. And then, really, I need him to help me with some swipes. So I walk in there because he's been in there for a while, like, hey, man, if it's okay with you, can I use your car to take care of some comps? And he's like, here you go, man. I'm like, sweet. Thank you so much. Appreciate you. And then I like Bleep and then give him back the card I'm like thank you. Appreciate it I'm gonna take off if that's okay with you. He's like yeah you're good. And I was like all right. But then I'm like and then absolute crazy pleasure Bobby and Melissa really nice to meet you guys. And John's just like give it up. This one focus crazy from God. And let's go. And they're like oh I can't believe you remembered that. That was like hours ago. You been working this whole time. And I was like, truthfully, I can't really remember. I remember that either names are all the names in the world, you know, all the time. And then I'm like, things you could be remembering in the moment. I'm like, I have you guys from 6 to 8 in Fredericksburg. I'll see you guys soon. And they're like, oh, it's crazy. It's going on. It's crazy. It's going off. And then I was just like remembering that I was pretty like, damn, I pulled it. I don't know how. I don't know how I remember that, you know what I'm saying? Yeah. And then I was like, it's just the muscle that I developed. I was able to, like, go back to that moment, go back to that handshake, pull out Melissa. And then I pulled out Bobby. And, and so that's one thing to say. I think the act of working out of the muscle helps the memory a lot. But then the other thing is, technique helps a lot, too. So I've developed a technique where I can remember anything. As long as I attach it to anything. It doesn't have to be like a true correlation something, a rhyme, something that makes sense. It's just I just have to attach it to anything. And I think I attached Bobby and Melissa to six twist. And just because I attach those things together, I was able to go to the attachment and remember what was attached. Yeah. Yeah. Like it doesn't the way you configured your brain computer, mind mental computer finds attachments and finds files. Yeah, exactly. It's like I just had to make a file that had more than one thing in it. And then I was able to open the file and there was things in there. Yeah, it sounds crazy. Especially spirit. Bobby. Melissa got it. Here we go in the folder. Throw that in the back. Yeah. It's like double click. You got it. Yeah. Yeah. Like if like if you just need to remember like the address is like, like hand pass. I'm, I'm, I'm send something like it's, Okay. It's it's cock slip road. Okay. Hair and wrist pass cock slip road. It's like, that's a funny joke. It doesn't mean anything. It's not like a I grew up on Galena, so I'm going to take the third G. And then that's going to represent this and this and that. Like I don't need it doesn't need to be attached to anything. It is simple as anything. Most people need something. I think you think you need something concrete in your life, and then you attach it to something concrete, and then you go to the concrete and it helps you to draw the abstract. Like you could just take abstract and abstract, combine it for no reason. You just need to create the memory of you, remembering. Yeah, that's what you're the memory of you writing it down in your mental, whatever that is. Yes, dude. Yeah. That brings me back to sophomore year of college. T state chemistry. We're talking about the outer orbitals from the electrons or some shit. I can't don't even remember. I can't remember exactly what it was. And proton neutron electron torque. And like the outer orbits, it's like the, PCH or there's some there's there's one more letter to it as well, I can't remember D maybe, but I remember I was like, poop shit, dick balls a c I was like, there's no those don't call it chemistry and fecal matter. Like there's no there's nothing going on there. No, I just remembered it, you know? I just remembered it just like stapled. It's branded it in my head when I was I remember like, memorizing for or studying whatever. Yeah, for chemistry. But that one was really strong too. Like when you got to. I remember now exactly, exactly. At least for the most part, like 80% of it. Sometimes you create a stark one, and then when you get to test day, you're like, well, that's an easy one to remember. I created a really stark synopsis for that one, and then you tried to memorize something else, but you didn't really create the stark synapse for it. And you're like, God, I wrote that down. Fuck. What was it was. And you might be like, oh, I remember now, but it's not like poop shit dick miles. Got it. Yeah. You. That's the whole thing. That's super power. Dick farts, I think, is what it was. SVD, if he got it. Yeah, he pulled it out. Yeah, that was that years ago. Dog memories are a weird thing. Dog. Our mental him, our mental skip. So that guy's memory sucks. What's your life, bro? That's lame. You don't remember? I guess not memories. Okay. Really fucking weird. What happened? Memory is fucking weird. Because, yeah, I can remember some really weird abstract stuff, but it's seemingly random. It's seemingly random. Sometimes I wake up with a literally a song from a different generation in my mind from the fucking 80s, and like, just random stuff. No clue what I'm saying. Yeah, I have no idea. No idea. It's just. And there happen is also like multiple times throughout the day, throughout the weeks and I can't remember exact things. I guess I could if you're asked to, to remember where were you on fucking April 29th? Like I a back to my life that was. I say I might be able to walk it back. I need to like, look at the calendar a week. Was it like, yeah, I was like, can I see my calendar? Like I have my calendar at home? Or like, I write shit down or, you know, saying whatever's going on. It's like, if I remember for the most part. Yeah, yeah. I, I took a class my favorite class in high school was still called art history. I took it as a senior. That was probably my favorite class I ever took in high school. And it was just memorization. I mean, we would go through, like, periods of art, and then you'd get a sheet with like 40, usually ish pieces of art, and then you'd have to remember four facts about each piece of art. And then the fact would be like the name, the artist, those were usually the two easiest ones for me to remember. And then, like the lecture would go through each piece of art, all 40 of them, and he'd spend like ten minutes on each one and tell you the story. What happened, why it was important, what kind of, paint they used or like what medium it was on contextually, what it meant, what it actually meant, symbolism, all that shit. And you just had to find four facts that were, in my opinion, stark enough that when I looked at the painting, I could say, oh yeah, that was the fucking thing with the guy. And then and then so I would add my notes. I'd make like probably six facts per art piece. And then when I was studying for the test, I would like make a flashcard with the art one side. And then on the back side, I'd write down the four facts that I had chosen. I'm going to remember those four facts. So then it was really just memorization class more than it was our history. Yeah, but I love what school is, what studying. It's why I was, like, studying. Like I was studying for chemistry. Oh, fuck. That is bullshit. Yeah. Fuck, yeah. Come on, dog, you got it. That's that's it. Start. I got it, I got it. It smells in my brain. The speed of dogs. It is the outer orbitals of electrons of some shit. I don't remember chemistry. There's some bill. Nice. Oh, Billy. Not going to teach you that, though. Bill and Bill. And he ain't going to teach you that. No, it's a who's taught me that I still remember. I remember that now. Our memories are weird. Our minds are fucking weird. If your memory sucks like 51st Dates, Adam Sandler. You see that movie? Yeah. Classic. Great movie. If you if you haven't seen it, highly recommend it. Oh, yeah. One of those. One of Adam Sandler's. If you ask people, it's probably in their top ten for sure. Top five for a lot of people, top five for me, women for sure. Top five for sure. It's my top five. So good movie. It's a great movie. It's on TBS a lot. Remember back in the day I saw them in college and shit, but it's a movie where the premise is Adam Sandler is this guy trying to get this girl to like him, but this girl here, unbeknownst to him, has this rare kind of like mental condition where she loses her memory every single day. So she's like, reliving the same day. It's it goes on to explain a little bit more about how that happens and how her dad takes care of her, and how her brother kind of helps in that regard. It's an interesting premise, but yeah, if your memory is just like on every day, then you're not really like, that's what we are. We are our memories, bro. Yeah. You know. Yeah. All right. Guess there's okay. Okay. So you got your memory. There's something there though too, because. Yeah, this is where the show that the other night done initially the show name is going to be The descendants. We're going to kick around, kick it, kick the can around because I think there is or yeah, like a Disney princess or like a Disney. I think it's like a Disney version of a show called The Descendants are movie, maybe. And they're like, their premise of The Descendants is like, these are the kids and the children, the descendants of like these evil Maleficent and like evil princesses and I guess evil characters in the Disney lore. Okay, so I don't know. I'm pretty sure I've seen that somewhere because I looked it up already. But that show coming out now, we're going to then we're going to make because I think we talked about the last time how the best stories are the best shows that we equate to or put in that story, give that acclimation to of like, this is a great show. You need to watch it like the things that help influence that within ourselves. Whenever we would we do watch. It is like if there's a truth expressed in it that is expressed in an artistic in like nice, cool, dramatic or whatever actionable way that's like digestible people like it and then it's like a pointing to a truth that's in line with objective reality and how the structure of life works. And like, it's all it's a part of, it is like, just like your beliefs, like, you know, say like no one knows for sure about exactly what's going on here. We're all kind of just like here. So, like, if someone puts up something for us and everyone's like, oh, that's such a good show or such a good movie, they probably touched on something that's somewhat in line with the way that the structure of the matrix works. That's why The Matrix is awesome. Everyone loves the matrix. That was like, oh man, it's just crazy. It's just awesome. Yeah. So I think part of like, what? The Descendants is going to be cool because I want to express different like ideas. And this is one of them being like, without your memory, who are you? You know, like you're you're the creation and results of thousands and thousands of years and hundreds and hundreds of this, like people who made you or who made people, who made people, who made people who made you. It's like, that's just like such a wild thing to think about. So without your current memory of who you are right now, you still have some sort of resulting, some sort of hereditary DNA. Given something from somewhere. Yeah, yeah, yeah. You have your inclinations. Like I have bad eyesight, you know, I say like that. That came from somewhere. Like there's something going on with that. Yeah. I'm with you. Yeah. There's, there's. So like in the show, I was real quick as, like in the show, like my character. Character could have glasses. Now, but like if we're going to do like a, like three main character storylines of, like a present day, maybe like a couple generations ago. So it's like somewhat tangible than like 100, 200, 300 years ago. So it's even like a little bit less tangible, but still like it remains in the same sort of like jumping time frame. Mentally you're like, okay, that makes sense. It's like their grandpa, his grandpa or their grandpa also grandma. Grandpa. I could like follow the War one, but then it goes like 100, 300, 400. Yeah. You're like, oh yeah, this is grandpa. Times like this. 20 grandpa is like, oh yeah. It's like, oh shit. But it's still the same thing because like, this is a little more easy of a jump, but then it's like, oh shit, like that. People live like that, like to make that connection of, like The Chosen does a good job about that. Like giving you that sense of time and place and how things kind of work like the lifestyle of the time, society, society, the zeitgeist at the time. Yeah. How people did things. Yeah. How people did things like that. That's it. So like, yeah, like I could have glasses on my character in one of the modern day scenes within this person could be struggling with the eyesight and like, figuring out glasses, and then this person's like, just like their eyesight sucks and like, that will won't be obviously stated by anything except like, if you're subtly if you you know what I'm saying? Like, if it's subtly interjected into the story of that character, it could be like drawn the length of like, oh shit, he has bad eyesight because like, oh, he has glasses. And it's like, you know, I'm saying stuff like that. And then that's that could be more of, like a detail that provides the context of what we're doing. But then there could be more like heavy hitting things like they made similar choices. Yes. Yeah. The the present a similar situation, similar patterns, similar opportunities. Difficult conflict happened and they both took the same kind of outcome based on their character you know. Yeah that's it's fine. Yeah. It's tight. So you don't remember who are you. Continue. What were you talking about? Oh sorry. No. I'm just I'm with you. There's what makes us, I think is there's like, like an ego and an aid I think is like how Freud defined it, but like a sense of self, the sense of self that you've built and then the sense of self that's subconscious within your own brain that you haven't consciously built, like the things that have happened to you and then the things that you've actively chosen create like the sense of self. And this you're actively chosen can dive into your subconscious and do work there. But that's usually not the natural mode of existence. Usually it's like my outward thoughts and then my inward. Most of the time it's like pain. It's like bad things that have happened to me that have shaped me and my subconscious. And then the things that I choose to be. And those things are kind of like resting on top of each other, making all of the choices that you make all the time. And then your memories would be like a very driving force in both of those, because you have your memories subconsciously of like the bad things that happen to you and the good things that happened to you. So what you subconsciously expect to happen based on what you've taken in in life, and then your memories also drive your choices. It's like, I've, I've worked out for the last six days because, or let's that's a bad example. Let's say I'm four days into my workout, I told myself I was going to workout six days in a row. I'm into it. This is what I'm doing. I'm going to go and I'm going to work out the fifth day. But that's a lot of that's driven by memory because of choices that you're making actively. And you can ride your own momentum. The running narrative, 100%. Yeah. And so, I think when we talk about what makes us us, it's like memories. Yes. But memories feed into this sense of self, the conscious one and the unconscious one. And yeah, you know, a lot of people don't have control over that. So, like, what they're choosing to do can be very impulsive and what their subconscious is doing to them. They might not have a lot of conscious awareness of what's going on in the subconscious. Most people are moving around in this life. Beep boop beep beep. Beep beep beep beep beep. And also when you have a shitty life or you have a great life and then you wake up one day kind of within yourself a little bit and you're like, oh man, maybe some of this is my fault. Maybe some of it's not. Maybe I'm lucky, maybe I'm privileged, maybe I'm to blame for some of this. Maybe, you know, it's like, And it breaks my heart. How many people beep beep that their whole life? I just got to thinking about this yesterday. It's like we're doing a really great job of trying to actively create a life that's enjoyable and worth living. But I don't think a lot of people do that. Like, you went to school for something and then you, like, married this person, and then now you're like, yeah, you had some kids. I mean, that should just be happening. And like, either got the raise or didn't get the raise, got the promotion. But then like one day you're going to be just like in your life. And I think hopefully at least one day you have the red pill moment where you're like, oh fuck, this is my life, okay? And it could have been different things, but this. And and that doesn't happen to everybody I don't think like at 20 sometimes it happens at like 40 like 50. You get that midlife crisis. You say that might be I think that might be kind of attached to that idea of a midlife crisis is getting to the point. Yeah. Or it's like looking at life. Oh shit. So we're kind of in the shit right now. Anything, in my opinion, like we're in a trench. You could do anything. I'm saying that again. You can do anything. You really could have done anything. But it's really easy to contextualize. Is that what sparked the midlife crisis is getting to a point than realizing I could have done anything. I think it's subconsciously and you're like, fuck. And you can't even, like, conceptualize it or accept it. So you have to go buy a Ferrari. I would say that the subconscious. Yes. And then I would say consciously, you're saying to yourself, I did this thing, I could have done anything, and I did this to this thing. I could do this thing right now. Fuck it all. Yeah, that's that's the way to be like, I'm in control here. It's like I can have a great life right now. Let me. What would be a great life? Hookers blow to Ferrari. Let's go. Yeah, it's. Yeah. Lots of yachts, yachts. Not a lot of people could just get on a yacht, but. But you. But not a lot of people can afford a Ferrari. Maybe you can afford a lease on a Ferrari for a month. Yeah, but I think that's what happens there. It's like you also feel. It's like a feeling of being stuck to. It's like infinite possibilities. And I'm in this one. Right. But. Right, right, right. Yeah. Maybe there's something going on there subconsciously. What's the what's like a the deemed a midlife crisis like 40s 40s in your 50s. Yeah. Yeah I'd say probably happens at 40 because at 40 it's like I mean at 50 I think I kind of settled in a little bit 40 or you still have some agency to be like, fuck, I got like a decade before I'm on the back nine. Yeah. You know. Yeah, yeah, yeah. Before, unk was big bro right now. Yeah. Like the big bro. Yeah for sure. So so different. But then that thought stems from we're, we're in a place where we are kind of deep down the road of trying to build a life that we're really thankful we ended up in that reality. Uncon conventional. And it's one way to easily, easily conceptualize it. If you graduated from college and you have a job now, it's easy to think now that you've you ran a science experiment, you went to school, you went to college, you graduated, you got the job, you got the job. You're doing the job. Here you are. Here we go. Okay, you could have went to college, snuggled up. You could have gone to college for anything. Anything. They offer anything in the fucking world. A ton of different majors. Anything in the fucking universe you could have learned. Yeah. And relatively speaking, you probably could have gone to at least 2 or 3 different schools. So even if your school didn't offer a certain major, you probably could have gotten into some school that did offer any of the majors that were available online programs, the Jordan Peterson Academy. Yes, that's a different conversation, but totally nowadays. Definitely. What you talking about? So that to say like you graduated with a degree, you got the job in the field and that could have been anything in the world. So I think that's easy to conceptualize. I really could be doing anything right now because I did the meta thing, which was degree job, field. Yep. And you just happened to be and because I was thinking about how do people end up being doctors. And the thing that I came down to is somebody probably told them you should be a doctor, and then they probably just ran with that, because why the fuck else would you choose to be a doctor? Maybe in your family, maybe it's a familial thing. Maybe you have aspirations because you watch the show or you had the experience like, I think I think scrubs has a moment where they talk about this kind of stuff. Right? If I were to say this was the whole point, like, I want to see scrubs sooner, I would have been a surgeon, right? So probably it's so crazy, right? That show was great. Damn, you're in my head, bro. Come on. Please go on. I don't know, we talked about this. There's a point in scrubs. Oh, where they're talking about what made you want to be a doctor. And I think one of the girls had expressed like, I think it's Kala. Maybe. I think Kala, she's one of the nurses in the show, and she, I think it was it was a weird episode. I remember, I remember it's coming back to me in pieces because this up, this particular episode was like a documentary style about one. Yeah, yeah, it was like, that's like the only episode of his kind of. They don't do that ever. It's not like The Office. Yeah. Typically it's JD's like point of view and his mind, his mental thought space the entire time, except for like an episode or two. This is one of them and it's like a documentary style. So they're asking like, why do you want to become a doctor? I think Doctor Cox, JD, Elliot, Turk and Carla, I'll give different answers, I forget, but I know that I'm pretty sure Carlos was, I think she said this. She was a little girl, or she was young and she was at a restaurant, and then somebody had. Or somebody was, choking or somebody was suffocating or something at the restaurant. And then somebody yelled out, like, is there a doctor in the house? And I think, I think there was a doctor in the game, and they help them. I gave them CPR, whatever they needed to do to control the situation and then like, solve the problem and like, save the day, you know, saying she was like, well, like they commanded so much respect in that moment or like they had the moment. Like it was like, can anyone make this catch for me? Ja'Marr Chase is like right here for him, for her dog. And then he makes the catch and you're like, yes, yes, fucking saves the day, super man. So there's true moments of influence. Yeah, yeah. Maybe a true moment of influence to make you want to join a medical profession. Like if you're involved personally or seeing someone else get like help. Yeah, some something like that. I've seen like, shows that say cops said the same thing more or less. Okay. Yeah. Like a domestic dispute in my house. My mom was always find my dad a cop. Say it came in like, save the day. And I was like, I want to do that for people. Yeah, right. That kind of shit. Yeah. But aside from that, what else did you say? Just. I think it's like, someone either gives you the idea or affirms your idea. Okay? It's like you, you should be, accountant. That's a safe job that makes a lot of money. And you're like, that's kind of in your head. And then you get to that point where you're going to make the decision, what am I going to major in? It's like, oh, no, I'll be an accountant. Yeah, right. Or like if I, let's say hypothetically, just like where to where to pitch something like that, like, I like an uncle even. It's like, it's like they're not even their own kid, you know what I'm saying? Or I started to like to their niece or nephew and they're like, hey, man, I'm like, going to college. And they're undecided. And they're like looking at all the options and they see something that's like relatively familiar. They're like, oh, I've heard of this from at least somewhere before. Yeah. You know, my uncle mentioned something about being a electrician. It's like I'll go to the electrical store. I don't fucking know. Or it's like, oh yeah, my, my uncle's best friend's a doctor. He has a great house. He's a huge house. We go to the 4th of July. I want to be like him. Yeah, I'm saying do that. Yeah. I was really close to trying to go to law school. Mostly stems because when I, my parents filled up, my dad got remarried, I had two stepsisters and a new stepmom, and then it was me and my dad in the house. And, we would get into arguments about what happened. And my stepsisters weren't always playing fair, so I really had to, like, articulate the fuck out of what happened, be like, no, no, no, no, no, we were here. This happened, this happened. This is fair. This is unfair. Last week, this happened, we said next week was going to be different. And then now I'm in this position where I have to, you know, argue for myself to get. I got a lawyer up and my stepmom who would who was not initially on my side for a lot of arguments because she's taking care of her daughters. You know what I'm saying? She was like, you'd be a really good lawyer. Like, you have the meta skill stat to argue law because I'm a grown adult and you're making a great case for yours. I can't even like. Like you're right. Okay, Matthew gets the front seat this time, like, I'm sorry. What are you going to do? Like, he made too many great points. Like, I'm not going to be this arbiter of truth in my own story. Court adjourned. Yeah, yeah, it's. But I had to. Because, like, if I didn't sit there and say, hold on, hold on. That is gentlemen of the jury. Yeah, they would get off on me and they'd be like, I'd be a month without me getting the front seat or getting to pick what was for dinner or getting to go see the movie I wanted to see, you know. Yeah, yeah. And so but that stuck with me all the way. I got down to finance or law. That was pretty much where I was at. And then finance doesn't have law school. So I ended up going for finance because too much school. I hate school, but in high school so much, I probably picked law. Yeah, but and then life happens to people and they end up changing what they're doing. But ultimately when you're making that decision, that's what I'm trying to say is like the influence, how it happens. Somebody says something to you sometime? Yeah. Most of the time, you know, for the most part, I was like 12 when she said that. And then by the time I was 18, it was still ringing in there, you know. Yeah, exactly. Play it some. And then my subconscious right now she's fucking superstar. You can be a superstar. I thought about how honest she should be, doctor, because she has the IQ to do it. At that point. It's just a choice to do it. You know what I'm saying? Yeah. It's just a matter of just showing up and doing the fucking thing. Yeah. Just being this. It's like working out so you can work out. You can have a nice. You could be in shape totally for your whole life. If you just like this, just don't stop and just keep going. Oh yeah. Also, that's all, you know, that's another thing I think about them. It's like if I just feed her salmon and sweet potatoes, avocado, broccoli, chicken rice. She just doesn't even know that. Oatmeal cream soda. Yeah. Exactly. What the hell is that? Yeah. Coca cola. Yeah. The fuck is that smell? It's kind of like an alley pop. Oh, God. It's like a sugar bomb. Yeah, someone farted in the juice. Yeah, there's. There's outside influence. Someone's going to give her a pop tart. You know what I'm saying? That's what I happen to, but. Oh, yeah, it's the norm. It's like, what's the norm? If you can generate up a norm where that's kind of an outlier. Whereas if Coca-Cola is the norm, it's different, you know, way different foundation, way different starting point, way different home base. Yeah. Exactly. Speaking. Yeah. Because yeah, like our daughter we don't we don't have soda in the house. You know I'm saying we just don't have it like we just don't. We have water and milk like it was all we got as far as liquids are concerned. Maybe like some lollipops or, as I said, a barrel. It pops every now and then. Yeah, I got some stuff in my. I still have some alcohol in my fridge from July, but like I've got alcohol. My fridge when I moved in. Yeah like two years now. Jesus Christ I just it's it's well it's our beers. Oh, God. Couple of seltzers. Do beers go bad? No they don't. I don't think so. I could be wrong, but I don't think so. Okay. Yeah, dude, let's go with the ready for the. They're ready for the draft. Sure. Football coming up. Your football coming up bro I've been watching quarterbacks. I got two episodes left. I'm going to save them. Highly recommend. It's good. And then I didn't watch the first season at all because I know that the lady is not going to want to watch it. There's not going to. Oh, did the Paddy Mahomes storyline is so good. I'll come back and watch that one after this. So this one, this one's good because it's just a reminder. I'm sure the first one was shot in the same way. But quarterbacks show on Netflix. It's tight. Especially if you're not in football. You're going to like it I doubt it. Maybe you might. But like I think for the female demographic divide, I can enjoy it that much. But for me, I'm gonna do the same thing. I'm fucking loving it because the primarily because or like the the storylines are cool. It's Joe Burrow Jared Goff Kirk Cousins. It's cool to see their personal life and their mental breakdown of the game and whatever, but another cool aspect that I've been really enjoying is the like the recollection is the remembering is the the very dramatization in the show of last season, I was like, oh yeah, this is what happened. This is the story. I like to think it's a reread the book of last year. I was like, okay, yeah, this is this is where we're at because we're about to head into the draft and like, it's nice to whenever you're heading into the draft to kind of know, remember what's been going on. Yeah. Yeah. Especially also in the pickups. More importantly in the pickups, the narrative. The draft is easy relative because I know I know the meta. Yeah I know the meta. Add another meta draft scenario to build a good team or like to build the team that I've deemed to be like a championship worthy team. The type of characters I need to get, I still need to go through and look at all the little blurbs about the different, different people at different, you know, I don't know that much about. Yeah, exactly. Find out a little more Intel, but I could do that all day, every day. But the thing is, whenever we do the pick for the football and you're picking up the spreads or you're betting on the games and being who's going to win by a certain amount of points, it's a lot to know. You need to know a lot more information, a lot more variables are at play as far as who's going to win by a certain amount, like at home versus away, and the kickers and injuries and head coach moving heading there. I like their whole coaching, coaching staff, special teams headquarter or a head offensive coordinator, defensive coordinator, head coach. Those people get moved around all offseason like all the time. You know, same people will get traded all the time. So it's like you gotta you gotta remember what happened last year. Take that. All the movement that happened over the course of the offseason and then go into the new season. So it's like nice to watch quarterbacks to get that refresher of like, oh yeah, the fucking I remember a lot of these games, especially because I was like, I remember betting on that game. I remember betting on the game. Yeah, I picked the Eagles. Oh damn you Falcons. Yeah damn you Bengals. It's nice. He's doing something very special I love that I thought I started today. It's it's tight it's tight I had an opportunity lady was going out of town. That's the half. That was my shot. That's perfect. Let's see. Let's I highly recommend for couples to have a couple shows and then got shows and girl shows. Yeah, you gotta have good apps and then to watch for yourself when you're home alone. I want to put a nice bow on the memory thing. But the David Bowie, the trick that I learned and I had the highest grade out of everybody in the history class. The trick that I learned was let's say that there's a painting. Called Shovel by James book. It was done in pastel. And the year 1888. Okay. There's a painting called Shovel by James book done in pastel, but in 1988, those are the four facts that I have deemed worthy to remember. Got it. I would associate the picture that I'm looking at at associated with imagine Devin Booker, but he's a shovel book. Oh okay, I got it. We're in the jersey. He's a shovel with arms. Real skinny guy. Shovel actually almost shovel. Yeah I did a gif animated shovel. Okay. He's shaking hands with James Potter, Harry Potter's dad. Okay, okay. He's wearing a special, unique jersey that's pastel colored, really bright neon pastel colors. And he has 88. That's his number I would like I'd that would be the thing that I would choose to remember. This thing would associate with that thing, and it would have all the facts laying in it. Okay, that's James Potter. Potter. He's a shovel. Got it. James Booker that's right. Shovel by James Booker. It pastel jersey. It's done in pastel and 1888. Got it. Yeah, I love it. That's legitimately a pastel 88 jersey on a Devin Booker shovel. Yep. You're shaking hands with Harry Potter's father, James Potter. Yep, yep. Got it. So that would be your point, dude. I'm telling you, I had the highest grade in a college class with that technique right there. I did one of those for every picture, and then I learned them. And now, now that I'm ten years removed from that, I can tell you that the meta thing is just making an attachment. Yeah, just. Yeah. Yeah. You know what I'm saying? I remember thinking about that in school because I remember the teacher would say, like, I forget talking about an equation or something and they're like, or whatever it was. English doesn't really matter. The subject they're mentioning something in, like, you're I'm writing it down and then they're like, oh, I know actually it's the opposite or the inverse of what I just said. And I'm like, just make up your fucking mind. So I told myself, I don't remember it. Yeah, well, so sometimes I remember it's the opposite. Like, oh yeah, this is the thing that's different than what you think it would be. That's the attachment I've made to do it right. I had to do that with The Rooms and Blueprint, because I always want it to be Azul Sapphire, Mistral A as well. It should just be the first one that's on my brain telling me the first room should be Azul guy. But then I have to tell every now, every time I think about the rooms, I'm like, it's not what you think it is. Sapphire is all Mr.. All right. The first thing I think is it's not what you think it is. There's something different here. Yeah. My spidey sense is counterintuitive. This is a counter-intuitive room layout. This is opposite. Yep. And then that's intuitive. Yeah. Right. Yeah. I assign the same thing to things. Isn't that funny? Oh, fuck. Dude, we're such weird creatures, man. Yeah, humans are weird. Our mental capacity is strange. I love it, we are. We are specifically. Yeah. Oh, yeah. We're all unique. Oh, yeah. We're all unique individuals dealing with this thing. So if your memory sucks, I feel. I feel for you, man. There's nothing I could do to solve that. I know there's a. I think it's it's a purple icon emblem on Instagram. I've seen I forget it's like, think it's I forget the name of it. But it was the talk about like, memory practice more or less like mental, like retention training. Oh, yeah. There's a debate back in the day. Yeah. Oh, it was like a it was like a class I think. Or some guy like talking about it, talking specifically about your like mental awareness and consciousness and that type of shit. But you could train your memory to be a little bit more sharp, a little bit more quicker with retention and memory or remembering things. And, and I'm sure like those are the types of things that are doing there's probably games that they do or like actual like memorization techniques, but then like things like that as well. Yeah, it's like just playing the memory like turnover 20 cards and then match them together like, yep, yep, that's a workout for your memory. Classic Winnie the Pooh dog. Remember that? Yeah. I was like for exactly the Pooh imagines totally. All right off the bat, borrow five more minutes, you guys. This time, let's go. I want to tell you about getting punched in the face. Let's go to a last time. We talked about it earlier in the face. In the words of Shawshank Redemption, if you came this far, maybe you're willing to go a bit further. Let's go playing basketball. You've heard the stories. Obviously. If I look back on the last 3 or 4 podcasts telling you this, hyper aggressive, conflict heavy basketball stories, maybe I was cruisin for a person constantly. Just the nature of basketball. I mean, that was it just happens. Usually I stand right in the face of it. And I did this time, and there were different consequences. There was a fist. Yeah. In the face. Ultimately, this guy, I was telling Jay, I was like, look, man, this this thing had shown several times, and that's why I was irritated. And the thing that I was irritated by is the thing that punched me in the face. Like, I could tell that there was a disproportionate amount of hostility. Hostility. This dude's always screaming at. What happened was, is that we play basketball Tuesday, Thursday, and then that following Tuesday, I get punched in the face. So backtrack to the first Tuesday. He's just screaming at me. The point guard says, hey man, pick that guy. I'm going to take him to the rack. I want to float it. That's what I that's what I hear, right? What he says is, pin that guy. When I think of why he wants me to pin him, he's going to drive. Pull out a little bit past the three point line, make his move at the three point line. Get to the free throw. Either floated. I should have jumped right there. So then now stuff happens at the top of the key and I'm pinning. And then the other guard is telling me, get the fuck out of the way. Get out of the way! What are you doing? Move, move. Get the fuck out of the way! And I'm like, this guy doesn't even know we had a conversation over here. Then I finally just vacate. The guy, takes him to the rack, makes his layup or whatever. Then we're converging on defense. He's like, dude, you got to get out of the way. When he gets the switch above, I'm like, yo, he told me to pin him so I'm pinning him like, I don't know, you're not my coach. Like, we're not even boys. Like, shut the fuck up. More or less. I don't know why you're screaming. There's actually context that you're missing here that makes this make a lot more sense. But you're missing the context. It's totally. So it's like, fuck off. And then one weird thing is everyone starts catering to this guy's sensitivity, and ego is really the guy that's telling me, like, he's like, well, we did get the pick and we did get the switch. So once I get the switch, you could get your guy out of the paint. I'm like, in the moment. I'm like, okay, so things changed that I didn't take into account. Maybe this is my fault. Now I have and post the fuck differences that make whatever matchup you have. You told me to pin my guy, so why does it matter if you get a different matchup? Like even if you get a weaker defender, my guy can still play help side and that's what you were worried about was my guy playing help side. So and especially if you do get a weaker matchup, he's more likely to play help side because he knows that that guy's likely to get beat. So you're just saying this to appease this guy's attitude and energy. So yeah, he's kind of vindicated in what he's saying. Like, you should have just you should have just vacated like bullshit. Now, now in post, I'm like, that's all bullshit. You guys are just that's how you're reacting to the moment. And the moment looks like this shaky energy because of what he's doing. Okay. So that that that happened and I'm like, dude, hey, you know. And then it kind of gets into I think I said, oh, I'm like, hey, man, you don't need to yell at me like that. Like, you don't need to talk to me like that. Like I go tell him just like, kind of calmly like, hey, man, like, that's not, you don't need to be on me like that. And then he starts getting in my face and he's like, you don't know me, bro. You don't need to come step to me. You don't know what the fuck I'm from. You don't know about me like that. I'm like, okay, well, I'm telling you, you don't know me. Like we're not boys. So talking to me like that is displaced. We don't have that kind of relationship. As far as normal relationships conversations go, you don't need to talk to me like that. Then the next day, I come in and now he's going to say some shit, bro. Like, I'm already like, coming into the gym. I'm like, man, he's going to say some shit to me, you know? Like, I can just feel it coming. I walk in with Starbucks. He walks straight up to me. He's like, hey man, some some expensive shit right there, And I'm like, what are you, my account, bro? And then he's like, oh, some. I'm not worried about your money, bro. I'm just I'm just trying to get some expensive iced coffee and I'm like, five bucks, man. You're right. A little more expensive than the $2 I could get at the gas station. A little more expensive than the dollar cup. You're right. I just drove an hour. An hour to go to Chris's to get the fucking lights. I drove an hour back. I needed to get to the gym. I was fucking tired from driving two hours. I didn't have time to go home. I stopped at Starbucks. I agree, I also didn't want to fucking pay money for Starbucks, but I needed some fucking coffee. Get off my dick more or less. First immediate interaction. Yeah. Oh, Jesus. And I saw it coming. Like I'm like, I felt it. I'm like, this is gonna have some shit to say to me today. Yeah, you could just feel it. Yeah, dude. Yeah. And then proceed to the following day and we guard each other. Kind of tough that that he the aggressive block that I hit on him which was an aggressive block but it was a clean block. And fuck you want him to play passive like I play physical like I just do. But not in a gross way. Then we fast forward to Tuesday. We're playing basketball. He's we're oh yes okay. So it's he goes to the lane, gets by me but I recover and tip the ball on the layup and oh no that's not what happens. I get beat and then I recover really good and contested really good. But he makes a good contested play. My teammate goes hey nice recovery. Like as I'm like in the air contesting. And then he makes a layup. And then he looks at me goes yeah, nice recovery. And I'm like this fucking guy man. Fuck you. And then I get the ball down. Come and shoot a transition during miss it whatever. But we're now we're kind of like going at each other which is fine. That's fucking basketball man. You know what I'm saying? Then the next time down, he gets on my side. Doesn't quite beat me. But then he pins my arm and kind of hooks me and then goes like that. And then expects to, like, just hook me and get by me. But that's an illegal play to hook someone. So I when I'm hooked, I just don't give him his hand back like he's got my arm. And then when he tries to pull his hand back, I just hold it down so he can't switch back for his layup. He doesn't like that shit, but he can't call a foul because he did the first. Yeah, exactly. So it's kind of dirty. But that's basketball. You know I'm saying a foul. That's high IQ shit by me. I'm like yeah stick your hand the cookie jar I can't get it back out. You know you really got to do that. Just. Yeah, that's the clamps. Sorry dude. You know said then the next time down I go to set a screen on for Jay's guy that this guy is guarding Jay. I set a screen on him, and then I pop and roll, like, immediately. And he calls movie screen, check the ball up, and I'm like, I go, like, coming screen. And then Jay looks at me like, so we're both like this one. What the fuck? And then, I'll be honest with everybody in the room, I go, oh, there's a movie screen. It's like, you're a crybaby, bro. So it's all just straight up. Not the worst thing I could have said to him. He'll call some moving screen, bro. Yeah, you were down screen for someone who didn't have the ball. He was, at the top of the key. Like, me and him were the backcourt guards. And so I worked to the elbow, work back up to his back court and then set the screen. Kind of like high beyond the three point line and then roll into the three point line while he's attacking to create the space to create the pick and roll, you know. But I popped quick because he hadn't reacted yet, so he wasn't even really touching me when I started to roll. And so it was like, I guess in his mind, by the time he's running into me, I'm already rolling. Rolling. Yeah. But it's legal. Like, I don't know what to tell you at that point. It's I wasn't screening anymore at that point. I had released. This was done. Yeah. And I was cutting now moving in. And you were running into a cut as what was happening. Yeah. It's like a rope play and a fucking NFL. Sure. Yeah. And it is kind of like, you know, borderline, but not. Yeah. And we gave him the call like we didn't take the bucket. We said, no, I just call my cry baby. That's lame. You know what I'm saying? Okay, continue. And then he steps. I mean, he's like, I told you, you don't fucking know me, bro. And I just, like, step to him. I'm like, dude, it's not even a moving screen. Like, what are you talking about? And then I'm on the ground. I'm like, that was the catalyst. That was it was moving screen. Yeah. And I'm like, I'm on the ground. My mouth is bleeding. I'm like, oh yeah, he hit me in the face. You know what I'm saying, motherfucker? That's fucking crazy. And then he feels super vindicated. Super justified. I tried to tell you, you don't know me. I tried to tell you. Don't talk to me like that. I tried to tell you. You've been angry. You've been antagonizing me. I tried to ask you about your coffee. You're being a dick to me. I'm just like, oh, what the fuck? Everyone deliberates, more or less comes up to. Yeah, you guys had something brewing. It seems like Matthew had a equal part to play in this. And then just. That's just what happens sometimes. Okay, that's the background story. My questions I have two questions. Two takeaways that I can't quite figure out how to take away okay. Got it. One was. I don't I don't think I did anything wrong. So the question is like did I do something wrong. That's the question. And then the next question is does it matter. Yeah. Right. It doesn't matter. No you shouldn't, you shouldn't be in anybody you know. Okay. Right. That's what you think right. That's what I thought for sure I'm like guys automatically why are we even having discussion here. He just hit me in the face. And now we always talk about who was vindicated, who was right and wrong. It's pretty fucking obvious it was wrong here. Yeah, okay. But it wasn't so obvious. So that group of people. Because I guess there's some circles my friend Manny brought up. Hey, in Houston, you might have just got shot. And I was like, well, in Houston I'm not. And at this point, I have to be so careful with what I'm saying because he is just flying off the handle at everything and all the guys are like, oh, you can't say that. You got to be careful what you say, man. Now what? Did you say something wrong? I'm like in the face and I'm like, what? And then so I'm trying to say, like in Houston, I might have just shy you because. Or let's just say person A, his person be in the mouth. Person B manager shot person. They're like, well person hey, you might have just shot person being I hit him in the mouth. I'm like, okay, is that where we are? Are we in the kind of scenario where if anybody offend anybody, they're going to get shot while we're not in that scenario two, is that the kind of scenario you want to be in? Is that are you saying is basketball at an early fitness at LA fitness? This is not war. This is not war. It happens. Okay. So it happens. It happens. It happens every day. That type shit be happening. Is that what we want to model or physical game? But no, it's not right or so we shouldn't be playing like, creating environments or creating a, like a thought towards it that would like, just make it acceptable. It's like, oh, it's okay. And just, just what happens? It's like, no, this ain't UFC. But is it what happens in the streets? To a degree, I guess. Yeah. Does that make it eligible for not wrong? No. That's what everyone was arguing in the circle more or less. Which is crazy to me. Crazy to me. So yeah, I couldn't even make the argument. I was like, what is that? The structure that we exist in? And is that the structure you want to model our structure after? As the people who, I don't know are the personas that string the game along, like we're basically creating the rules right now. The people that I'm talking to in this room, we're more or less deciding what the rules are. So it's like, are those the rules we want to adapt? Is that is that what we're saying is how do you handle the situation? How do we handle this? Right, as a as a people group? And they were so more concerned with coddling his ego and his sensitivities than saying, let's structure this in the way that we deem the most proper and best way to structure it. That was crazy to me. Crazy. So then was I wrong? We'll say I called him a crybaby. Other people have told me I could have said much more harsh, volatile, terrible shit to him and it still doesn't justify getting hit in the face. Yeah, because it's America. You don't talk about the legal system, basically say whatever the fuck you want. Free speech, but it's not free hit in the face. No. So you could say I was wrong. Call them crybaby, I guess, but none of that was worth getting hit in the face for. No, it wasn't warranted. The problem is, is that it's just a structure where you can get hit in the face for saying the wrong thing, apparently. So that should my behavior change in that kind of scenario, that's just a life. You can just say anything you want to anybody like, you know, saying something someone might be having the wrong day or, you know, I'm saying is might might catch someone at a bad time. And then the consequence for saying something, they this is death. They shoot you. Yeah. Road rage or some shit. You know what I'm saying? So you can't say anything you want to anybody at any time? Hypothetically, I guess you could. But there's this ramifications. What if. Okay, so then what if it's the truth? Or sticking up for yourself. There's times when saying the truth or sticking up for yourself is not the right thing to do, because you might get shot in the face. I didn't say that. No, no. Right. No, I'm talking about I'm not saying that you're saying that, but I'm saying that that's the next question is like, you can't say anything you want whenever you want. Maybe that's why you got hit in the face. And then I'm saying the the meta part is, is that I was sticking up for myself and a larger vein of context of sticking up for the truth that this guy is fucking annoying. So, like, I maybe I should have. The other alternative is to silence myself and say there's consequences to antagonizing someone who's antagonized, so I shouldn't push the button. And that's that's where the where the rub is, like I am. I do, I need to be silent to just get along with everybody? No, I don't think so. No, but you might get road rage shot if you're like, hey, why? Why don't you cut me off, dude? Wrong person at the wrong time. Boom. Consequences. So that's the weird part about it is like, I think that if someone cut someone, like, just swerves into your lane because they need to make their exit on the way over, and you are also making that exit. But you did it justifiably. You got over, you got over your slant down, and you get next to a guy in traffic. You both have your windows down. He looks at you and you're like, hey man, be careful. I got a baby in the car. Like, what the hell? And then that guy shoot you. It's like, that can happen, I guess. And maybe you shouldn't just say things to anybody because death is always a possibility. So it's like my brain doesn't know, like how to say this is the behavior that you should embody that would fix all sides of it. This is the ideal. It's like, what's the ideal in that scenario? It's like crazy people be crazy. Yeah. To a degree. What else. What else are you going to do. Get in the face. Yeah I guess fight back next time or just say nothing. Yeah. Shoot back. Shoot him first. That's not to anticipate. Anticipate that he's crazy. My guess. And be ready for a fucking physical altercation. Bobbins. Yeah. Yeah. Totally. Yeah, I just never I never thought I was a possibility in that scenario. Now, I know it's a possibility in every scenario. But I just didn't see it in that scenario that I saw coming. It happens. You never see it coming. This is food for thought. Yeah. Things to think about. See it coming. Yeah. On a broader scale, you could say Jordan Peterson didn't see the fist of the Canadian government coming for him when he stuck up for truth against crazy people. Yeah. I mean, just like, all right, this is gonna this is going to be some shit. I'm about to go to some shit right here. I'll show you a little bit. I think he knew a little bit about what he was doing as far as standing up to something or, you know, something for something. So this is this is going to have some resistance, some have some opposition here. Sure. It's not going to be a oh he's right. Yes. You know what I see what you're saying. Nope. Let's say they have. But that's not the nature of conflict. Nah, that's not the nature of it. Two forces. You know I'm saying. There's got to be some sort of. Splash. He was a little splash, some splash. Those are things I think about. We're going to have more to this item over to the end of our time today. Yes we're pushing. We're about to hit some more work. Keep on pushing y'all. Episode 91 more episodes coming. Fucking love you guys. Like, comment, subscribe. Tell a friend, be a friend. Have a great life. Have don't have a great life. You know. So I say you your own boss like have a good day. Don't tell me what to do it. Don't tell you what to do, lady. You never know who a punch in the face. Be careful. Watch out, watch it! Words. Watch. Energy. Love. Y'all have a great life. We'll see you the next time there's. Bye.